Message Man-«{Joshler}» HIATUS

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«warning: successful suicide, talks of hopelessness and self-harm»
                   💛Tyler💛
Tyler woke up, holding the teddy bear Josh had given him the night before close to his chest. He smiled and turned to Josh, giggling when he gave a loud snore. Tyler leans forward and kisses Josh's nose, making Josh blink his eyes open. "Morning baby."
Tyler blushes and responds in a small voice. "M-morning..."
"You like that bear don't you?" Josh laughed.
Tyler blushes ever darker. "Y-yeah...it's special because you gave it to me...."
Josh smiles and kisses Tyler's cheek. Tyler smiles, still blushing deeply. Josh begins to get up from bed and dresses himself. "You in the mood to go on a walk?"
"Yeah I'd love to." Tyler sits up and his stomach growls angrily. "Can we eat first? I'm starving."
Josh nods and Tyler jumps up and quickly puts his shirt back on, which he had taken off in the night.
Josh smiles and they walk downstairs into the kitchen, and Josh begins to pull out pans. "What do you want for breakfast?"
Tyler smiles. "Eggs, bacon and toast please."
Josh nods and runs to the fridge and begins to pull stuff out of it. "You can start toasting the bread. It's on the counter on front of you and the toaster is next to the sink."
Tyler nods and grabs the loaf of bread, walks over to the toaster and pops a few pieces inside.
Their breakfast was done about 5 minutes later and Josh grabbed two plates and put two eggs, two pieces of bread and some bacon on each plate. Tyler sat down in a chair and smiled as Josh placed a plate in front of him.
Josh sat down and began to eat his food. Tyler smiled and grabbed a piece of his bacon and poked Josh's cheek with it. Josh turned and smiled, grabbing the bacon out of his hand.
Tyler giggled and went back to eating his plate of food occasionally feeding Josh bacon.
Tyler finished his plate a few minutes later and sighed, happy and full. "Thank you for the food."
"Of course. Anything for you baby." Josh said, picking their plates up.
Tyler blushed and stood up walking over to Josh and wrapping his arms around Josh's waist and rests his head on Josh's shoulder. Josh smiled and closed his eyes.
Ding.
Josh opened his eyes. "Thats my phone." Tyler nodded and let him go, allowing Josh to grab his phone.
Josh turned his phone on and read the message he had. Tyler's stomach dropped when he saw the blood drain from his face.
"Josh? What's wrong?" Tyler walked over and stood next to him.
He didn't say a word. Josh stared at his phone his face growing paler by the second.
"Josh? Josh what's wrong?!" Tyler asked the worry growing in his stomach.
"A-Alyssa..." Tears rolled down his face and his breath hitched. "S-s-s-she..." He couldn't finish.
Tyler pulled him close. "What happened?"
"A-Alyssa k-k-killed h-herself..." He stared on at the phone tears streaming down his face. "H-h-her m-mom j-just texted me..."
Tyler stood there, completely silent. Josh clicked his phone off and pressed his head against Tyler's chest. Tyler hugs him tightly as he cries against his chest.
"Josh...calm down...please remember everything gets better when morning finally rears its head..." Tyler whispered into Josh's ear.
Josh sniffed and looked up at Tyler. "I d-don't know w-what caused h-her to do t-that..."
"Anything could have happened. You need to sit down and not think about this. Thinking would be the worst thing for you right now, believe me I know."
Josh gave a tiny nod and Tyler guided him over to the couch, helping him to lay down. Tyler lay down next to him and hugged him close, saddened by his sobs that shook his body.
"Josh...shhh...it's ok..." Tyler said gently, doing his best to comfort him.

He doesn't need you to comfort him. You are useless, don't even try anymore.

Shut up! I'm tired of you!

I'm never going to shut up until your sorry life comes to an end.

Tyler closed his eyes, still holding Josh close. Josh sobs grew quieter until they ceased and his breathing grew steady again.
"I-I'm o-ok now..." Josh's voice still shook with sadness.
"Do you want to go up to your room?" Tyler pulled him close, planting a kiss on his cheek.
Josh shook his head. "No, let's go walk around. I need to get out of the house." His voice is still dark and coated in sadness.
Tyler nods and helps Josh to his feet. "Do you want me to tell your mom we are leaving?"
"No, I'll just text her." Josh begins to pull on his solid black shoes. "She'll be fine with it, I'm sure."
Tyler nods and puts his own shoes on, following Josh out the door.
Josh pulls out his phone and texts his mom quickly. "There."
Tyler gives a small smile and gets closer to Josh, wrapping his arm around Josh's shoulder. "Do you have any idea where you want to go?"
Josh shook his head, keeping his eyes down. "No idea. Let's just walk."
Tyler nods. "How long did you know Alyssa? If you don't mind me asking."
Josh flicks his gaze to Tyler's for a moment. "Since kindergarten. The day we met we became best friends."
"Did..." Tyler hesitates. "Did you have feelings for her before she died?"
Josh shakes his head. "No, I never did."
Tyler let's out a tiny sigh of relief. "Maybe we should head over to her house and try to figure out why she killed herself."
Josh just nods and Tyler can see tears forming in his eyes. "Yeah. L-let's go n-now..."
Tyler nods and they begin to walk in the direction of Alyssa's house, with Josh leading the way.
Tyler still has his arm wrapped Josh when they arrive at Alyssa's house.
"You ready Josh?" Tyler asks him, staring at his pale face.
Josh nods, staring up at the house. "Yeah. Let's go."
They walk to the front door and Josh knocks, wiping his tears away.
A woman answers the door, and you can see she was crying. "Yes?"
"H-hi I'm Josh, one of Alyssa's friends. I g-got a text saying she had committed suicide and I'm just here to figure out why."
"Oh yeah I remember sending you a text." She gives a small sniffle. "She left a note on her door, if you want to read that." Josh nods and she allows them to step inside. "You can sit down. I'll be right back."
Tyler nods along with Josh and they sit down.

This girl was worthless just as you are Tyler.

Tyler ignores Message and grabs Josh's hand. "You ok?"
Josh shakes his head. "I don't know. I just....I don't know."
The woman walk back into the room and hands Josh a paper. "There." She sat down on the opposite end of the couch.
"'Dear mom and dad, I don't know why but I am struggling with my own mind. I have seen how much the world hates me and everything I do and I'm just trying to say goodbye. I have no one left here, except for Josh, and I am tired of living in a world with no hope.
This is my last goodbye. Please text Josh on my phone and tell him I am gone.
I love you mom and dad.'"
Tyler stared at the note in silence as Josh read it. Josh teared up and closed his eyes, breathing heavily. "T-t-thank you...I'm s-so s-sorry f-for your loss..."
She nodded and Tyler helped Josh up from the couch and out of the house.
As soon as they were out of the door, Josh began to sob.
"Josh....calm down..."
Josh pressed his head against Tyler's chest. "Josh....please calm down."
His sobs began to stop and Tyler closed his eyes.
I love you Josh.
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WOOHOO DEPRESSION!
Haha yeah this chapter was planned out for quite some time ;-;
AND YES IM AWARE I AM VERY LATE IM SORRY
Not much else to say so hope you guys enjoyed the fic so far and I'm gonna try to be on time for the next chapter.
Bye bye loves!!
💛TylerDun~💛