I love the things you hate about yourself (Brendon Urie X Reader)

Beautifully depressing..

(A/n: hey guys. I just wanna say thank u for blessing me and reading this fic it means a lot to me. I also wanna say that this book will end soon but I will still make the prequel and more x- readers.)

-Brendon's P.O.V-

(Y/N) was rushed to the emergency room. It all happend in an instant. I shouldn't have let this happen. She's like this because of me. And I hate myself for that. "Mr. Urie..hello..Mr. Urie?" A nurse said to catch my attention. I must've been thinking too much and got lost in my thoughts. "Yes?" I said anxious to see (Y/N). "Dr. Holland would like to see you." She said quietly. I nodded in reponse and she lead me to (Y/N)'s room.

-(Y/N)'s P.O.V-

I woke up to see Brendon and a doctor I'm not too familiar with. "Hey (Y/N) how are you?" The doctor asked in a soft manner. "I'm fine..who are you?" I asked. I saw Brendon's face drop. "It's alright I know you chill." I said to Brendon and he sighed happily. "I'm Dr. Holland." The doctor said reaching out for a hand shake. I gladly shook his hand. "Okay Mr. Urie and Ms. (Y/L/N) I have some news." Dr. Holland said disappointed. "Ok what's the news?" Brendon and I said simultaneously. "Well (Y/N) has stage 3 lung cancer." Dr. Holland said with a sigh. I just looked at him with shock and Brendon looked like he was going to cry. "However, many people have gone through this type of cancer and 70% has survived. So all we need to do is to give you the right kind of diet and medication. If it get's worse we have to transfer to chemotherapy." Dr. Holland said trying to comfort us. We all stayed silent. "Well I'll give you some time to catch up." Dr. Holland said as he left the room and shut the door. Brendon ran to me for a hug and squeezed me tightly. We were both crying at this point. Brendon more than me. "Hey Brendon." I said as I lifted his chin to look at me. "Everything is going to be fine I'm going to be fine. Ok I'm not leaving you anymore." I said as I pulled him into another tight embrace. "This is a-all my f-fault." Brendon mumbled in my hospital gown. "No it's not don't think that Brendon. I did this to myself and I'm sorry for how I acted. Please just don't take what I did and blame it on yourself." I said quietly. "Ok..I love you." He said as a tear streamed down his cheek. "I love you too." I say as I wipe of his tear. We both leaned in for a kiss. A very emotional kiss that didn't feel like fire but the ash that was from the fire. All of the lost memories were that kiss and started to fade away. It was relaxing however, beautifully depressing. We broke apart and our foreheads matched. And I giggled at the thought that his was bigger than mine. We love each other. That can't change anything.

-Brendon's P.O.V-

I didn't know how to feel at that moment. I can't get over that thought. But I need to stay by her. And let her have the best life she can. Even if she does survive. I won't let her down. I promise.

(A/n: im not crying you are
Also sry this is late on updating woops.)