Dear Diary

22

Chapter Twenty-Two

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   Date night. That is a big night for a girl, especially going on a date after she got cheated on. You want it to be magical and special, but right now I am nervous and sweating buckets. 

   I always want to remember this, remember him...remember him coming into my life and changing it completely. Making me feel things I haven't felt in a while. 

   It's that point in time when you are with that person and your smiles turn into laughs and laughs turn into kisses-and before you know it, your days turn into weeks, and your weeks turn into months-and then you'll find yourself forgetting what it was like before you had that person in your life. 

   I was scared at first to fall in love with him because if I did that, I was giving him the power to destroy me, but I also didn't think about trusting him enough to not do that. 

   After everything happened with Alex, I thought I could never trust any boy again, but then Asher came along and changed all that. When I couldn't think straight he would screw me back in place and he is the only one I mind loosing sleep over. 

   I never thought I would find someone who I am this crazy about again, but he came along and it was hard not to. Not to fall for my protector, even though he annoys the living heck out of me. 

   Even on my worst nights, Asher was able to turn them around and make me feel wanted, loved. He has seen parts of me that no one else has seen and he fell for me. He took my softest part and loved it with all he can. 

   It was hard to admit at first, but now I can say it like crazy. I have fallen for him completely, everything you do, everything you say, everything you are. You are the first thing I think about int he morning, and the last thing I think about before I go to sleep, and almost everything in between. 

   You know what I love most about us? It's that, even though we are in a relationship, we can act like best friends. I love that I have that comfort with you, a type of comfort that I have with no one else. I love how we endlessly make fun of each other, but we never take it to the heart. I love the way you look at me when we are fighting and how you try to stay mad, but you run back. 

   I have been so lost lately. And so sad, and terribly lonely. Even the birds have something to sing about, though they've not heard the thousand of songs playing on the radio. Even the stars have someone to shine upon, kissing the faces of loved ones that have been left behind. I am worse than the skies, the thunder and rain. But Asher brought me back to earth. Made sure that everything would be okay and steadied me. 

   I now know that I can trust this boy, and I hope he doesn't ruin my trust, because if he does, I know I won't be able to trust anyone again. 

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A/N

   I really have nothing to say for this one so yeah. I love you forever and ever and ever, okay. 

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Much love,

   -Alyssa