You're In My Dreams

Decisions Decide Your Fate

I wake up nervous, knowing what today is. Its been a week since my birthday. Today means I'm supposed to go back to Ryan. I sigh and get up, and slowly get ready. And by slow I mean really slow. I took two hours to get ready. I guess I should tell my mom goodbye I think to myself. We have gotten close again. And now I'm just gonna leave her. I sigh and walk out to my car and get in. I begin driving to her house sadly. First my dad, then my sister. Then she basically leaves me, then I leave her. I guess leaving runs in the family I joke to myself. I got to her house faster then I actually wanted to. I parked and walked to her door. I hesitantly knocked and she answered it. Hey Chloe she says with a smile. Hey I say with a fake smile. She invites me in and we drink coffee. I wanna stay as long as I possibly can. Unfortunately that wasn't that long. She apparently has some sort of meeting. She shows me to the door and I hug her. Bye Chloe see you soon she says, but little does she know she'll never see me again. I go back into my car and begin driving to the store. I feel sick because I'm so nervous. All I could think about is should I really leave. But I have to, because my baby will be different. They'd probably do a bunch of tests in her and me. All these thoughts rushing through my head until one really got to me. I ran from Ryan and escaped. So what is his dad gonna do to me I ask myself. I wasn't paying a lot if attention to the road because I almost hit another car. They beeped loudly and cursed, but I didn't care. None of this will matter in a few minutes. I get to the store and pull into the parking lot. I turned my car off and looked at the back of the building. I guess it's time to leave my old life behind and start a new one with an alien I say to myself.  I get out the car and go up to the store. I trudge to the back of it. I look around and don't see Ryan. Great so I just cane here for nothing I say aloud. Some of me feels joy but most of me feels hurt and abandonment. I didn't think you were coming Ryan said scaring me. You cant keep doing that I say turning around to face him. We should get going he says. Ok I say starting to feel the nervousness inside me again. He pulls me into a kiss but I don't close my eyes. Chlo, close your eyes he says into my lips. I close my eyes and i know we are no longer at the store. I keep my eyes shut hoping this is all a dream and I'll wake up soon. Chlo I heard Ryan say. I know what he wants so I open my eyes. I sit down on the couch and so does he. I missed you he says picking up my hand and holding it. Are you still mad I ask him off topic. Yeah, more upset though he says letting go of my hand. But you're back now. And I guess I'll be more careful this time he said staring at nothing. What about your dad I ask scared. I guess hope for the best he says sending a chill down my spine. But let's not worry about that now, and let's talk about the baby he says. What do you mean let's not worry. I could be eaten by your dad for crying out loud I say, but only in my head. Like what I ask him. He looks down at my stomach and then back at me. Lay down he tells me. I lay down not wanting to cause me to get into more trouble. He lays his head on my stomach causing me to feel uncomfortable. What are you doing I try to ask but all he does is shush me. He smiles and then sits back up, what was that about I ask him. I can't wait for her to be born he says still smiling.   I shrug him off and just stare at the blank tv. You're still worried aren't you he asks me. How could I not be I ask almost ready to cry. These pregnancy hormones really suck I think to myself.  I felt Ryan slide his fingers across my face so I looked at him weird. I realized I was crying and he was just wiping a tear away. I won't let him hurt you, ever. He said in a voice I can't describe. I feel another tear go down my face so I wipe it away. I love you so much he says with a smile. For some reason I blush, which causes him to laugh. Please don't leave me again, it was so painful without you he says looking straight into my eyes. I won't, it was lonely without you I admit. He pulls me onto him and lays down. I lay on his chest as he rubs my back. It felt great to be in his arms again. I feel his hands getting lower until they reach my behind. ( butt) What are you doing I ask him. Having fun he says with his hands remaining in the same spot. I close my eyes and lay my head onto his chest. I love Ryan I say before falling asleep. Little did I know what was gonna happen when I woke up.