Message Man-«{Joshler}» HIATUS

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«warning: self-harm, suicide attempt»
                    💛Tyler💛
Tyler blushes at his smile. He smiles down at the ground and continues to mindlessly strum his ukulele.

Why do you think this boy even cares?

He does care and no one, not even you will tell me otherwise.

Whatever.

"Tyler?"
Tyler looks up. He blushes when he realizes he was lost in thought. "Y-yeah?"
"How long do you think you might have to stay with me?" Josh scratches the back of his neck. "Not that you staying will be a problem I need to let my mom know how long you will be there."
Tyler nods, still strumming his ukulele absent mindedly. "I dunno a week maybe. My mom and dad were pissed so I don't think they are gonna want to see me for a while." Tyler smiles. "Maybe it would be nice to escape for a while. Ya know, get a little release from the present."

You may get a break from your parents but their is no break from me, Tyler.

Shut up.

You. Cannot. Control. Me.

Tyler clears his head.
Josh smiles and nods. "Yeah, i understand that." He looks around. "How far is your house?"
Josh pointed to a big, red house a little ways more down the street. "Its right there."
Tyler nods and suddenly lyrics to a song pop into his head. "J-Josh?"
"Yeah?" Josh glances over at Tyler.
"C-can I sing something?" Tyler asks nervously, blushing again.
"Sure." Josh smiles, noticing Tyler's small blush. Tyler kept his eyes down and began to sing again, this time strumming his ukulele differently.

When the leader of the bad guys sang, something soft and soaked in pain, I heard the echo from his secret hide away,

Tyler feels Josh's state burning into him. He keeps singing.

He must of forgot to close his door, as he cranked out those dismal chords and his four walls declared him insane.

Tyler stopped singing, to embarrassed by Josh's state to continue. He sees Josh frown and Tyler looks away from him quickly.

He doesn't like the way you sing. He hates you.

He doesn't hate me.

He does that's why he hasn't complimented you at all. Your useless Tyler, and he obviously sees that.

Leave me alone.

I'm not gonna leave you alone till you die.

Tyler tries to ignore him and glances at Josh, who was giving him an amused look.
"O-oh... Sorry didn't mean to drift off." Tyler blushes and Josh smiles at him. Tyler looked down, wishing Josh wasn't looking at him with his dark coffee eyes.
"It's ok Ty." He smiles and Tyler blushes darker. "We are at my house."
Tyler nods, trying to hide his dark pink blush.

Tyler, your falling for this boy aren't you?

I might be...

He doesn't love you back.

Tyler had to agree with Blurry there. Josh barely knew him. Tyler had always liked Josh, but he never got enough guts to actually say hi to him. I can't fall for him, I just can't. Not right now. Tyler thought gloomily to himself and to his suprise Blurry didn't comment on that.
Josh opened the door to his house. "Mom? Dad? I'm home!" He calls into the house.
An older looking lady pops up and smiles. "Josh, honey! Glad your home!" She notices Tyler. "Who is this?"
"This is Tyler. He is having some problems at home and I was wondering if he could stay for a week."
His mom smiles at Tyler. "Of course, Tyler. Stay as long as you need." Tyler muttered a quiet 'thanks', and they walked into the house.
It was huge and Tyler widens his eyes. "Your house is huge!"
"Hah, yeah I know." He scratches the back of his neck. "Lets go to my room."
Tyler nods, and they head up a staircase to Josh's room. Josh opens the door and allows Tyler to go in first. The room was decorated colorfully with many different posters.
"Ty, you still have that CD?" Josh smiles at him.
Tyler lifts the bag holding his donut and the CD, he had entirely forgotten he was holding it. "Yeah." He hands it to Josh and Josh pops it into his CD player.

Music begins to play and Josh smiles. "I love Green Day."
Tyler smiles, intrigued by the odd sound of the music. "It certainly is interesting "
Josh laughs at his remark. Tyler listens to the lyrics of the song carefully and drifts off into his thoughts again.
All he can hear is this horrible screaming. It pounds in his ear drums and he winces.

Blurry what's going on?!?

No response. The screaming continues and Tyler grips his hair, pulling angrily. He can only make out a few words, almost hidden behind the horrible screams.

Die Tyler....of you want them to stop...

No!

Die....
He tugs harder on his hair, the scream increasing in volume.

I'm not dying! Not today!

Die.....

The screams began to hurt his head. He begins to scratch at his face and cried out.
Someone shakes his shoulder. He snaps out of his thoughts and looks to see Josh staring at him, a look of fear on his face. "T-Tyler? You ok?"

Tyler looks around. "Y-yeah I'm fine. The voices kinda got me for a second." He gulps hearing the voice echoing in his head. "Where is your bathroom?"
Josh points to a door next to his dresser. "Right there."
Tyler nods, shaking with fear. "Ok t-thanks. I'll be right back."
Josh nods and smiles and Tyler slips into the bathroom, locking the door behind him. He puts the toilet seat down and sits, staring at the wall for a moment.

The blade.... Do it now....

He can't disobey or ignore the voice this time. He shakily pulls the blade out of his pocket and without hesitation, presses it into his arm. He skin begins to bleed and he continues, until his arm was covered in the cuts.

Find something....anything and use it....

He obeys and begins to rummage through the cabinets until he finds several bottles of pills.

Take all of them...

He opens each bottle, pouring a few of each into his hand and popping them into his mouth. He reluctantly swallowed them all and closed his eyes, fearfull.
He waits silently. He grows drowsy after a few minutes.

Knock, Knock.

Josh is knocking on the door now. Tyler turns his head to the door.

Don't open it.

Tyler nods. His eyelids began to get heavy and he whispers gently to Blurry. "Blurry doesn't fit you anymore..." He hesitates. "You are the Message Man now..."
He grits his teeth, falling to the ground, the effect of the pills too much for him to handle.
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Wowie my feels rn and just... Ehh.. anyway yep told ya this wasn't gonna be good at all 😤. Next chap will be better hopefully.... I dunno Lmao. Also sorry for the late chapter ;-;.
Anyway hope you enjoyed!
Bye loves!
💛~TylerDun💛