5SOS Preferences

Over and Over - His POV

Calum-

You know something I don't
It's not like you to be cold
Every night replayed over and over

I felt like I was in an episode of Supernatural. The episode where Sam is stuck going through Tuesday over and over and watching Dean die. I mean, (Y/N) might has well be dead or something. I haven't seen her in a while and every time that I try texting her, she says that she is busy.

We need to talk. I sent the text with a frown. I have caught her talking to her friends and Luke in whispers when I am around. Whenever I go up to them, they shut up and act like they were talking about nothing.

Sure, can you come over to mine?

I sent a confirmation text and head out of my flat. I don't think she is cheating. She told me once that she is straight forward with her feelings and if she feels like what we have is gone with her, then she will tell me. I just don't know what is going on. Whenever I ask her what is making her so busy, it seems like she snaps at me. It's not like her to do that.

I sigh as I get to her house. I just need to get to the bottom of things. I knock on her door and she answers with a smile.

"Hey baby!" She grabs my hand and pulls me in.

Before I can say another word, all my friends and family jump out from behind different furniture and yell surprise. I chuckle as I see the banner that reads 'Happy Birthday Calum' on it. I look at (Y/N) who now has her arms wrapped around my waist. She is smiling widely at me, love filling her eyes.

I was stupid to think something was wrong. "You did this?" I asked her. "All those times I tried talking to you and you were busy?"

"I was trying to plan this without you getting suspicious. I'm sorry if I came across as cold." She hugged me tighter.

I just chuckled and shook my head. "No, you didn't. Everything is alright." I leaned down and kissed her softly. "Thank you."

Now that night replays in my head over and over. The look that she had in her eyes when she looked at me, stays in my head as I close my eyes to sleep.

Ashton-

And when the night gets dark
And there's no way back
I'll call your name

"This isn't funny anymore," I yelled as I reached a streetlight. It was getting dark out and I didn't want her to be left alone in the dark.

"Ashton!" I turned around to find Luke standing behind me. "It's getting late, come on. We'll keep searching tomorrow."

"No, we need to find her now." I growled and kept moving.

The darkness finds its way all around me. I clench my fists and keep my eyes shut tightly, trying to ignore the pictures in my head. Pictures of her smiling.

"Ashton," Luke said softly. "Just stop."

"I have to find her, Luke. She's probably alone and scared." I sighed. "If I don't bring her home, (Y/N) is going to be upset."

"I know, how about we start heading back to the flat, call (Y/N) and see if maybe Yuri came back."

"My phone died," I sighed. "Alright, let's start heading back."

We starting walking the five miles back to the flat. When we got to mile three, we heard a barking. I looked around for the sound, before noticing that it was behind us. I turned around and there was Yuri!

"Yuri, come here girl." I knelt down and gathered the puppy in my arms once she got closer. I picked her up and Luke reattached her collar, tightening it enough so that she can't slip out of it. "Thank goodness you are back, (Y/N) would have killed me."

Luke-

Well I won't be back no more
Just like I did before
Always thinkin' that it's gonna be alright

"Hey Mrs. (Y/L/N)," I said softly as the woman opened the door.

"Luke, come in, please." She opened the door wider and let me pass through. "How are you?"

"I'm alright." I gave her a hug, but not for too long. "How are you?"

"I'm hanging in there. It is all just so much to handle right now." She gave me a sad smile and led me to the dining room. Not that I needed leading. I knew where every room in this house was. "Can I get you something to drink?"

"No, that's alright. I can't stay very long." I felt bad.

"Do you have a tour coming up?" She asked.

"Yes, we leave tomorrow and you know me, always last minute packer." I scratched the back of my neck. "As I was packing, I found something that I thought I should return." I reached into my pocket and pulled out a ring box.

"Luke," she started tearing up. "I gave that to you."

"I know, but with (Y/N) gone, I thought you would want it back."

"It was a gift, Luke." She put her hand on mine. "I want you to hold on to it. Give it to the next girl that comes across your path that makes you feel like you did when you were with (Y/N)."

"I don't know if I will ever feel like way again," I whispered.

"I think you will and I insist that you keep the ring." She smiled and pulled me into a hug. "You're a good boy Luke. I couldn't have asked for a better boy for my (Y/N). I'm just sorry that she was taken from us."

"I am too." I held back tears and cleared my throat. "I should probably get going." I clenched the box in my hand. "Are you sure that you don't want this back?"

"Yes, dear. It's yours now." She smiled and led me to the door. "Don't be a stranger. I want to hear all about your adventures while you are away."

"Of course, mom." She smiled and had a tear fall at that. We said good-bye again, before I walked off. At the time, I didn't know that I would never be going back there again, like I did every week since I was old enough to walk.

Michael-

I'm gonna start again
This time I won't pretend
That you're coming back into my life

"Michael?" Ashton asked curiously as he walked into the living room. "What are you doing?"

"What does it look like?" I asked putting something into a box.

"It looks like you are moving. Why?"

"I'm just moving houses and getting rid of (Y/N)'s stuff." I muttered. "She isn't going to come back."

"Mikey," Ashton sighed.

"No, I'm okay, Ash. It's about time that I moved on with my life. She made it very clear that she wasn't coming back so I'm not going to continue pretending that she is." I sighed. "I want her to, Ash. I'm not going to lie, especially to you. I fucking wish that she wants to come back, but I'm only hurting myself and not letting myself move on and live by staying on that. It's best for me and for everyone I care about, if I do this."

"What can I do to help?" Ash asked. "I'll call over to boys and we can help you."

"That would be great, actually." I smiled.

"You're doing the right thing, Mike."

"Yeah, I know. I just wish that I could have been the one for (Y/N)."

That was the best video that I could find with this song.

Anyway, I hope you guys are doing alright!

Much love,

~M