Journal

I'm Sorry

My heart longs for you sweetly

It's words lie deaf apon your ears

Land like pebbles against your armor

It shields yours and veils your eyes

My eyes lie open, vulnerable to you

I understand your "Love" for me

It's not as it once was

You may hate that I compare you to the other

I refuse to speak her name

But little do you know, you do the same as she

I can't be the friend, the companion, the mate

I am a lover, a fighter, a blue eyed poet

Passionate as the artist who paints his feelings

I write mine in word and touch

My lips speak in the tongue of love, my arms in the way of hugs

Now both lie empty

I cannot pretend I don't long for you

You cannot pretend you don't care

But I care the world about you, every fiber of my being

Drawn like a magnet to your indefinite attraction

As warm waters drape across my body

I did something I soon would regret

I'm sorry I hurt myself, forever making things worse

I can't help that, you know I'm self destructive

Awaiting one last incineration, before I'm out like a birthday candle

I'm sorry if I hurt you or ever did
You won't see me anymore, just look right past me

My limber frame will rest on hard stones

The skin hanging over, cold to the touch

Ice kisses atip my fingers as they won't be comforted any longer

It is with this I say Adeui

Just remember,"Friends can break your heart too..."

I am forever tired, but never of you

If you find yourself alone or weak

You know where to find me, an eternity of waiting for your love you had once more..