Your All Isn't Good Enough💋🔫

Yea

Waking up I just don't feel up to it. My mood is just blahhh.

Looking on the side of me Wes is sleeping, no care in the world. Figures I have the weight of the world on my shoulders,while he has little butterflies on his.

Taking a deep needed breath.
Getting out of bed taking a quick shower.

When I get out I throw on a pair of sweats and a white beater.

He comes up behind me kissing my neck. It use to give me butterflies. Now I feel nothing.

He turns me around kissing my lips. Moving his hands under my shirt, where they rest on my nipples playing with them.

Backing up from him.

"You can't solve everything with sex Wes."

"See you always fucking tripping man. I'm tired of this shit!"

"Me to"

A lone tear falls down my cheek

"I'm sorry man. I'm sorry. I know I should do better by you. You deserve so much better. I'm just a fuck up"

"You kiss the bitch? Uh make love to her? Hell, do you love her?"

Full tears are falling at this point.

He pulls me close. Use to feel safe in his arms. Now I feel sorrow. He brings me so much pain. He's like my bad habit that I can't pull myself from. I'm having dumb hoe syndrome.

Emotion void of everything. I'm losing myself to him. Scars unseen,smile on my face,depression on the inside. DAMAGED!

"Naw ma I'm sorry for not being here for you. I'm going to do better"

Still won't admit to it. Sad

Pulling my self away from him. From the lies,hurt,pain that he replays day in and day out.

Getting ready for work. Red collar shirt, black pants simple that's all I've been lately. No reason to dress up no compliments from the mouth that I need it to come from. All his mouth gives me is pain, lies,betrayal.

I don't even want to go to work,it's not like I need to. I'm set for the rest of my like.But he doesn't need to know that. I'm glad I didn't put that kind of trust in him that would have been my downfall.

Getting in the car with him, his hand on my thigh while the other one is steering.

You ever been so lost in your mind,that you just go with the flow around you. But not really paying attention to anything.

That's how my days been. I don't even remember getting out the car.

It's been slow today. Going through so much but I still manage to keep my smile in place.

Been lost in my head most of the time. People notice but don't say anything. I'm a ticking time bomb it seems.

When I look up I see Wes step dad come in. Ugh what now?

"What's up Mr.K?"

He looks at me shaking his head.

"Baby girl Wes done went and got his self locked up."

"What! What did he do?"

"Stupid, snapping and cursing threats to the police. I told him I'm not helping him this time"

"Really, this ughhhh. Hold on let me get my stuff"

Getting in the car,we make it to his house.

When I get there Wes's brother and sister are there standing out side.