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«warning: suicidal thoughts, another suicide attempt»
                   💛Tyler💛
(Time skip-One week)
Tyler wakes up, his head pounding. He looks around and realizes what today was.
I have to go home today.
He gulps fearfully and looks around noticing Josh isn't in the room.
"Josh?" He calls nervously, waiting eagerly for a response.
Josh then walks out of the bathroom, a towel wrapped around his waist and his bare chest gleaming with droplets of water. "Morning, Tyler."
Tyler smiles, doing his best not to stare at Josh's bare chest. "Morning."
"How did you sleep?" Josh walks over to his dresser and begins to get dressed.
"I slept fine." Tyler looks away from him.

Tyler stop staring at the boy, he doesn't like you the way you like him.

I know he doesn't.

Good cause nobody could love a fuck up like you.

I know, Blurry.

Good.

Tyler grabs his phone and clicks it on and opens it. He hadn't gotten a single a message from his parents. Of course he hadn't, they didn't care enough to ask how he was doing. He sighs and tosses the phone aside.
"Tyler?" Josh looks over at him, now fully dressed.
"Yeah?" He stares up at the ceiling.
"You have to go home today right?" Josh walks over to him and lays next to him on the floor. Tyler nods. "Y-yeah..." He gulps and looks over at Josh, their eyes locking. "I'm scared."
"I know. It'll be ok." Josh smiles and Tyler smiles back.
"Thanks Josh. Thanks for everything, especially letting me stay here." Tyler looks back up at the ceiling.
Josh nods and Tyler suddenly feels Josh's hand grasp his own and Tyler closes his eyes and allowed their fingers to intertwine.

Tyler let his hand go.

No.

He doesn't like you like you think he does!

I know he doesn't, he is doing this because he knows I am scared.

You should be scared. You parents are gonna destroy what little shreds of confidence you have and I'll take what ever is left afterwards and I will destroy you.

Tyler opens his eyes and pulls his hand from Josh's grasp. "Do you know what time it is?"
Josh pulls out his phone. "2:38."
"In the afternoon?!?" Tyler sits up straight.
"Yeah. I figured I'd let you sleep." Josh smiles. "Your really cute when you sleep."
Tyler blushes a very dark shade of pink. "Thanks..."
Josh smiles. Before Tyler even knows what's happening, their lips crash together.  Tyler closes his eyes, not daring to breath. Josh pulls back and blushes. "O-oh I'm s-sorry..." He tears his eyes away from Tyler's. "We should probably get you home."
Tyler nods and gets up, grabbing all of his stuff before he turned back to Josh, blushing darkly.
Josh smiles and pulls his shoes on, also grabbing his phone. "Lets go." He flashes a small smile at Tyler and Tyler smiles back, still blushing from the kiss.
They walk out the door and leave the house, the silence between them almost deadly. Tyler began to play his ukulele and sing, singing something different this time.

They think this thing is a highway if it was our way we'd have a tempo change every other time change cause our minds changed on what we think is good, I wasn't raised in the hood but I know a thing or two about pain and darkness-

Tyler stops, blushing when he sees Josh staring at him. He looks down and grips his ukulele at its neck, holding it at his side.
"I didn't know you could rap like that." Josh tilts his head curiously.
Tyler nods, still blushing harshly.

Your rapping is horrible.

No it's-

Don't argue, you know your rapping sucks you just don't want to admit it.

Tyler keeps his eyes down, quietly agreeing with Blurry. Tyler looks up and sees that they had arrived at his doorstep.
Josh pulled Tyler in for a hug. "Please remember if you ever need anything, you have my number. I'll come over immediately if you need anything." He moves Tyler's head so their eyes lock. "Ok, Tyler?"
"O-ok..." Tyler blushes as he stares into Josh's brown eyes. "I will. I promise."
Josh smiles and let's Tyler go. Tyler waves as he opens his front door. "Bye..." He shuts the door behind him before Josh can respond.
Tyler calls into the silent house. "Hello? Mom? Dad?"
A loud, angry voice comes from the top of the stairs. "Get up here now, Tyler."
He gulps and closes his eyes, recognizing the voice as his father's. He walks to the stairs and slowly climbs up them and meets fathers red and angry face.
"Fucking faggot why are you here?" His voice booms and Tyler flinches.
"I... Umm... Had to come home..." Tyler gulps closing his eyes fearfully.
"What the fuck ever Tyler. Go to your room and don't you dare come out." His breath stinks of alcohol.
Tyler nods and half walks half runs to his room and locks the door behind him. He slides down and sits against the door, putting his head in his hands. Tyler does his best not to cry but it just comes spilling out and his tears fly down his cheeks. He looks up at his ceiling and closes his eyes.
Just take my life now, please. Please, please let me die.
Tyler couldn't control his sobs anymore. He let out a shrill scream, filled with anger, pain and fear. He began to scratch at his face and he slipped away into his thoughts.
It was the screaming. Again. This time it was much, much louder.
"Stop! Stop the screaming!" Tyler screamed and yanked on his hair, a pulsing pain running through his entire body.
The screaming increased in volume. He cried out and scratched angrily at his cheeks, causing them to bleed.
Death is upon your pitiful soul...

"Stop the screaming Message!"

He had finally called him by his name. Out loud. And it only made the screaming much stronger. He had enough. He got weakly to his feet and stumbled to his dresser, when he had hidden several different kinds of pills. He opened each bottle and dumped some into his hand and popped them into his mouth. He swallowed reluctantly and closes his eyes.
This is the end. I'm going to die.
He blinked his eyes open quickly and rummaged through his pockets for his phone.
He decided to say one last goodbye to Josh. He pulled up his contact.
Josh, I can't take being alive anymore. I've taken pills and I don't think I'll survive tonight. I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry. And the kiss I know it was pity. You don't love me and you could never love a fuck up like me. I'm sorry, but I guess I'm not because you don't even like me do you? I dunno, this is my goodbye. Thank you for allowing me to stay with you and thank you for everything you've ever done. If you want to try to save me, climb the tree outside my window. I don't think you will come and if you do, you won't be able to save me. Goodbye, Josh.
He sends the text. He stuffs his phone back into his pocket and drops onto his bed. He cries. Tyler closes his eyes and drifts off into a soundless sleep.
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OH DEERY THIS GOT BAD REAL REAL QUICK. I'm gonna start the next chapter as soon as I can cause I've been really late updating this ;-; so sorry about that. Anyway, BE PREPARED CAUSE THIS NEXT CHAP MIGHT BE DEPRESSING I DONT KNOW FOR SURE.
Also little note, sorry for any typos, I noticed a ton of em in the last few chapters. Sorry about that loves.
Anyway, thank you for reading my fic loves 💛💛💛.
💛~TylerDun💛