My head was throbbing again, I think from the stress and from the pressure they made me feel today. My head has been hurting constantly, am I dying? That would be a relief on my end, I want all of this pressure to end asap.
New text message:
John: I'm guessing that you're busy.
Jeez. I forgot, he messaged me earlier asking me out. I've been so rude, he didn't do anything to me but why am I suddenly cold and distant?
To John:
Hi John. I'm sorry, I was so busy today. Maybe next time.
I quickly opened Autocad and designed a new building, I redid everything. I put love and passion when I was designing, and I tried to remember why I took architecture in the first place, why I love architecture, why I pushed this course even when my parents wanted me to take Law. This was my dream, this was our dream.
"Love, when we finish college. We'll design our house together okay?" Ian said as he kissed the top of my head while we looked through the overlooking of London. My haven, my home. It was perfect.
"Love, architecture it is! I can't wait to take our entrance exam on the 23rd." I smiled while hugging him, he didn't respond. He was staring blankly at me, lumayo ako agad sa kanya at agad na nag tanong "What's wrong, Ian?" He shook his head to answer my question. He hugged me afterward and whispered "Soon love, soon." I didn't understand but I agreed anyway.
"Ian Zander Dolores" tawag ng aming teacher, lumapit si Ian sa aming teacher at nag-usap, habang hinihintay ko syang bumalik nag-susulat ako sa planner ko, I was slowly planning our days together, dinner dates and all those. Pag balik nya ay umiiyak sya, tinanong ko sya kung bakit sya umiiyak, hindi sya nag salita. Umupo lang sya at tumabi sa akin "I can't take up Architecture, Av. My grades are not enough for me to take the entrance exam for the this course." I was crushed, this was our dream, my dream for him, his dream for himself.
"No. Aviana, please push through this dream." I was convincing him that I won't take up Architectural anymore if he isn't going with me. Ayaw kong mag-isa mag take ng entrance exam, pangarap namin ito, kaya dapat kaming dalawa ang gagawa nitong magkasama, "Ayaw ko. I don't want to, Ian. Ayaw ko pag wala ka." Hinawakan nya ang aking kamay at hinalikan ang pisngi ko "Sige na, do it for me." Tumulo ang luha ko, sige Ian. Gagawin ko ito para sa atin, para sa kinabukasan natin.
It was the day of my exam, entrance exam for Architecture. Of course, walang ideya ang parents ko dahil ang buong akala nila ay mag eexam ako para sa Law school. Little did they know. I'm sorry mum and dad. But this is for me. I want to be happy, and that will only happen if he's happy.
Sinalubong ko si Ian sa may harap ng university kung saan ako mag eexam, niyakap ko sya ng mahigpit pero bago pa ako makapag-yaya sa kanya papasok ng university ay agad syang nag salita "Aviana, we need to speak."
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Chance to fall or walk
Novela JuvenilCan Aviana still recover from the pain she has endured for the past years, can the past still destroy her, or will she find the will to walk away from the things that can kill her and walk towards that things and people that won't.
