Don't Call Me Kitten Book 1 Of 3 *Naruto* COMPLETE

Coward's Way Out

A/N: I know the age doesn't match up but it's a fanfiction and I have the right to change it ;) 
Also TRIGGER WARNINGS BELOW. I will clearly mark before it begins and briefly explain. <3

                    As I stroll into the main room, my eyes land on Kisame and grin confidently. Deidara is lounging on the other side of the room, his hands working a ball of clay. I ignore his gaze and walk over to the swordsman, asking where Itachi is. He arches a brow, wondering why in the world I would be looking for one of the people I don't really get along with. I flop down on the couch next to him and prop my feet up on the table before answering him.
"Itachi possesses some very valuable information and I need to squeeze it out of him." At the word 'squeeze' I mimic the action with my hand while grinning evilly.
"Sometimes I really think you do belong here..." He mutters, shaking his head. "He's training."
"Thank you Hoshigaki-sama!" I lightly pat his knee as I stand and head toward the training room.
                     I throw open the door in a wonderfully dramatic fashion, the force blowing my hair back out of my face. My eyes fall on the Uchiha as I stride in, keeping my face stoic. He glances up at me from his crouched position with his raven hair clinging to his face, a katana stretched out in his hand. I keep my eyes on his face as he straightens, instead of his exposed abdomen so I don't lose my dramatics. Blushing would definitely ruin it. I make my way over to him as he wipes away the sweat on his discarded shirt.
"Kakashi Hatake." I state simply, studying his face for a response.
He keeps his face as impassive as ever as he answers.
"That is not my name."
"No, but it's the name of my father, isn't it?"
"What is the basis of your claim?"
"My mother. She says that he is my father."
My statement draws a reaction from him finally, a bit of shock playing across his face before it returns to a cool neutral. I cross my arms over my chest and wait for him to speak, knowing I've got him cornered.
"I thought you didn't know what happened to your mother?"
"I didn't until I met her in a hot spring while on the mission. She claimed she left me under the care of my father, then asked who my sensei was. She claims that Kakashi was my father. Is it true?"
"If it's what she said, then do you think it's true?"
"I don't know if I could trust her. You said you knew who it was, so you tell me."
"Kakashi is your father. I don't know their story, as I didn't care, but I know that he is."
I sit down on the floor in front of him, curious to learn more. "How did you know?"
He sighs and runs a hand through his hair, keeping his gaze away from me.
"You were left around age seven, right?" He asks, looking down at me and I nod. "I was in the ANBU at the time and was doing rounds of the village the night she left. She and Kakashi argued over her wanting to leave and leave you behind. He denied you as his daughter at first but she showed him something I couldn't see and he seemed to accept it. He tried to stop her afterward but she left and he went home. That's all I know."
"Thank you, Itachi..."
~~~~~~~~~TRIGGER WARNING! This warning features suicidal thoughts/actions. Read at your own risk! <3 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
                            I leave Itachi in the training room, my fists clenched so I can keep my emotions in check. I pass through the main room and keep my focus on going to my room despite Kisame's question. Once my door closes, I press my back against it and slide down to the floor. My world has turned upside down within the span of a week and I don't know if I can handle it. Tears spring up to my eyes and I let them fall. My mother didn't want me and left me, my father didn't even tell me that he was my father. I'm unwanted all the way around. Pein was the only one who wanted me and that was simply a part of his power trip. If I were an average ninja, he wouldn't have bothered. Do I even belong here? I couldn't escape from Deidara during the first mission and failed my second. I'm not as strong of a ninja as I thought. At this rate, I'll never leave on my own terms, even then where would I go? I'll be stuck here until Pein tires of me and has me killed. The only way I could leave on my own terms... it'd be the coward's way out. Could I really? I lift my head from my forearms and stare at my weapons that I'd left haphazardly tossed on the desk. It could be so simple, just grab one and that'd be the end of it. I'm alone right now, no one bothers me really unless I'm needed. I let out a shaky breath before getting to my feet. I cross the room and carefully pick up a kunai before sitting down on my bed. There are so many different ways to do it, what's the best way? I lift the blade to my throat and sigh before lowering it. I expose my forearm and lightly trace the vein, trying to decide if I really want to do this. Can I really take the coward's way out? I close my eyes and take a deep breath to calm my nerves.
"Don't do it!"