Waking up in AoT

Chapter 30

***Suicide, may be triggering to some people. Read at your own discretion***

I can't sleep.

It feels like it's been hours since the other girls crawled into their beds and fell asleep. Annie snored on the bunk above me and Sasha wouldn't stop talking about potatoes as she slept. Krista cuddled with Ymir in her bed. Mikasa just laid there motionless.

Then I realized one bunk was empty: Hannah.

I jumped out of bed and ran outside, still in my nightgown. Where could she be?!

I don't remember any of this happening in the anime. Although, rumors were spread throughout the fandom that after Franz died she...

Oh no.

I ran back inside and woke the other girls who immediately began to panic. I told them what I knew and to look everywhere. We have to find her fast.

All of us quickly got dressed and darted back out. We spread out to cover more ground. There are no cliffs or anything and the terrain is pretty flat. No bodies of water. No sharp objects- except for the blades. That must be where she went!

I ran as fast as I could to where the gear was kept and opened the door to a scene I wish I could forget.

***blood/gore/feels warning***

"H-hannah?"

I ran next to her body, already knowing I was too late. A blade had been stabbed through her heart and her skin was pale. She wasn't moving.

I reached out a hand to touch her. She was freezing cold. Even in the dark, I could tell her eyes were shut, her hair was a mess, and she was still wearing her nightgown.

I removed the blade from her chest and took the jacket off my shoulders. I placed it on top of her torso to cover the wound and sang her to sleep.

"So long to all my friends, every one of them met tragic ends. With every passing day, I'd be lying if I didn't say that I miss them all tonight. And if they only knew what I would say if I could be with you tonight, I would sing you to sleep, never let them take the light behind your eyes."

I thought of Petra. Of all the soldiers I had let down.

"One day, I'll lose this fight, as we fade in the dark, just remember you will always burn as bright."

What if I can't save everyone?

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I both love and hate that song. I first heard it from a fanfiction and sobbed for hours, so hearing it now makes me cry even more.

What did you think? I haven't written anything feelsy in a while, so I may be a little out of practice. I still hope you liked it (:(

~Marco (:.^_^.:)