When you wish upon a star (An Everlark fanfiction)

Chapter 32: One thought only

Chapter 32

Peeta's P.O.V.

I'm just sitting here in my room, staring into the wall with my baby sister in my arms, hugging her tight.

I can't believe I destroyed Katniss life. She probably hates me now, this is all my fault. I was so careless when Katniss and I deepened our relationship and had sex. And now she's pregnant. I knocked up my girlfriend.

She told me that she wanted to be alone and think over everything. She's going to break up with me, I'm sure of it. I'm going to lose one of the two things that makes me who I am. Kaia and Katniss means everything to me, both in two different ways of course.

"Dude please talk to us!" Finnick says, waving his hand in front of my face.

I don't say anything. I don't want to talk to anyone. I just want to talk to Katniss. But she doesn't want to talk to me.

Until Katniss talks to me, I'm not going to talk to anyone.

"Peeta please can you tell us what's wrong?" my dad asks.

I don't answer him either. I don't to answer anyone, even though I feel guilty.

I want Katniss. I need to talk to Katniss, and tell her I'm so sorry for what I've done. I didn't mean to get her pregnant, I was just so careless. So thoughtless. I should've thought ahead before getting into action. I have condoms in my naight stand drawer, but I didn't take out one. How stupid was that?

"Are you and Katniss fighting?" Cato asks. "Have you broken up?"

And what am I gonna answer at that? First of all, I still don't talk to them, and second of all, I actually don't know if we have broken up or not. I really need to talk to Katniss, I need to know where we stand, and I need to know if she's angry at me.

I hope she doesn't hate me, I hope she don't want to break up with me, and I hope that she is not mad at me.

I don't know what to think. I just think the same things over and over again. I don't get any knew thoughts, I just think of this all the time. Katniss. What Katniss is doing, what she is feeling, what she thinks of me, what she wants to do about the situation I got her into. Katniss. That's all I can think of. Nothing else.

I just don't feel like I can say anything to anyone because it's Katniss decision. I have to agree on what she thinks is best even if she hates me.

How can I tell my father that I made a girl pregnant? How can I look my father in the eyes, my father who has done nothing but to love me, care for me, and done everything he can for me, how can I look him in the eyes and tell him something like this. I could never face the disappointment I know would come from my father.

And my friends... Who thinks I'm the most responseble of us all, what are they gonna think? But most important of all... What is Katniss thinking of me right now?

I hear how the door burst open.

"Peeta...!" I hear.

I would know that voice anywhere.

I actually turn around and see my beautiful Katniss.

"Katniss!" I say and stand up.

The other girls stands behind Katniss. They are all catching their breath, so I think that they have been running. But she has the plaster on her leg. How could she run with the plaster on her leg?

"Holy crap", Finnick shouts. "Peeta is not brain dead and he's alive after all!"

"Shut up!" Katniss and I say at the same time.

We look at each other and smile.

Have I ever said how much I love her smile?

I look at her belly. Of course it doesn't show. It's only the first month and even if it had showed, Katniss would not wear these clothes, because they show off her belly.

I give Kaia to Fredrick.

"Katniss..."

"No Peeta listen please, it's not your fault and I do not hate you okay", she says and walk up to me, clumsy with her plaster. "I love you so much and nothing can change that, nothing at all, and this was as much my fault as yours, only it's not your fault. Yes a do wish that this hadn't happened, but it did happen and now we have to deal with it, together, I was wrong, I can't think of a decision on my own, this is something we have to deal with together".

I just look at her. I feel the stones leave my chest. I pull Katniss into a hug.

"Um... Excuse me, but I don't quite follow... What do you two have to deal with exactly?" My brother Sebastian asks.

"Yeah, Katniss sounded dead serious, what have tou two done?" Finnick asks.

I forgot they are all still here. I look around in the room. The girls look guilty so I know that Katniss has told them.

"Well..."

"I'm pregnant", Katniss says.

"You're what?" Fredrick asks.

"Pregnant", Katniss says again.

"Ho... Whe... Um... " Cato is trying to find the right words.

I look at my father. There it is. The look of disappointment.

"Dad I'm so sorry", I say.

"Tell that to Katniss, Peeta", he sighs and walks out of the room.

Will my dad come around?

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Hey guys, I hope you guys liked the chapter.

My hand hurts really bad so it was hard for me to write, but I hope it got good anyways :)

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