When you wish upon a star (An Everlark fanfiction)

Chapter 7: Talking to a star

Chapter 7

Peeta's P.O.V.

I can't say that I hated the kiss. Actually I kind of enjoyed it. But how could I enjoy it you may ask?

Well to tell you the truth, I don't hate Katniss. I really don't. I've never hated her.

And yes I do feel so bad about my behavior, but that's the only thing I thought of to do.

I hate myself for being like this towards Katniss. For giving her these cold gazes, force my face to look disgusted.

Katniss looks at me with disgust as well. But from start she didn't. She looked at me in a whole other way. With other type of eyes. She looked at me hurt. With time she sort of build up a shield between us, between her emotions and the world and started to pull away from everyone.

It's all my fault. And I hate myself for it, but I had no choice. I had to do this, and I still need to do this.

That's why I say this right now, even though my heart don't follow the words at all.

"Weren't you suppose to go and vomit Everdeen?"

Katniss gives me a death glare.

"Fuck off Mellark!" She says.

Something has changed in her voice though. I can't put my finger on it.

I just snore and spin the bottle.

Ugh I hate this game. Damn you Finnick.

I can't stop thinking about the kiss though. I can still feel how Katniss warm soft lips felt against mine, and how I felt the electricity rush throughout my body.

The bottle points at Katniss when it stops.

"You know what? No! I'm not playing anymore", she says. Katniss takes up the bottle and stands up. "This is freaking stupid, this is all your fault Clove! You couldn't accept the fact that Peeta and I hate each other! Why did you have to do that?!" She shouts and throws the bottle across the room and it smashes right into the wall and breaks into a million pieces.

She doesn't look sad exactly. She looks more like hurt and angry. Like very angry.

Oh god this is my fault. I'm the reason Katniss is behaving like this.

Everyone knew that Katniss and I were best friends before. But no one knows why we started to hate each other.

I do know. Katniss does not. She started to hate me because I hate her. Or as I said I don't hate her. It's the complete other way around. And that's exactly why I do this.

"I'm so sick of this! Just accept that Peeta and I aren't friends just because the both of us are your friends!" Katniss continues.

Every word she says that involves both me and her, is like a stab in the heart.

But I stand up.

"Yeah, and we will never be friends, just because you're such a matchmaker doesn't mean you can fix us together Clo!" I say angrily.

Katniss a looks at me. I look at her. Our eyes meet.

Her eyes are so beautiful. But it hurts so see her so hurt and angry.

At the same time we both turn our backs towards each other and I snort.

Oh I hate this!

But I don't have a choice.

"Whatever", Clove mumbles and Katniss leaves the room.

After about two hours Katniss came back. She had changed into something else and she had taken a shower as well.

She doesn't look at me one more time during this whole evening. And I don't judge her.

But when I look at our sleeping bags, I see that mine and Katniss are lying right beside each other.

Damn! Why?

Oh well.

But it seems like Katniss has disappeared again.

Where is she this time?

"Where's Kit?" Finnick asks.

I remember the time when I used to call her that. Kit. Everyone called her that. Not her father though.

Nowadays I just calls her Everdeen, and even that hurts me.

"Peet can you go and look for her?" Clove asks.

I look at her and are about to protest against that. Is she still trying to get us together?

"I just said look for her, not kiss her", Clove sighs. "So can you just look for her?"

I sigh and make my way up the stairs.

I walk past many doors, and when I'm about to call her, I hear a voice.

I walk up the corridor and up to a door that leads out on big balcony.

Katniss stands there in her black lace nightgown.

Her hair is falling in waves over her shoulder and it flutter a bit in the light wind.

I stand still right outside the door.

"Dad I miss you so much, but no matter how much I wish upon a star, my dreams never come true", Katniss sighs, looking up at the sky and I can see that one of the starts shines the brightest. "I just don't know if I wanna live, my life really isn't worth all of this. I mean everything with Peeta, why does he hate me? What did I ever do to him? And should I mention Delly and her minions, they just won't leave me be, and another thing... You're not here daddy".

Katniss continues to look up at the sky.

The thing she said about me, really broke my heart. I wanna tell her why, but I can't..

"Daddy I remember that you always said that you loved to hear me sing, I haven't sung one single song since the day ... Anyway, even if you're dead, it feels like you're the only one I can really talk to", Katniss continues and makes a small laugh. "People would think I'm crazy, if they saw me right now".

And that's when I turn around and walk away. I shouldn't be listening to this. It's Katniss inner thoughts, only meant for her father, and no one else.

Katniss wishes upon starts? That's really cute.

One thing got stuck in my head though.

What is Delly doing to Katniss?

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Haha okay, here was a chapter, not that long, but it was a chapter anyways.

Now what could have made Peeta behave like that towards Katniss?

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-Josephine xx