Message Man-«{Joshler}» HIATUS

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«warning: mentions of suicide and self-harm»
                      💛Josh💛
Josh sits on his bed, just staring off into space.
Ding.
He jumps at the sound of his phone and gets up to grab it off his dresser. He unlocks it and sees that he has a new message from Tyler. Josh reads it.

Josh, I can't take being alive anymore. I've taken pills and I don't think I'll survive tonight. I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry. And the kiss I know it was pity. You don't love me and you could never love a fuck up like me. I'm sorry, but I guess I'm not because you don't even like me do you? I dunno, this is my goodbye. Thank you for allowing me to stay with you and thank you for everything you've ever done. If you want to try to save me, climb the tree outside my window. I don't think you will come and if you do, you won't be able to save me. Goodbye, Josh.

His heart skips a few beats. He reads the text over and over again before he realizes he needs to leave. He gets up and leaves, not even caring to tell his parents where he was going. Josh ran faster than he had ever ran before in the direction he knew Tyler lived.
He's dead. I failed him, I fucking failed him.
Josh shook his head, but still the thoughts wouldn't leave his head.
He saw Tyler's house and looked around frantically for the tree he was supposed to climb. Josh gulps, seeing the tree. But despite his fear, he begins to climb the tree. Josh allows his agility to take over and allow him to climb the tree in a speedy matter. He gets up to the height In which the roof is at and jumps for the roof, barely being able to grab the edge of the roof. Josh closes his eyes and pulls himself onto the roof, waisting no time to rush for Tyler's open window. Josh jumps inside and looks around for Tyler.
"Tyler!" Tyler lay motionless on his bed, his chest barely rising and falling. "No, no Tyler!"
No response.
Josh pulls his phone out and without a second thought, he calls 911.
A young lady picks up. "911 what's your emergency?"
"Hello? Oh thank goodness- My friend he took a lot of pills I don't know what pills exactly but he isn't responding to me. Can you please send someone quick?" Josh knows he sounds frantic and fearful.
"Ok, remain calm. What is the address?" Josh gives her Tyler's address. "Ok, I'll have an ambulance sent there right now. For now, please check for a pulse and breathing."
Josh does as she says and feels for a pulse. "Y-yeah he has a pulse but his breathing isn't steady and he is barely breathing."
The lady gives a small grumble. "Ok, the paramedics will be there in about five minutes. Stay on the line and continue to check his breathing a pulse. Let me know if anything changes."
Josh gulps. "O-ok..." He waits silently until he realizes something.
The ambulance can't come to his house. His parents will kill him.
"Miss? Sorry I said the wrong address." Josh gives her his own address and begins to carefully climb out the window, Tyler grasped tightly in his arms.
"Ok, I'll redirect them. It may take some time." She seems worried.
"Thank you." Josh's voice is muffled. He carefully lowers Tyler down onto the ground thankfully he got out without hurting him. Josh picks Tyler back up when he gets to the ground and runs as fast as he can while holding the boy carefully in his arms.
Josh knocks on the door to his house fearfully.
His mom answers. "Oh my god Josh what happened to Tyler?!?"
"I don't have time to explain. An ambulance is coming to pick him up and I'm going to the hospital with him."
All his mom can do is nod. Josh rushes over to the couch and drops Tyler onto it. He sits down next to his head and checks for a pulse. He sighs and closes his eyes, thankful to feel a pulse beneath his fingertips.
Josh runs his hands carefully through Tyler's hair, whispering gently though he knew he couldn't hear him. "Please don't die..." Tears fly down his face. "I love you please don't leave me alone...please Tyler life is up here, don't let the comments below become common motivation for your death please..."
A loud wailing began suddenly. Josh got up quickly and opened the door. "In here! Hurry please help!"
The paramedics pulled a stretcher out and ran towards the house as fast as the possibly could.
"J-Josh?" Tyler stirred behind him.
Josh let the paramedics come inside and rushed over to Tyler. "Tyler! It's ok, we are going to the hospital."
Tyler didn't respond, but simply closed his eyes and allowed the paramedics to life him carefully into the stretcher. They rolled him out of the door and Josh followed, grasping Tyler's hand tightly.
"Please don't die please Tyler please..." Josh climbed into the ambulance and helped get Tyler inside.
Once inside, the paramedics begin to check Tyler and Josh intertwined their fingers once more.
The ambulance began to move and Tyler stirred. "Josh? W-where are we going?"
"To the hospital." Josh squeezed his hand and stared deeply into his eyes.
Tyler nods and wipes away tears that had began to from. "I'm sorry."
"For what, Ty?" Josh tilts his head.
"For hurting you." Tyler stops and looks at the paramedics that where hooking machines up to him. "I know your hurt, I can see it in your eyes."
Josh nods. "I am hurt. I'm hurt because you didn't try to stay alive."
Tyler closes his eyes and let out a breath. "I heard what you said earlier, before they put me on the stretcher." He lowers his voice so low, Josh has to strain to hear him. "I never thought you would ever love me. And I don't know if I can say the same, I'm such a fuck up. I'm sorry."
Josh nods slowly. "I understand." He gulps thinking as fast as he can. "I meant it as friends only."
Tyler nods. "Yeah I figured." The low wailing outside of the vehicle  faded and the vehicle came to a stop. "We must be at the hospital now."
The paramedics began to take Tyler out of the vehicle and wheel him into hospital. They moved very fast and Josh had to run to keep up with Tyler.
They got into the hospital and pushed Tyler into a room and left them alone for a few minutes before a tall doctor walked in.
"Hello, I'm Dr. Christopher." He smiles at Tyler and Josh. "Now can Tyler kindly tell me what happened?"
Josh looks over at Tyler and grabs his hand. Tyler gulps flicking his eyes down to the sheets below him. "W-well...I took a bunch of pills and..."
The doctor gives a small nod. "Tyler are you suicidal?"
"Umm...." He hesitates and looks at Josh, who nods to tell him it's on to admit. "Y-yeah..."
He nods and taps his chin with his pen. "Teens around your age tend to be suicidal, but not usually to the point of trying to kill themselves. It happens sometimes." He sits down. "We are gonna run some blood tests tomorrow, but for tonight get some rest. Both of you." The doctor smiles and walk out of the room quietly shutting the door behind him.
Tyler turns to Josh. "C-can you sleep with me tonight?"
"Like in the bed with you?" Tyler gives a nod and Josh climbs into bed next to him, wrapping his arms around Tyler's waist.
"J-Josh?" Tyler's voice is shaking and he sounds fearful.
"Yeah?" Josh pulls him closer.
"I really want to cut right now. I'm scared out of my mind." Tyler's voice cracks.
Josh stays silent for a moment before responding at last. "Tyler, hurting yourself to cope just gives you more scars."
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IF YOU KNOW WHAT MOVIE THE END QUOTE IS FROM YOU HAVE OFFICIALLY BECAME MY BEST FRIEND. Haha ok its from a movie called Girl On The Edge and that movie is pretty much my life story, watch it it's just so amazing. Anyway, I'm really excited to write some lovey dovey stuff but I dont wanna rush it ya know? This fic is so depressing oh deer ;-;
It'll get better soon I hope haha.
Anyway thanks for reading loves! Stay alive!
💛~TylerDun💛