Your All Isn't Good Enough💋🔫

Talk

He parks by a lake. I have the urge to just jump in the dame thing,instead of talking to him.

"Come on"

Getting out the car hugging myself. Walking to a picnic table. He sits on the bench while I sit on the table.

"Why didn't you tell me about your brother?"

"Um you never asked"

Giving him a duh look

"Stop playing,I'm serious"

"When I was younger we had it hard. Like real hard,no money, dirty,no clothes,water and lights stayed off. Well my father ended up fucking a big time drug dealer over. For awhile Fox didn't know who did it. Daddy knew they where going to be after him in awhile. How was he to explain a couple of millions when he was a janitor. Daddy started drinking heavy beating me and mama. He would make my brother do it if he didn't he would beat him worse. The alcohol just wasn't cutting it any more. So he turned to the needle."

Getting myself together I won't cry those tears dried a long time ago.

"The day beating turned to night and day. Then one night daddy came home high and drunk. He came in my room grabbed me by my hair then the same with my mother. He started saying mama was cheating. How she's disgusting and if she wants to be a whore he will treat her like one. He went in his room grabbing his supplies getting the needle ready. Tieing up mama's arm she cried putting up a good fight. He called my brother in the room telling him to hold her down. We were so young he didn't know any better he just didn't want to feel the pain that was to come if he didn't listen. Daddy put the poison in her veins. She stopped moving at that point. Didn't know what was coming or going. She got hooked a pure stone junkie. She wasn't my mama anymore. My brother felt he could have done something different.  But that wasn't possible. Two months later Fox found out who stole his money. He came Naw they came hard. Everybody looked the other way when it came to Tru. Nobody was stupid enough to cross him. He was a hot head. That gave no mercy. He jumped off the porch at 6. Helping his daddy with everything. Learning all that he could. His daddy told him when you at the top niggas plotting. He took over age 12 with his dad's right hand man Fox."

"So what happened sweetheart"

Zoe dried my tears that I hadn't even realize started coming down.

"They came in the middle of the night took us all. Daddy messed my face up pretty bad that night. The man with green eyes picked me up. They took us to a warehouse in the middle of no where. Funny thing I wasn't scared, I was ready to die nothing good came being here. We watched them cut daddy over and over to tell where the money was. Beat him bad,blood was everywhere. Bad thing there was no money,while me and my brother starved he ate good food,drugs,buzz. He grabbed daddy threw him to mama while she was so high she just laughed,head thrown back laughing. They kept us for 3weeks abd two days.

Then the last day they told daddy to  overdose himself. They gave him the needle prepared already. He looked at my mama then to us a few times. It's like she snapped out of it, like she knew something wrong was about to happen. She looked at me and my brother telling us she was sorry,never forget that she loves us to the sun and moon. It happened so fast, he injected my moms arm instead of his. Her body couldn't handle that  much drugs. Next thing I  know was  my mama was gone. And the person that caused all our pain did it. He took my mama. Then had the nerve to ask if his debt was paid. He looked up with a smirk,while my mama shook from the poison in her veins. I was pissed so fucking mad and pain took over. I was so young maybe 15 and a half. But my mind was much  older from the shit I had been through. Grabbing the gun from Tru. He looked but didn't say a word. He tracked my every move.

Little ol me didn't weigh nothing but skin and bones.

I said daddy oh daddy. He looked up fear in his eyes, while I had determination in mine. He said what you doing baby girl? Shoot them you see what they made me do. First shot was his leg  then the other. He screamed in pain I loved the feeling of control. I loved the feeling it gave me."You stupid bitch" as he cried like a bitch. Laughing maybe now he could feel half of the pain he caused me.Arm to arm,he was on his knees in front of me. Power! "Cali don't " one to the neck then head. I emptied the whole clip on his ass. Tru looked at me differently from that day on. Tru wasn't that much older than my brother. Me and my brother was 1 and half years apart.He took a load on at a young age with no hesitation. He took us in,showed me how to shoot,get money,sell dope ,food,shelter he treated me like a partner more attention than ive ever got. I adjusted fast. But my brother he was going crazy. Waking up in the middle of the night with screams. Seeing shit,hearing things that weren't there. After awhile he asked to go away for awhile. He did but days turned to weeks,weeks turned to months,months turned to years. It made me cold hearted,just about my money. Just me and Tru  Bonnie and Clyde. He was the only person that could touch  my heart. Tru was dairy, he made me into a killer that was untouchable, nobody knew I killed this person that person,sold drugs they knew nothing. I saved money from the get that stack after stack extra money Tru gave me, i saved I would never live the way i once did before, I made that promise to myself to keep. That was my mindset. One late night Tru said he wanted me to get out, me and him go start over go get Miguel and go far away from it all I thought the weed was just talking. Because we were high out our mind that night. He said something bad was coming soon.

That same night police bust in the house he put me behind a painting where I can see out but nobody in. They shot Tru in the head and chest,claimed he put up a fight. He was on his knees when they came in with his hands on his head. He mouthed I love you before everything happened. It's like he knew he did to much shit just to go to jail. The final straw was him killing the sheriffs son, Tommy owed allot of money he couldn't let it slide anymore. But I couldn't hear him being pronounced dead. Going out from under the house where the tunnel was I ran, I took my money and ran. Going to see Miguel he told me leave and not to return. So I left not looking back. I was so lonely, I got depressed bad where I tried to overdose. I lost my brother,my mama,the love of my life. Ain't no love in the ghetto. But I wanted to feel loved again, to have someone,not to hurt me that's when I fell for Wes. Worst fucking mistake. Don't judge me but this is my story"

"I'm not judging you,I have no right to,I just wanted to know what's going on that's all"

"Can you keep this between us?"

Saying this with pleading eyes

"I got you. Now I know where you get that A1 shot from"

Walking back to the car, I just want to get in the tub to think.

Miguel should be coming home with me. How can he be so selfish. You even get mad because I came to see you it's been years. Ugh I'm so confused,I do see his point of view I do. But I want no I need my big brother.

I just have to knock some sense into that big ass head of his. Watch out brother I'm coming,and I'm coming hard.

Ugh difficult chapter, I don't know why