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«warning: self-harm, suicide attempt»
«time skip: three days»
                 💛Tyler💛
Tyler sighed and blinked open his eyes, held tight in Josh's arms.
He looked over at Josh's clock, the time read 2:18.

Shit. I gotta go home.

Tyler woke Josh gently. "I have to go home."
Josh grunted. "I don't want you to go. Just come and live with me."
"I can't. My parents will kill you." Tyler frowned. "I really wish I could stay."
Josh sat up and yawned. "Will you be okay at your house?"
"Yeah. I'll be fine." Tyler leaned forward and kissed his cheek.
"Okay. Let's get you home then." Josh smiled and stood up, pulling his shirt back on that he had taken off the night before.
Tyler got up and pulled his shoes on, considering he had slept fully clothed. He grabbed his phone off of Josh's dresser along with his house key he happened to have. He shoved his stuff into his pocket but quickly ripped his hand out when something cut him. Tyler winced seeing he had a long cut on his fingertip. He dug into his pocket, pulling out the source of his cut.

My blade.

He stared at the shiny metal blade and shoved it into his pocket before Josh saw. He wiped the blood off into his pants, a horrible sting running through his finger.
"You ready to go, Ty?" Josh asked walking over to him and wrapping his arms around Tyler's waist.
"Yeah, let's go." Tyler smiled and looked back at Josh, smiling as he still embraced him.
Tyler kissed his cheek and Josh let him go and they walked out of his room.
"Morning Josh, Tyler." Josh's mom greeted them, smiling.
"Morning mom." Josh hugged his mom. "I'm going to take Tyler home."
"Okay. Be careful." His mom hugged him and hugged Tyler too.
"I will." Josh said as they walked out of the house and began walking down the road.
Tyler grabbed joshs hand and leaned his shoulder against Josh as they walked along the sidewalk slowly.
"Do you think you'll be okay over there, Ty?" Josh asked, a hint of worry in his voice.
"I'm sure I'll be fine. They are probably at some bar anyway. And if something does happen I'll call you, I promise." Tyler says smiling at Josh.
"Love you." Josh whispered into Tyler's ear.
Tyler smiled. "Love you too." Tyler closed his eyes tightly, listening to the sound of Josh's breathing.
"I wish you could just stay with me forever, Ty." Josh whispered.
Tyler opened his eyes and looked over at Josh. "I do too. I hate going home."
"I know." Josh stated simply, pulling Tyler closer.
Tyler smiled and kissed Josh's cheek. Josh smiled and looked over, slowly leaning in. Tyler smiled and pressed his lips against Josh's for a brief moment before pulling apart.
"Can we just sneak off somewhere?" Tyler asks, resting his head back on Josh's shoulder.
"No. Your parents are probably worried about you Tyler." Josh says simply.
Tyler snorts. "They never care about me." Tyler shakes his head angrily. "I guess I'm just used to it by now."
"I don't understand why they hate you so much." Josh says, frowning. "You are so perfect."
Tyler blushes and smiles, looking down at the ground. "I'm not perfect."
"To me you are." Josh whispered into Tyler's ear. "You're my perfect baby boy."
Tyler smiles and closes his eyes. "But I'm a fuck up." Tyler says and sobers.
"No you aren't." Josh states sternly. "Don't say that about yourself okay?"
"Okay." Tyler says, still frowning.
They walk down the sidewalk for a few more minutes before they stop at Tyler's house.
Tyler's heart is beating out of his chest. "Thank you for walking me."
"Of course, baby." Josh smiles, hugging Tyler again. "Anything for you."
Tyler smiles and let's Josh's hand go. "I'll call you if anything happens."
Josh nods and kisses Tyler's neck, biting on his collarbone making a red mark appear. "Okay. Be careful."
"I will." Tyler says, walking up the stairs to his front door.

He won't care if anything happens.

Yes he will.

No he won't, you fucking idiot.

Tyler shakes his head as he walks up to the door, opening it slowly. He walks inside, his head down.

Look up.

Tyler looked up fearfully and his heart sank when he saw his father sitting on the couch, drinking a beer.
Tyler closed the door and his dad looked over, obviously hearing the click of the door. "Tyler? Where the fuck have you been?"
"I...I...umm..." Tyler stuttered, fear spilling out of him.
"Tell me. Now." His father snarled, his words slightly slurred.
The worst words Tyler could have said came spilling out of his mouth."I w-was h-hanging o-out with J-J-J-Josh."
His father snorted. "That faggot?" He stood and walked over to Tyler. "What where you doing with him?"
"Just hanging out." Tyler said, fear rising in him with every passing second.
"Just hanging out, huh?" His father snarled and prodded the red mark on his collarbone. "Then explain this."
Tyler's heart sank. He opened his mouth to explain but nothing came out.
"I always knew you were gay. I fucking knew you where a faggot." His father rose his hand and swung, hitting Tyler hard in the nose causing him to fall backwards. Tyler closed his from pain but held back a cry. His father yanked him up and slammed him against the wall and punched him again.
"Stop!" Tyler screamed, swinging his arms.
His father ignored him and continue to hit him. Tyler screamed again and his father released him. Tyler ran as fast as his legs would carry him. He ran into his room and slammed his door, careful to lock the door behind him. Tyler fell to the ground and stared at his bed in front of him.

You're a fucking gay faggot.
Gay.
Gay little fuck up.

Stop!

No. You worthless little piece of trash.

Tyler screamed again, and began to cry. His eyes began to grow heavy. Tyler looked up, seeing a dark shadowy figure standing above him. All Tyler wanted to do was sleep.

Hope your dead 'cuz how could you sleep at a time like this?

Stop...

Get your blade out now.

Tyler obeyed and pulled the blade out, pressing it to his arm.

Not there. On your wrist.

Tyler lifted the blade to his wrist, slashing it across the sensitive skin. It began to bleed and he continued to slash his wrist until he grew light-headed and his wrist was covered in dark red blood.
Tyler looked up at the tall shadowy figure. "L-look what y-you've d-done M-M-Message..." Tyler said weakly his eyes fluttering open and closed.

Say goodbye.

Tyler pulled out his phone and dialed Josh's number.

Hey this is Josh-

"Josh...I... Did-"

Sorry for missing you, leave a message and I'll get back to you when I can! Peace!

Tyler's heart sank. He waited for the beep and spoke, his voice dry and weak. "J-Josh I'm so so sorry, I...I did something." Tyler held his tears back. "I'm sorry..." He hung up and tossed his phone aside.
The tears overwhelmed him. Tyler sobbed like a child, a dying child. Tyler screamed again and again, the blood draining from his wrists.
"Someone please!" Tyler screamed into the silence of his house. His cries where only met with more silence.
He grew weaker and weaker every passing second until finally, everything went black.
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I had to rewrite this at least 5 times, wattpad wouldn't save my work ;-;
Also sorry again for being late, writers block is a serious pain in the butt sometimes.
CLIFF HANGER!
Haha just wait, it's gonna get so intense I can't wait to write more of this :)
Thank you guys for over 400 reads, that means the world to me!!!
Thank you for reading and catch ya later loves 💛
💛~TylerDun💛

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