Message Man-«{Joshler}» HIATUS

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«warning: talks about suicide and self-harm»
                      💛Josh💛
Josh looks at the bathroom door, waiting for Tyler to come out of the bathroom.
He's been in there for almost 30 minutes.
The worry in his stomach grows every passing second Tyler doesn't come out. Finally Josh couldn't take the worry gnawing at his stomach. He walks over to the door and knocks a few times.
Silence.
He waits and his heart drops as he hears a sickening thud.
He knocks harder. "Tyler? Tyler?"
He calls into the door. No response. He panicks and slams himself against the door, causing it to burst open. Tyler lay motionless on the ground, his lips moving like he was uttering words but Josh didn't hear anything he was saying.
Josh gasps and bends down. "Tyler! No God Tyler no!" He sees pills gripped tightly in his hands as Josh sighs.
He only took the sleeping pills. Thank god.
Josh shook him. Tyler grunted. Josh looked frantically at him and noticed his bloody arms. He grabs them and tears overwhelmed him. He begins to cry and shakes Tyler awake.
"J-Josh?" Tyler blinks his eyes wearily.
"T-Tyler! Your awake oh my god!" Josh grabs him and hugs him tightly. "I'm so glad your okay..."
Tyler looks up at him. "Why didn't I die?"
"You only took sleeping pills. They can't cause you any harm." Josh whispers that gently into his ear.
Why do I care so much about this boy?
Tyler bursts into tears. "I-I'm so sorry I t-tried to k-k-kill myself..." His breath hitches and he cries harder. "I'm s-sorry to h-have gotten y-you into t-this s-s-shit."
"Tyler it's ok." He comforts him. "You'll be alright."
"How can I be alright if I'm trying the suicidal sessions?" Tyler wipes his eyes.
"Stop." Josh closes his eyes.
Tyler tilts his head. "Why?"
"I just can't accept the fact that you tried the suicidal session." He keeps his eyes closed tight.
"Josh, you can't be in denial that I tried the suicidal session forever." Tyler sighs. "I've caused you a lot of pain I see."
Josh nods. "I can't stand to see you like this." He hesitates. "I can't stand seeing you suicidal I mean."
"But Josh, you hardly even know me." Tyler shakes his head. "You don't care about me."
Josh stares at the boy. "Tyler!" He snaps a bit to much, making Tyler jump. "I'm sorry, Ty. But don't you ever think or say I don't care about you cause I do." Tyler keeps his mouth shut. Josh continues. "I may have not know you for very long, but I care about you so much and I just want to help you through this life."
Tyler blushes a deep shade of red. "T-thanks...."
Josh smiles and his heart begins to flutter as he stared into his dark chocolate eyes. He tore his eyes away from Tyler and shook his head angrily.
What the hell is wrong with me?!?
"Josh?" Josh looks back at Tyler. "Can we get out of the bathroom now?"
Josh gives a nervous laugh and nods, helping Tyler to his feet. Tyler closed his eyes and opened them again. Josh helped him to the bed and they sat down.
Tyler laughs giving a weak smile. "Green Day sure makes some odd music."
Josh smiles. "Oddly amazing!"
They both laughed and before Josh knew what he was doing, he intertwined their fingers. Tyler looks at him and blushes.
Josh smiles and blushes. "S-sorry..." He begins to pull his hand away.
Tyler grips his hand tighter, shaking his head. "No..." He closes his eyes, squeezing his hand. "Don't let go..."
Josh nodded and closes his eyes, just listening to Tyler's steady breaths and the Green Day CD, which was still playing.
Josh grabs Tyler's other hand, and squeezes gently. He opens his eyes and sees Tyler looking down at their intertwined fingers. "J-Josh?"
"Yeah?" Josh looks at him curiously.
"Why..." He hesitates. "Why did you grab my hand?"
Josh blushes and looks down. "I thought it would......ya know comfort you."
Tyler blushes a beautiful shade of pink. "I-it d-did.... Thank y-you..."
Josh smiles. God his blush is cute... He shakes his head, clearing his thoughts. "No problem, Ty." Josh gets up and clicks the CD off. "You hungry?"
Tyler shakes his head. "Nah, I'm ok. Thanks though."
Josh nods. He gives Tyler an awkward smile and Tyler blushes again.
God damn it why is this boy so cute?!?

Hours passed, Tyler and Josh had just finished dinner.
Tyler smiles at Josh's mom. "Thank you for letting me stay and thank you for dinner. It was delicious."
Josh's mom smiles. "No problem Tyler, my house if your house whenever you need it. I'm glad you liked dinner."
Josh smiles at his mom and picks up his and Tyler's plates. He smiles at Tyler. "Lets head back up to the room."
Tyler nods and they go back to his room. Josh allows Tyler to walk in first and Josh closes the door behind him. Tyler lays back on the bed, and Josh lays next to him.
"Josh?" Tyler keeps his stare on the ceiling.
"Yeah?" He can't help but stare at the boys face, lit up slightly in the darkness.
"Do you..." He stops." Do you.... Do you really think I'm worth being alive?"
"If course I do! Your worth all the money in the world, Tyler. Everyone deserves everything they want and so do you. Don't let anyone tell you your worthless cause you aren't."
Tyler keeps his gaze fixed on the ceiling. "What is your worst fear?"
Josh thinks about it for a moment. "Probably spiders. They are creepy as hell."
Tyler laughs. "Mine is drowning. Or maybe be burnt alive." He narrows his eyes. "Josh, what your sexuality?"
"What is this a quiz?" Josh laughs.
Tyler shakes his head. "Answer the question."
"Ok fine. I'm gay, I just haven't told anyone yet." Josh blushes a very dark shade of red.
Tyler widens his eyes. "Wow I wouldn't have guessed." Tyler smiles. "I'm gay too, that's part of the reason why my parents beat me."
Josh nods smiling at Tyler. "Tyler how many times have you tried suicide?"
"Seven. 5 times over the period of 6 years and two times this year. But I dunno I think I might not try to commit anymore cause I'm the kind of guy who takes every moment cause I know I can fight it."
Josh nods. "I'm glad to hear that."
He is going to fight. That's all I want from him, I just want him to fight.
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WOOHOO MORE FLUFF! Haha couldn't help it I just love fluff do much it's insane Lmao. Next chapter I doing a time skip to when Tyler is supposed to leave Josh's house. Lets see how this goes shall we? Haha I honestly can't wait I have it all planned out 😏. Not gonna hint at anything, you will have to wait till the next chapter!
Also, I think for the end of this fic imma do a really long last chap but idk for sure since the end of the story is a long ways away loves 😂.
Lmao ok I'm rambling now.
Thanks for ready!
Catch ya later loves!
💛~TylerDun💛