When you wish upon a star (An Everlark fanfiction)

Chapter 22: Moving forward

Chapter 22

Katniss P.O.V.

I remember when the others made me and Peeta kiss during spin the bottle. How I felt during the kiss and how the kiss felt.

This is nothing like that. Before I felt sparks and a little tingle in my stomach. Now I feel fireworks, and I feel so much tingle in my stomach and I feel so many sparks. I feel everything anyone can feel, doubled up.

I lock my arms around Peeta's neck and he put his hands on my waist and pulls my body closer to him.

We only pull away our lips to he able to breath.

I keep my arms around his neck as I pull away my head and look him in his eyes.

Peeta looks at me and I feel his eyes staring into my soul.

I've tried pushing these feelings aside for so long now, that everything is just welling up and I can't stop it.

"I'm not easily scared, you got that?" I ask him.

"I'm starting to", Peeta says as he starts smiling.

"Good", I say and press my lips agains his again.

When I pull away he smiles really big. I think that he may be happy.

I hope he's happy, because I am happy. In this moment, on this day, in this hour, in this minute and in this second, I'm actually very happy.

"And I won't lose you again, just so you know, and now I've said that a few times, because I mean it", I say.

"Yeah I'm starting to get that as well", Peeta chuckles. "I don't want to lose you either, these past years has been a nightmare".

I know what he means about that. It really has been a nightmare. I've missed him, but in this missing part, I started to hate him. But I started to hate myself for losing him. I felt like I did something wrong with our friendship.

But now I know that it wasn't my fault. It was Peeta's witch to mother that separated us. She forced us apart. But we're not kids anymore, and she better learn that because I'm not leaving Peeta again and I'm not gonna let him leave me because of his mother.

Oh we've missed so many years because of Peeta's mother. It's not fair. We lost all this time, me hating him and him being sad and miserable. I can't believe this happened.

We start walking.

"You don't have to be in the bakery?" I ask.

"Yes, but I can't go back there now, mom is going to kill me, and this time I mean literary", Peeta says and my pulse rises. "I need to talk to dad, it can be dangerous for me to be in the same room as mom for most of the time, he need to put an end to this".

Yeah. Divorce that bitch.

"I'm really sorry Peeta", I say.

"Don't be, I'm sorry, for doing what I did, and for what I almost did now", Peeta says. "I was just scared, scared of you being harmed, and after all I did you still got hurt by my mother, after everything I tried you still met that rolling pin, and today I panicked".

"Don't be scared, I'm not afraid of a little pain Peeta, I've already reached the highest level in pain as you know by getting my head smashed into the wall and cracked up and my arms bleeding and seeing my dad getting murdered right in front of me", I say. "I can take a little bit of pain, trust me, and especially if it means that I don't have to lose you again".

Peeta looks at me.

"Okay, you're not gonna lose me, I can promise that, I can't promise that my mom won't be a monster", he says. "But I'm gonna try my best to get her kicked out".

"I've handled even worse monsters", I say thinking of Delly. "I can handle this one as well".

"I don't doubt you won't, but I'm not going to", he says. "I can't see you in pain, I just can't".

And this is when I see all the pictures of Peeta's face when I've been in some kind of pain. Uncomfortable and something dying in his eyes. I didn't think much if it until now, because I've never thought that he could possibly be in love with me. Or not even care for me. I've never actually noticed it like that, it's only now when I think back.

Maybe it wasn't so easy for Peeta to turn his back towards me.

I don't know where we're going. We just keep walking and walking.

I don't think that Peeta even knows where we're going. But I don't think that it matters. We don't have to be anywhere and we can just walk wherever we want.

We end up on the beach. We walk out into the sand and take off our shoes.

We walk a bit into the beach and then sit down onto the soft sand.

I love the soft silk sand between my toes. I bury my feet deep into the sand.

"I love the beach, it's so peaceful here", I say looking out over the water.

"I know, I love it too", Peeta says.

I lean my head onto Peeta's shoulder and he leads his head onto mine.

"I can't believe I wasted so many years", Peeta mumbles. "I'm sorry for that".

Okay that's something I can admit he should be sorry about. Because what he did was wrong even though it was a sweet thought.

"It doesn't matter anymore Peeta", I say. "Now we're just gonna look forward and not backwards, right?"

"Absolutely", Peeta says and kisses my forehead.

I take a deep calming breath. And I feel how peaceful and happy I am right now.

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