Love Dust

Chapter 46: Be Strong

It’s been quite a few days since, I didn’t meet TOP. Every day, he never forgot to text or call me but I left him with no reply because, I don’t want to cause him another trouble. With his messages, I know that he’s very much sincere and concern for me. I tried not to read any articles about the issue online and didn’t even try to open my social network accounts.

The people outside SNU started to decreased as days passed and every time I went out the campus, Seung Joon always accompany me with myself wearing anything that can hide my Southeast Asian look.

It was not so usual to stay here my dorm at this hour because, at this time, I must be in TOP’s condominium to do the house chore. Alone and with nothing to do, I just decided to do an advance reading in Environmental Science. Then, my phone rang...

I checked who was calling and found that it was my little sister, Innah...

“Hello?” I answered.

“Hey, sis!” she answered in an awkward tone.

“Wh—why did you call?” I worriedly replied.

“Mom told me not to call you but --“

“But what?”

“Our apartment was demolished this morning and until now, dad hasn’t found any job yet... the government didn’t give us any relocation because, the building was illegal...”

“Don’t worry, sis. I’ll come home on my vacation but for now, just stay with our relatives temporarily, okay?”

“Okay, sis and I’m sorry for making you worry.” Innah apologized.

“No, it’s okay, sis. Just stay strong. We can get through this.” I ended and hanged the phone.

Immediately, I turned on my laptop and went to SNU’s site to check the terms and conditions of my scholarship. I found that I can still continue my studies anytime within 8 years. As I know, my masteral degree is just good for 1and a half year that’s why I still have extra 5 more years before the scholarship lapse.

I opened my email to see, if there were still companies in the Philippines who were willing to hire me as a fresh graduate. As I scroll down, I saw that a glass company in Manila asked to apply once I passed the licensure exam.

“Alright, I’ll take this job. The scholarship can wait... My family needs me now.” I told myself.

I continued to scroll down to see if there were other companies that emailed me... until, another window opened which I guess it to be a promotion but I’m wrong. It was an online news showbiz article with TOP and my self’s photo with my face blurred. It showed that this photo was taken when we were in Namsan Tower. Although, that I’m here in Seoul the article was published in English. I guess that this was a sign for me to know what’s happening. I read the title and it says, ‘TOP denies it all’. The title didn’t disappoint me because, I already expected this because he’s a celebrity and I understand him for that.

I read the article and found that he answered the questions too lightly. I tried not to scroll down because, I’m preventing myself to read the comments since, I know that most of them are harsh.

I sighed and prepared myself. I decided to read the English and Tagalog comments of the netizens because, I know myself much better than they do and bashing are just signs of insecurities.

Comments:

~ Awww... TOP, how I wished that I’m that girl!! Huhuhuhuhu T___T

~Why did they blur the face? Doesn’t she look attractive?

~Sabi nila, Pinay day yung girl (>_<) It’s more fun in the Philippines! (They said that the girl is a Filipino)

~TOP, why Southeast Asian? Westeners are more beautiful!!

~With his answers and although he denied, I think he’s really in love. What a lucky woman. Let’s just be happy for both of them.

~All that I can say is that she’s short. They don’t look good together.

~Sana manlang pinakita yung mukha. Magaganda talaga Southeast Asians lalo na mga Filipina. (It would be better if they showed the face. Truly, Southeast Asians are attractive especially Filipinas.)

My tears started to fall down when I read the next comments...

~She’s a WITCH!! How come that love potions are still ‘in’ during the modern age? Girl, if you read this, send me your recipe. I’ll try it to the other Bigbang members.

~No doubt that they made the face blurred because, she’s not pretty. I pity TOP for his standards and liking/loving this woman!

~What kind of genes does this woman have? SHORT and UGLY. I feel sorry for her parents for racing such kind of daughter who seduced TOP with that kind of look.

~If she’s ugly what more her family? It’s rhyming ‘coz it’s true. I feel sorry for TOP.

~She’s studying in Seoul National University. Fellas, truly you can’t have it all. Has brains but no face.

Sobbing in pain, I decided not to read the other comments and suddenly, my phone alerted for a text message. I opened it as I wipe my tears and saw that it was a message from TOP. The 22nd message, after the issue started...

‘Please, meet me in the Han River, 11pm. I’ll wait for you...’