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«warning: talks about self harm, suicidal thoughts»     
                    💛Josh💛
Josh hugs Tyler tightly. He cries into his shoulder, his sobs low and quiet.
"Tyler....shhh...shhh.... It's alright." He felt like he had to protect him and keep this boy safe from the cruel world. He wanted to shield him. He was oddly attached to the boy.
Tyler whispered to him, so low he could barely hear it. "I hurt myself Josh, I hurt myself bad..." Tyler looked up at him. "I cut myself in the bathroom."
"Tyler! God, I'm so sorry." He hugs Tyler even tighter.
"Everybody is sorry but they don't know what they are sorry for. Don't be sorry, everyone says I'm worthless anyways."
Josh feels angry at that remark. "You are not worthless. Who told you that?"
"My parents and-" He hesitates. "A-and t-the v-voices."
"Voices?" Josh tilted his head and looked down on the boy he held carefully in his arms.
Tyler closed his eyes and his breath hitched. "I shouldn't have said anything."
"No, no Tyler don't worry." Josh pulled him closer. "C-can I see the cuts?"
Tyler nodded. He pulled his sleeve down and Josh's breath hitched, tears suddenly wanting to spill down his cheeks. His arm was stained with blood and there where several angry red cuts along his arm. Josh ran his finger carefully along the cuts, his finger becoming red with blood.
"Tyler..."
"Don't say your sorry. You can't be sorry because you don't know why I did it. And I'm not gonna tell you why because you would just think I'm insane."
Josh frowns and reaches for Tyler's hand, Tyler responds by tearing his hand away quickly.
Why the hell did I just do that?!?
Alyssa, whom had been watching glances at his cuts and flinches away. "Sorry, I'm just sensitive to stuff like that cause I've done it before too."
"What was your reason?" Tyler tilts his head slightly.
"My girlfriend tore my heart out of my chest, stomped on it and shredded it."
Tyler widens his tear swollen eyes. "I-I'm so sorry Alyssa."
"Don't worry bout it. She wasn't right for me anyway." Alyssa smiled.
Josh looked at Tyler seeing a slight smile spread over his face, but Josh knew the smile was a fake.
"T-Tyler... I'm sorry for reaching for you hand. I'm just really worried about you." Josh stares him in his dark chocolate eyes.
"Don't worry about me. I'm fine."
"Don't lie."
"I am." He pulled himself out of hug. "Thanks for the hug Josh."
"No problem Ty." Josh smiles at Tyler and the edges of Tyler's mouth point upward slightly.
Josh pulls out his phone, checking the time. "Wow, its already 1:22. I didn't know we had been out that long." He puts his phone away. "I think it's time we get out of here."
"Is there anyway I could grab my ukulele before we head to your house?" Tyler smiles at Josh as they begin to stand.
"Sure."
They all get up and begin to walk out of the mall. Josh had the bag with the CD in it and he smiles to himself slowly.
Tyler is coming over to my house. He's gonna me my parents.
He shakes his head angrily, unsure of what had suddenly gotten into him.
What am I thinking? I barely know Tyler and I'm acting as if he is my boyfriend.
He gulps.
Do I like him like that....?
He shakes his head, clearing those thoughts quickly. He had just barely met Tyler, of he didn't like him like that yet. Josh did have a strong need to protect the boy, to shield him from the harsh reality of the world.
Alyssa gives Josh a quick hug. "Thanks for letting me hang with you guys." She hugs Tyler too. "It was nice to meet you Tyler."
Tyler smiles at Alyssa and she begins to walk down her street.
Josh smiled at Tyler. "Are you still up to come over and listen to the CD with me?"
Tyler nods, seeming a little reluctant. "S-sure. I just wanna grab my ukulele."
"Ok fine by me, Ty." Josh smiled at Tyler, and Tyler looks away, a blush forming slightly on his face.
They arrived at Tyler's door and he quickly slipped inside his house. Josh flinched when he heard yelling, and he tried his best not to run into the house when he heard a fist make impact on something. Tyler walks out of the house a few minutes later. His cheek was bright red and he had tears leaking from his dark chocolate eyes. He had a beautiful light colored ukulele gripped tightly in his hand.
"Tyler? What happened in there?" Josh stared at him, fearful for his safety.
Tyler broke down. Josh pulled him carefully into a hug. "M-my d-d-dad h-hit me and told me I-I c-can't come h-home tonight."
"You can come stay at my house." Joshler hugs him closer and hears his sobs begin to weaken.
"You would let me stay with you?" He looks up with those big dark chocolate eyes.
Josh nodded, blushing slightly when he realized he was staring at his eyes. "Of course. I'm sure my parents won't mind. Any friend of mine is a friend of my parents."
Tyler gives a weak smile. "Thanks Josh. I appreciate it."
Josh nods. They begin to walk down the sidewalk and Tyler began to play his ukulele, singing softly.

We don't believe what's on TV
Because it's what we want to see
And what we want we know we can't believe
We have a learned to kill our dreams
I need to know that when I fell you'll still be here
Cause if you stick around I'll sing you pretty sounds and we'll make money selling your hair
Cause I don't care what's in your hair I just wanna know what's on your mind
I used to say I wanna die before I'm old but because of you I might think twice.

It was possibly the most beautiful song Josh had ever heard. Tyler's voice was almost angelic, and the lyrics to the song where beautiful. Tyler finished about a minute later and glanced at Josh, turning a bright red.
"S-sorry... I ummm... Didn't mean to start singing...." Tyler looked down, holding his ukulele tightly at his side.
"It's ok Tyler, don't worry about it. That song was beautiful." Josh smiles and him and Tyler blushes ever darker.
"T-thanks...." Tyler smiles weakly.
"No problem. That song sounded like a love song, who is it about?" Josh tilts his head.
"No one." Tyler responds a bit to quickly.
Josh narrows his eyes. "It seems like your lying."
He closes his eyes and laughs nervously. "I'm not."
Josh decides to leave it alone for now. "Oh ok. I believe you."
Tyler nods and strums his uke again. He is playing some kind of melody, one that Josh doesn't recognize.
Josh smiles at him. "You are really good at the uke, Ty."
Tyler turn a bright pink. "Thanks......"
Josh smiles, Tyler is cute, especially when he blushes. They continue walking and Tyler stayed silent mostly, except for the steady strumming of his ukulele.
Tyler stops strumming suddenly. "Josh?"
"Yeah?" He looks over at Tyler, who hung his head low.
"When u was younger, my...parents they achy cared about me and loved me. I grew up and all of a sudden they hated me. I dont know what happened but..." He hesitates. "Who I am today is worth than other times."
Josh nods, suddenly feelings entitled to protecting this boy.
I'll protect him. I'll be here for him.
Josh smiles at Tyler.
I'll love him if no one else will.
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Ok this chapter was a day late 😂. I'm having like random writers block and it's appearing out of nowhere. Excuses aside, I just had to add some fluff towards the end 💛💛💛. Next chap isn't gonna be very fluffy, I'm gonna warn you now, loves. Get ready for depression ;-;. Haha sorry.
Anyway thanks for reading loves! Hope you like the fic so far!
~💛TylerDun💛