don't blame me ❁ taylor swift and halsey

vi // delicate

Taylor woke up with a start. She had an awful dream she was running through the woods with wolves chasing her.

(32 and still growing up now)

She sat up and rubbed her eyes. Slowly, she remembered she was in Ashley's apartment. Speaking of Ashley, she lay beside Taylor, her head resting on Taylor's left thigh.
It was so quiet that she could hear Ashley breathing.

As her chest rose and fell in a gentle rhythm, Taylor gently ran her fingers through Ashley's hair and plaited it lightly with her fingers. She brushed it from her face and stroked Ashley's cheek with the back of her hand.

"Mmh, that feels nice" Ashley murmured. Taylor didn't know if she was awake or not, but continued doing what she was doing.

Ashley's eyes fluttered open and she turned slightly to kiss the back of Taylor's hand "That was a lovely way to wake up, you should stay more often"

Taylor smiled and just gazed at Ashley, who played with her fingers, gently inspecting them and kissing the tips.

"So what'll we do today?" Taylor asked.

"Well, I know a guy on Halsey Street who's having a party, wanna go?"

Taylor didn't like parties.

She sighed "I'm honestly not a party person"

"Well, what if we had a party of our own first?" asked Ashley.

"Just me and you?"

"Mmh"

"Okay. Um. Will there be drink?" asked Taylor

"It's not a party without it babygirl! You don't have to drink though"

"Okay" Taylor was relieved. She had never drunk before.

(We can't make any promises babe but you can make me a drink)

—

They had been shopping and they bought a couple of cans and a bottle of vodka. Taylor thought they should have their 'party' in her house.

So the two girls found themselves on the train once more. Taylor had been on more trains the past two days than she had been in a lifetime.

She stared at the guy sitting opposite her and looked away as soon as his gaze met hers. It was Calvin, her ex boyfriend. They were together just over a year and then, they broke up. Calvin wanted to work on his "music career". Taylor thought he wanted time to fuck girls who were more fun.

Ashley was right, she was very innocent. She looked at the pink skirt she wore with the matching top, both covered in sequins. She needed a change. And fast.

They arrived in Brooklyn and Taylor took Ashley's hand in hers, making sure Calvin was looking as she left the train. She felt his gaze burn a hole in her as she led Ashley out of the station and the doors closed on him, the train leaving the station.

"Hey are you alright?" Ashley asked "You're cutting off my circulation here" she said, jokingly.

Taylor dropped her hand, as if it was on fire "I'm fine, just let's go" she walked briskly on ahead of her.

Ashley was confused. Taylor was being weird. It wasn't like her.

Taylor didn't talk again until the two girls were at her house and she had opened her first can and drank it all.

(1, 2, 3, let's go bitch)

"I saw my ex on the train" she said, breaking the silence she had created. "He's a fucking asshole"

Ashley fought a smile. She really did find it hot when Taylor swore.

"He left me to work on his music career. Music career my ass, he makes remixes and writes shitty club songs, like anyone can fucking do that. He just wanted rid of me because I was too basic for him, too pure. I wasn't a fucking whore. Well, I'm sorry" she crushed the can in her hand and threw it on the floor.

Ashley stared at the can. Woah.

"Don't be sorry. I'm glad you're not a whore" she said softly "You're amazing Taylor, he never deserved you"

(Who you are is not where you've been)

Taylor opened another can "It's not just him. Joe broke up with me on the fucking phone. Taylor was an asshole. Harry fucked me and then left, I'm just a notch in his fucking belt. Jake was way out of my league. Tom was just a fucking dickhead, he only wanted me because I made him look good" she took a massive swig and started crying "I just want someone to love me"

(Is it too soon to do this yet?)

"I love you"

Taylor's head snapped up and stared at Ashley "What?"

"I love you" Ashley repeated

"Why?"

"You're sweet. You're kind. You're caring. You're beautiful. You're like a little ray of sunshine. You make my world brighter. I used to fuck this guy who would hit me every chance he got. Then there was Zack who cared more about LSD than me. Then there was Violet who wanted to fuck me behind closed doors and refused to even call me 'baby' in public. Then there was the guy who was with that basic bitch and we just fucked in hotel rooms and pretended we were in love. I get it Taylor. But I love you. And i've never loved someone like I love you" Ashley told her.

Taylor placed the can on the coffee table and took Ashley's and placed it beside hers.

(Don't blame me, love made me crazy.)

"What are y-" Ashley was cut off by Taylor cupping her face and kissing her. It was soft and slow, but full of love. Ashley's hands sat on Taylor's petite waist as Taylor's arms wrapped around her neck.
They pulled away.

"This may be the alcohol talking" Taylor said "But I love you too"

(Something happened for the first time in the darkest little paradise)

Ashley smiled and softly kissed her again "I'm glad"

"Hey this may be the alcohol talking again but will you be my girlfriend?" Taylor asked.

(They say she's gone too far this time.)

"I'd love to"