I was stunted, she saw my online blog? How the fuck did she do that? This woman is really part of the FBI, I swear to God. She knows everything. Well I cannot blame her. She has the tendency to be over protective, because of what happened a year ago.
I can still remember it vividly, she was crying on my lap, she couldn't speak properly, her whole world crumbled into pieces, her faith in love lessened and it's all because of him, yes I won't mention his name, because if my ex is an ass, well so was Cara's ex. Cara was always so strong, she didn't let anything tear her apart, nothing broke her except when he left her for another girl, another girl that he only met through an online blog. Since then Cara became stronger, she became tougher when it comes to love and that's why she shut Tristan down, she didn't want to get involved with another heartthrob.
"Anong blog, Cara?" I pretended, she was looking down on her food, I saw her eyes lit up when I asked her "Stop playing dumb, Aviana" her eyes was filled with anger, I can see that, I wanted her to calm down, so I kept quiet, "Ano nga, Aviana? Hindi mo ba talaga sasabihin sa amin?" Sigaw nya, hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko, tatayo ba ako at aalis, o sasagutin ko syang umiiyak ako. Nakita ko nang pinipigilan sya ni Tristan umiyak, etong si Ezekiel naman ay tumayo na para lapitan ako, "ANO AVIANA? WALA TALAGA? HINDI KA TALAGA MAG SASABI? PAANO KA MAGIGING OKAY? KUNG MISKI AKONG BEST FRIEND MO, PINAG TATAGUAN MO!" Nag dabog palabas si Cara, sinundan sya ng dalawa.
I ran to my room, locked the door and buried my face in my pillow. I didn't know what to say, what to do, how can I face them, I love them but I don't want them to know about my scars, plans and whatnots. I don't wanna be a burden, but I guess, I am right now. I heard Ezekiel's voice "Ababa, can we talk? Please?" I couldn't stand, I couldn't speak, I felt so wounded. He entered my room and came rushing, he grabbed my arms and looked at my scars, I saw him cry for the first time "Don't leave us, Aviana." I couldn't help but cry a bit more, "I-i-i-i'm sorry"
I woke up with Cara sleeping beside me, it triggered me, I cried again, how can she love me like this? How can they love me like this? I'm at fault and yet she's still the first one to come to me. I hugged her so tight and whispered "I'm sorry", I knew that she couldn't hear me but I still wanted her to know that I was sorry. I saw the guys sleeping on the floor too. They kept me company, they didn't leave me.
"How can I leave these people..?" I asked myself
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Chance to fall or walk
Teen FictionCan Aviana still recover from the pain she has endured for the past years, can the past still destroy her, or will she find the will to walk away from the things that can kill her and walk towards that things and people that won't.
