I must admit, my best friend is right, I haven't been alright since the break up, I don't wanna sound so cliché but the break up has really destroyed me, not only emotionally but physically, addition to that is my never ending anxiety attacks and my depression. No one knows about this but me but I think Cara has some ideas but I'd rather keep this to myself rather than burden anyone. I don't care, I'll handle this by myself.
There are a lot of things I'm not proud of doing, a lot experiences I've done that I wouldn't wish anyone to feel nor do, one might say it was the "demon" taking over me at that time. It's a sin, inflicting physical pain to yourself is bad, it is against all will, but I've done it. And I'm not proud of it, but it was my only way out, it is my only escape until today.
"Ano baaaaaaaaaa, Cara Alexina, tigil tigilan mo nga yang mga throwback mong issues. Okay na ako! Naka ilang papi na ako no!" Sabi ko ng medyo asar na, lumapit ako lalo sa kanya at kinurot sya, she flinched and fought back "Lux!! Tigilan mo ko, real talk lang! Puro fling ka rin, marami nga fling naman.. wala tayong mapapala dyan" hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko sa kanya, kaya niyaya ko syang mag gym kami, sya ay pumayag at sabi namin na we'll meet at the gym at around 6pm, since tanghali pa lang I decided to catch up on some reading.
Nagbasa ako ng mga novels ng biglang nag text sa akin, I ignored, pero maya maya may message na naman
*2 Facebook messages*
Nicholas Ezekiel: Nana! Nana!
Nicholas Ezekiel: Reply asap, Na!!
I was startled with his messages, what does he want now? I went online and replied to him.
Aviana Lux Peterson: Ezekiel, what do you want? What's wrong? What happened.
It didn't take him 2 minutes to reply, he replied quickly right even before I can put my phone down
Nicholas Ezekiel: Av, did you know that andito na yung ex mo sa Pinas?
Aviana Lux: Para sa lalaki ang chismoso mo, and why do you even have to keep me posted? Parang ikaw pa nga yung nag buhat sakin palabas ng airport ilan years ago when I wanted to fly back to UK for him :-)
Napatingin ako sa wrists ko, I saw the scars and those scars reminded me of him, he was one of the reasons why this scars happened. I don't want that to happen again, not again, tama na Aviana, awat na, ibang chance naman sa ibang tao.
It took Ezekiel several minutes to reply
Nicholas Ezekiel: Well babe, I just wanted you to know para lumalayo layo sa mga crowded places, baka kasi bigla kayo mag kita ;)
Aviana Lux: Oh shut up, Nicholas. I don't need a babysitter. I'm going I have to meet up with Cara within an hour. Gtg xx hang soon xx
YOU ARE READING
Chance to fall or walk
Novela JuvenilCan Aviana still recover from the pain she has endured for the past years, can the past still destroy her, or will she find the will to walk away from the things that can kill her and walk towards that things and people that won't.
