Journal

Hurt

Getting hurt isn't like the "I fell and scratched my knee hurt",
Getting hurt is like the "Please marry me and she says no hurt",
It kills you,
Especially when you can't explain it to the other person,
I love her,
I really really,
Honest to God,
Love her,
But...she doesn't love me back anymore,
I guess that was the straw that broke the camel's back,
The last thing before I gave up entirely,
I gave up everything for a second chance,
I gave up a girl who would love me,
I gave up my pride,
I gave up my heart,
Just to hear the words,
"I'm already with someone else,"
I tried to tell her,
But it was too late,
She let 'him' answer for her,
She didn't want to hear that I was free from the constraints of a relationship,
And when she ignored me,
She told him yes,
She told him she'd be his to love,
His to hold when things got rough,
His to be forever..,
She tells me she was just lonely,
She tells me he just made things easier,
It didn't matter what I gave up for her,
She doesn't love me anymore,
I don't matter,
I tried to put everything back together the way they fit for me,
But time had withered the pieces,
And the puzzle no longer fit anymore it seems,
The whole in my chest is unbearable,
It hurts so much,
I can't help but weep,
I wish sometimes she'd take the steps to fixing it,
But I figure I'm not worth the trouble,
So I'll just disappear.
  She hurt me,
      So much...