Show Me Your Face

Not After Him

~EDITED~

*Warning, mature content, read at your own risk.

I am NOT romanticizing rape of any kind, rape is not okay. If you have been unwillingly touched in any way, please tell someone in authority. No one deserves that to happen to them, stay safe everyone*

Levi's POV:

I stood in the shower, my arms supporting me as I leaned against the clean tile wall, water washing over my body and my mask as tears ran down my blank face, my limbs shaking intensely. I grabbed the soap, pouring it over my body and scrubbing at my neck harshly, my back hitting the wall as I slid down the tile, my nails scratching at my skin where he touched me. I feel foul, my body is defiled. This wasn't a romantic fairy tail or some strange story, my stomach turned when I thought about it, thought about how utterly cold and burning hot his hands were. I didn't know what to do, I didn't know how to think, I didn't have any experience with this shit. I thought about earlier, my shoulders shook more as I cried in the cold shower. 

"Ah, Levi you are here"

I walked into the Emperor's personal chambers, for some reason he wanted to meet me here.The air, it was colder, almost lighter, it didn't feel the same as it did in the other rooms, like it had been filtered to be specifically different. "Erwin?" I asked aloud, my eyes searching the dark corners of the lavish room, annoyed that I had been summoned but wasn't being talked to directly.

"Yes"

I jumped in shock, feeling arms going around me from behind and a mouth near my cheeks. I could feel his breath on the exposed part of my face, the shock making my body stiffen and freeze, finally trying to pull away but his hands moved and clamped on my body. "G-get off!" I yelled in shock, a mouth going on my neck and kissing it roughly as my legs kicked, my hands scratching up his arms.

"Mm Levi" Erwin mumbled in my ear, I flailed my arms and finally got away from him, my body shaking with fear as I whipped around and stumbled back and away from him. I couldn't hit the Emperor could I?! Erwin stood in front of me, blocking my path, fear made my blood run cold, I had no idea what to do, I was terrified. Suddenly a hand slapped across my cheek, my mask shifting and cutting into my skin harshly which made me yelp in shock, one of his hands went to my hair and held me against the wall without mercy, my arms trying their best to hold him back.

"Erwin what the fuck?!" I screamed and pounded on his chest with closed fists, his arms wrapping around my squirming body. I tried my best to get loose, yelling for guards or anyone to help, my voice feeling useless, I felt his teeth on my neck and I brought my head down on his, trying to smack him away with anything I could.

"Why do you do this Levi?" Erwin growled, getting angry his hands went to my hips and squeezed them, leaving bruises. I screamed in pain and kicked out, hitting him right in the middle of his chest, causing him to stumble back, releasing me finally and I dropped to the floor. my legs shaking like I had been running for hours. I hugged my body in fear, stumbling past him and running as fast as I could out of the room. I needed to do something. I needed to find someone, anyone to help. I found myself running towards the jail without a second thought.

I gasped for air, my body shaking even more as I looked up, hot tears running down my face as the water washed my skin clean again, only for me to dump more soap on myself and scrub it away again. I couldn't tell anyone, I felt ashamed. No, I had to, I couldn't stay in the palace with that on my conscience, never seeing Erwin the same again, especially since he took his mask off to do, that! I turned the shower off, getting out I got my clothes on quickly, pulling them to be perfectly set. I dried my mask and left my room, looking around nervously as I walked down the hall. Again, I found myself walking to the jail, my steps quick and light. As I entered the horrible dungeon again I said a quick, "Dismissed" to the guards, who bowed in response and exited quickly.

I looked over at Eren, seeing his chest rising and falling in his sleep as his body rested on the rickety bed frame. It was absolutely disgusting in the jail, rats and flies everywhere, more mold then there was wall, the smell almost overpowering my mask. I grabbed a clean chair and sat, crossing my legs and arms, my eyes going back to Eren, trying to get my mind off things. He was so concerned about me, it was kind of gross. I'm not the most, affectionate of people, never will be.

Not after him.