Message Man-«{Joshler}» HIATUS

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«warning: suicidal thoughts»
💛Josh💛
Josh stumbled home, with Tyler supporting him the whole time.
"T-thank y-you for b-being here f-for me..." Josh said his voice shaking from his sobs.
"Of course. I'll always be here for you, Josh." Tyler pulled Josh closer to him.
Josh nodded and did his best to walk, but he was stumbling and he couldn't seem to walk correctly.
They arrived at Josh's house a few minutes later and Josh stumbled inside, collapsing on his couch. Tyler sat down next to him and pulled Josh into a tight hug.
Josh cried into his shoulder, unable to stop crying despite his best efforts.
"Josh...shhh...its okay..." Tyler said soothingly, brushing his hands through Josh's hair.
Josh wiped his eyes and managed to stop crying. "She didn't deserve to die."
"Of course she didn't. No one deserves death like that." Tyler whispered.
"It's all my fault." Josh whispers and begins sobbing again.
Tyler pulled him even closer and kissed his forehead. "Nothing is your fault, Josh."
Josh didn't say another word, just continued to sob into Tyler's shoulder.
Josh closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths and stopped crying. "I want to die."
Tyler brushed his hand through his hair again. "Death isn't the solution to grief."
Josh gave a small nod.
"Are you okay now Josh?" Tyler whispered.
Josh nodded. "Y-yeah. Thank you."
"Anything for you, Josh." Tyler leaned down and kissed his forehead.
Josh smiled and sat up. "What time is it?"
Tyler pulled out his phone. "12:54."
"You wanna go out to lunch, baby?" Josh said, smiling.
Tyler blushed darkly. "S-sure..."
"Okay, let's get dressed nice. I'll let my mom know." Josh and Tyler got up and walked to Josh's room.
"I don't have anything nice to wear..." Tyler said as he sat down on the bed, looking crestfallen.
"Dont worry about it." Josh tossed him a black button up and some black skinny jeans. "You can wear that."
Tyler smiled and began to get dressed. Josh turned away and blushed when he saw Tyler shirtless. Josh pulled his own shirt off and decided to wear a white button up and black skinny jeans like the ones he had given Tyler.
"You ready to-" Josh turned and blushed darker seeing that Tyler was still shirtless. Josh stared at him and Tyler looked up, blushing. "O-oh um sorry..." Tyler quickly began to pull his shirt on.
Josh smiled and grabbed his phone off his dresser and put it in his pocket.

God...Tyler is so beautiful...

Josh smiled and turned back to Tyler, seeing he was completely dressed. "You ready to go?"
"Yeah, let's go." Tyler smiled and walked over to him, kissing his cheek gently.
Josh smiled and walked out. "Mom me and Tyler are going out for lunch! We'll be back later!"
His mom replied with a simple okay and they left the house, Josh grabbing the car keys on the way out.
Josh ran over to Tyler's side and opened his door for him.
"T-thanks..." Tyler said blushing and he climbed inside the car.
Josh closed his door and ran over to his side, climbing inside and starting the car. "Hope you are hungry. The food at this restaurant is expensive."
"You're don't have to take me anywhere that is going to cost a lot." Tyler said as they began to drive down the road.
"I want to." Josh looked over at him for a second before focusing back on the road. "You deserve to eat fancy, babe."
Tyler blushed darkly and rolled down his window, letting the warm air run through his hair.
Josh smiled and reached over, grabbing Tyler's hand tightly. Tyler squeezed his hand and smiled.
Josh stopped at a light and turned to Tyler.
He was singing something.

"Don't you test me,oh, just because I play the piano doesn't mean I am not willing to take you out, I'm sorry."

Josh looked over at him, listening to his beautiful voice. Tyler sang on, his voice echoing through the car.
"J-Josh!" Tyler laughed. "Green light!"
Josh put his attention back onto the road, seeing that people where swerving around him. He blushed and drove forward.
"Keep your eyes on the road!" Tyler said, laughing.
Josh blushed darker. "Sorry. Your voice was just so beautiful, I couldn't help but look."
Tyler laughed and looked out the window again. Josh drove until he reached the restaurant and parked the car.
"You ready to go baby?" Josh asks him.
Tyler nods and climbs out of the car and Josh does the same. Josh smiles and they walk towards the building, Josh quickly grabs Tyler's hand tightly.
"Hello." A young lady in from of them say cheerily. "Table for two?"
Josh nods. "Can we possibly get a booth?"
She nods and leads them throught the place and allows them to sit at an empty booth.
Josh scoots close to Tyler, still holding his hand.
"Josh..." Tyler whispers, smiling.
Josh smiles but doesn't respond, instead he gently kisses Tyler's cheek. Tyler smiles and bites his lip, staring at Josh.
They look away from each other when their server comes up, asking them what they want.
Josh settles for a steak with fries and a lemonade. Tyler however, gets a salad and a burger.
"Salad? Why a salad?" Josh asks Tyler, puzzled.
"Salad is good." Tyler laughs. "I love salad."
Josh nods and giggles. "I hate salad, it's like eating dirt I swear."
They both burst into laughter. Josh smiles and pulls Tyler closer, still laughing. Tyler smiles and they hold a deep stare for a few minutes.

Kiss him, Josh.

I'm scared.

You have done it before.

He didn't like the kiss though.

Kiss him.

Josh leans forward and their lips collide easily. Josh moves his lips swiftly, working perfectly against Tyler's lips. Tyler pushes Josh back against the seat and Josh reaches up, one hand cupping his jaw and the other craddling the back of his neck. Tyler moves his own hands, grasping Josh's shoulders tightly. Josh bites Tyler's lip gently and pulls, gently running his tongue along his top lip. Josh continues to tug on Tyler's lip, his mind racing with thoughts.

He hates me now.
His lips are so soft...
I shouldn't have kissed him.

Josh continues to kiss Tyler, moving his lips slower which made the kiss more sweet.
Josh and Tyler break away moments later, gasping for breath.
"J-Josh..." Tyler panted, smiling weakly.
Josh smiled and kissed his cheek. "Tyler."
Tyler bit his lip and leaned his head against Josh's shoulder. "I don't understand."
"Dont understand what?" Josh asks looking down on the boy.
"I don't understand why you would want to kiss me. I'm just a fuck up that no one cares about." Tyler said, staring off into space.
"I kissed you because I..." Josh hesitates.
"You what?" Tyler asked moving his head off Josh's shoulder.
Josh stared at him and took a deep breath. "I kissed you because I love you."
Tyler's eyes widen. "...y-you l-love me?"
"Yes, Tyler I do." Josh kissed his cheek.
"I l-l-love y-you t-to Josh." Tyler said shakily.
Josh smiled and kissed him again. Tyler kissed back eagerly, their lips working smoothly against one another's.
They broke apart a few moments later and smiled when their food arrived.
Josh began to eat his food, moving one of his hands to grab Tyler's and intertwine their fingers. Tyler smiles and they eat their food, holding hands tightly.
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WOW NINE DAYS LATE.
I'M SUCH A SCRUB.
So so so sorry about not updating, I had some horrible writers block and plus school is killing me with work.
Anyway, I hope this chapter is good I wanted to make it sad and fluffy.
GAHHH they finally said I love you and it was actually meaningful!!!
I think the kiss was perfect tbh
wElL I'm gonna start the next chapter as soon as I can so I'm not late again.
Thank you so much for sticking with the story and waiting for me to update!
Catch ya later, Loves 💛
💛~TylerDun💛