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Split POV's in this chapter. Enjoy!
«time skip: one day»
                    💛Josh💛
Josh walked with Tyler his own hand gripping Tyler's tightly. His wrists where bandaged tightly, as where his arms.
"Do you have to go home Ty?" Josh asked, worry gnawing at his stomach at the thought of the boy going home.
"Yeah. I'll be fine I'm sure." Tyler looks at Josh and smiles.
Josh smiles back and begins to gently rub his thumb across Tyler's bandaged wrists. "Promise me you won't do that again, Ty."
"I can't promise anything." Tyler said quietly, looking back down.
Josh frowned and pull Tyler closer, stopping. "Tyler, I don't want to lose you. Please, don't hurt yourself ever again."
Tyler closed his eyes and whispered gently to Josh. "I'll try. For you."
Josh smiled and lifted Tyler's chin up. Tyler opened his eyes and gave a weak smile. Josh leaned forward, locking their lips together. Tyler kissed back smoothly and reached his arms up to wrap them around Josh's neck.
Josh moved his lips smoothly against Tyler's and tugged on Tyler's bottom lip gently with his teeth. Josh pulled Tyler closer, eliminating what little space they had left between them.
Josh pulled back a few moments later and pressed their foreheads together. "Tyler..." Josh mumbled. "I love you. I love you so much."
"I love you too Josh..." Tyler closed his eyes. "Thank you...for being my spaceship..."
"Spaceship?" Josh questions, looking rather puzzled.
"I...I've always seen life as kind of a line...a line that is made up of people giving up, and cutting and committing suicide..." Tyler sniffed. "The spaceship...it's someone or something that saves you from the line, keeps you alive. Of course you always join the line again at some point. But your spaceship will always pull you out. Always."
Josh smiled and nodded. "Well, Ty, I will always be your spaceship."
Tyler nodded. "I uhm...wrote a song about it..."
"Can I hear it?" Josh said, lifting Tyler's chin up.

Tyler nodded and began to sing softly. "There's miles of land in front of us, and we're dying with every step we take, were dying with every breath we make and I'll fall in line, a strangers back is all I see, he's only a few feet in front of me, and I'll look left and right sometimes, but I'll fall in line. No one looks up anymore cuz you might get a rain drop in your eye and heaven forbid they see you cry, as we fall in line. And about this time of every year the line will go to the ocean pier, and walk right off into the sea, then we fall asleep."
Josh smiled. "I love that song, Ty. It's beautiful."
"Thanks..." Tyler blushes. "I should probably get home now. Before my parents wonder what happened to me."
Josh nods and let's the boy go. "Okay. Let's get you home."

                    💛Tyler💛
Tyler smiled and grabbed Josh's hand as his house came into view, only a few houses down from where they were.

Good fucking luck with your parents Tyler.

Leave me alone for once in my fucking life, Blurry.

Why should I? I'm the only one who cares about you Tyler.

I have Josh.

Not for long Tyler. Not for long.

Tyler shook his head angrily and looked up, seeing they had reached his house.
"You ready?" Josh asks,
Tyler nods, his heart thumping out of his chest. "Y-yeah. I am."
"Okay. Stay safe baby. I love you." Josh pulled Tyler into a tight hug.
"I love you too, Josh." Tyler closed his eyes and hugged back, his heartbeat begining to slow down a bit.
Josh pecked his lips quickly. "Remember, if you need anything just text me or come to my house."
Tyler nodded and let him go. "Okay. Bye." Tyler walked up onto the porch and slipped into his house quietly.
He couldn't count how many times he had done this.
Tried to kill himself.
Josh came to his rescue.
Snuck back in and got into even more shit than he was already in.
"Tyler?"
He looked around in the gloom and saw his mom standing in the hallway. "H-hey m-mom..."
"What's that? Why are your wrists bandaged?" She asks, worry gleaming in her eyes.
"I....u-uhm..." Tyler stutters, looking down and rubbing the bandages.
His mom walked over to him and grabbed Tyler's hands gently.  "Ty, you can tell me anything okay?"
Then it all came spilling out.
In a mess of tears, sobs and pain Tyler confessed everything.
He told her he was gay.
He told her he cuts himself.
He told her he has tried to commit suicide.
He told her about Josh.
"Tyler, honey..." She pulled Tyler into a tight hug as he sobbed.
"I-I-I'm so sorry m-m-mom..." Tyler sniffs and cries more. "I-I sh-should h-have t-told y-y-you...I j-just f-f-felt l-like y-y-you w-w-would h-hate me..."
His mom stayed silent for a moment before responding. "Tyler, I could never hate you."
Something about this sentence pisses Tyler off. "Really mom? You could never hate me? What about all those fucking times you've called me worthless? All those times you fucking told me I was a waste of skin? All those times you locked me in the closet for crying? All those times you would abandon me in the forest! All those times you would make me touch myself in front of you and dad!" Tyler screamed and backed away from his mom. "I fucking hate you and dad! I'm done with how I get treated! Fuck you!"
Tyler ran upstairs to his room and hastily began to shove things into his backpack, tears flying down his face.
Once everything that he needed was packed up, he ran downstairs.
His mom grabbed his arm. "Tyler! I didn't mean any of that!"
"Fuck you, mom. Fuck you." Was all Tyler said as he shook away his mother's grasp and ran out the door.
All those memories.
Everything they had done to him.
He was going to leave them behind and fix his life. Create a new life if he had to, with Josh at his side always.
Tyler was running, faster than he thought he could. He ran in the direction of the park and once he got there, he collapsed onto a park bench.
"Maybe everything will be okay now." Tyler whispered to himself as he sat on the park bench, staring at his bandaged wrists. "Maybe I won't have to join the line again."
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Some bad things happened today...but I managed to finish it.
Hope you guys like it.
Thank you for staying with this story. I love you all.
💛~TylerDun💛

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