When you wish upon a star (An Everlark fanfiction)

Chapter 28: A letter

Chapter 28

Katniss P.O.V.

I'm lying in Peeta's bed. He's putting Kaia down for a nap in the playroom where she has a bed as well.

No one is home and his mother is at her sister Peeta told me, so we don't have to worry about her for the time being.

I see something under his nightstand. A book.

I lean over the edge if the bed and pick it up.

I open it and the first thing that is written is; Peeta Mellark, in Peeta's beautiful handwriting.

I turn the pages and find sketches. I think they're of me. There's sketches of me when I was a kid and up to now. Oh Peeta... I guess he wasn't lying when he said that he always liked me.

Something sticks out from the back and I take it. It's a letter that Peeta wrote I think.

"Katniss,

I'm sorry about everything. I never meant to hurt you. I cry every night, trying to figure out a way to tell you that I do not want to do this to you. I want to find a way to tell you how important you really and truly are to me and how amazing and incredible you are, I just don't know how with a witch to mother who keeps me from telling you all of this.

Now I have two options, the first one is to give you this letter, but not be able to see your reactions, becasue my mother would literary kill me if I do, and the other one is to not give you this letter and let you think that I hate you and that I don't care for you and keep our friendship down in the ash.

This is so hard, I want to give you this letter, but I want to see your reactions and I want to know if you'll ever forgive me, and trust me when I tell you that this is all my evil mother. I don't know what she has against you, I really really don't, but she won't allow our friendship, and definitly don't allow it to grow deeper and into something else. But I'm not joking when I tell you that she's going to kill me, because she's beating the crap out of me almost every single day and I'm just holding on because I know I get to see your beautiful face in school even though we don't talk and you hate me for what I did.

If you get this letter from my brothers or my dad, I've told my mother the truth about me trying to be friends with you again and I won't be here and she will be in prison, and I hope that you can find in your heart to forgive me, because Katniss Everdeen, the truth is; I love you with all my heart.

Love Peeta".

I feel the tears flow as I read the last of the letter. Oh Peeta. My Peeta. I don't understand how his mother can be this evil. Why don't mr Mellark just take the boys to the polis and make them arrest her or devorse her or something? Is he also under threat?

I don't know what to do. I just hug the letter in my hands as I cry harder and harder.

"Katniss?" I hear Peeta's voive behind me.

Before he has a chance to react, I run up to him and hug him tight, crying even harder.

"I don't want you to live like this Peeta", I cry.

"Live like what?" Peeta asks.

I look at him and show him the letter. He's eyes is wide open and full of horror.

"I found your book with your beautiful sketches, and this letter was in it", I cry.

"Katniss I wrote that a year ago, I'm not afraid anymore", he says, trying to wipe away my tears, but they just continue to flow. "I promise, I was feeling so weak because I didn't have you in my life even though I wanted you so much, but now I'm strong, I have you and you're all that I need to keep my strength".

I continue to cry as I look at him and feel how much I love this boy. I love him more then anything and I would do anything for him. I would even meet his mother face to face and let her beat me up if that meant that she would't hurt Peeta, or Kaia or any of the Mellarks, because they're all too amazing to live like this.

I feel this need for Peeta I've never felt before.

I start to kiss him and pull him towards the bed where I push down the sketch book and throw the letter over Peeta's head and just lay down and pull Peeta over me, continuing to kiss him.

The deeper the kiss goes, the more I want. I just want more and more.

I pull his shirt off smiling as I look at him, and I see him smile back.

"Are you sure?" He asks.

"I'm sure", I tell him truthfully.

The next thing leads to another and soon I find myself naked along with Peeta under the covers and feel how he is pushing himself into me. Hurtful to me but not for him. I'm not gonna go and screw this up for Peeta though. He's nothing but amazing to me, so I can do this for him, and this will get nicer for me after we get through this first time. And even though this is painful, it's still special becasue it's my first time, and it's with Peeta.

When Peeta is fully buried I feel a ripping inside of me and I keep the sound of pain inside my mouth, so I don't ruin this for Peeta.

Soon after that Peeta falls down besides me panting.

I smile at him and just kisses his cheek as I put my arm around him.

"I love you so much Peeta Mellark", I tell him.

He kisses my forehead.

"I love you too so much", Peeta says. "You're everything I need, and you'll always be, you're the queen of my heart".

I smile to myself when I hear this. I like hearing Peeta tell me these kind of stuff, I just feel special when he does, and maybe that's not a bad thing that I do. I should feel like that somethimes even though I know it's not true. I'm not special, and I've excepted that, but I just love how Peeta makes me feel.

"And you're my king", I tell him and he kisses me.

God I love this boy!

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Hey guys, I hope you liked the chapter :)

Who wants Peeta's mother gone? I know I want to :(

So Peeta has a princess and a queen in his life, Kaia and Katniss :)

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