The blond devil- a 'SHADOWHUNTERS' fan fiction

Thirty-six

Clary and Luke help Jace to his feet, before he starts walking towards me, i take steps back as he takes them forward.

"I'm so sorry, I didn't mean- I didn't mean to do that" I looked Jace in the eyes. "I am so sorry"

"Okay, Bex, take a breath" Luke's tone was so calm and soothing, it made me relax slightly "what happened?"
"She hurt my son, that's what happened!" Michael spoke, still in the spot he had been in before.
"It was an accident! It's not like I planed for that to happen!" I spun to face the man, but turning my back to him again "I don't even know what any of this is!"

"Alright, it's okay. Are you hurt, Jace?"
"No, I'm fine"

"See? He's fine" Clary was suddenly closer then I thought she was, moving her hand to touch me.
"Don't touch me" I flinch away "it's not a good idea"

After a few moments of silence I decided to brake it.

"I'm going for a walk. I'll be back before the sun is up" I announce. It wasn't even sunrise yet, so I had enough time to do what I needed.

Before anyone could object I was out the door, my stele running over my arm, activating several runes.

Jumping from the ground to the roof of a building, i was off.

There was something I had to do.

My knuckles hit the door three times before opening.
"Bexley?" Magnus seemed rightfully shocked to see me standing there, as I was reportedly missing, with the stollen mortal cup, along with Jace and Clary.
"No. It's the big bad wolf" I tried for sarcasm, but I just didn't have it in me.

"Come in here, you can't be seen!" He ushered me inside, sitting me down.
"If you want me to leave- look, I know I'm risking you getting in trouble with the clave-"
"Screw the clave" he cut me off, handing me some coffee "you're a friend, and you look like you need to talk. So talk"

And I did. I told him about what had been happening with my powers- or whatever they were- leaving out the parts about Valentine of course. I told him about the way I had thrown the man, and Jace.

And he listened. he understood. He didn't judge me. Or stare at me in horror. He didn't try to touch me in comfort.

"So the reason I'm here, Magnus, is I need to know- is there a way to get rid of them? My powers?" I ask, almost desperately.

"well, Bexley, you really shouldn't rush into something like that. This magic is part of who you are. And, just so you know, in all my years I've never heard of anything like what you're telling me" he smiled softly "but I am truly in awe of what you can do. I think it's going to turn out to be a beautiful thing, once you learn to control yourself"

"Magnus-" I was cut off by someone knocking on the door, which the Warlock quickly got up and answered, shooting me a glance.

I quietly got up, hiding behind some kind of decorative curtain, long enough that it piled on the floor.

"Alexander lightwood" I hear Magnus say.
"I need your help, Magnus" Alec's voice rings out, stress clouding it. I fight the urge to comfort him. "I know, you don't want to help me, but my sister is in trouble"

My entire body went stiff, my mind blocked out all sound.
Izzy's in trouble?

"Deal" he was right next to me. But I didn't care. Isabelle.

Suddenly, The spot of the curtain I was clutching in my fists burst into golden flames. And before I could blink the entire curtain was in flames.

I slipped out, as I heard Magnus and Alec gasping.

"Bex?!" Alec looked astonished to see me there.
"My curtains!" Magnus exclaimed, wide eyed.
"I didn't mean for that to happen! I was just- and the WHOOSH- flames!" I try to explain, as Magnus starts using his own magic to Try and put my flames out.

"Bex! Get away from there!" Alec yanks me away from the growing flames. "What are you doing here?"

"I came to get advice. What are you doing here, Alec? Arresting Magnus, too?" I say, bitterly.
"Bex, could we please, please, not fight right now? Isabelle needs us"
"What's wrong?"

Alec began explaining the fact that someone had seen Izzy, and now she's been arrested.

"She could be stripped of her runes!" I shriek, the flames were gone now.
"Yeah, but look, if we get the cup back, to the clave, they'll pretend it never happened"

"You don't have it?"
"No. I thought you took it"
"Clary" it made sense.

"They're looking for you, Bexley" Alec whispered, sounding almost guilty.
"You told them?" I stepped back slightly, shock, hurt and sadness showing on my face.
"No! I would never tell the clave, Bex! You were right, maybe the Fairy didn't know anything. I was wrong. Somebody saw you- they saw your-" he trailed off, not knowing what to say. But I knew. The man, the one I threw.

Alec sat down, on one of the couches.

"It's okay Alec" I sat next to him, taking his hand in mine. "It'll be okay"
"You can't know that, Bexie. they're calling you dangerous"

My heart sank at those words. But I couldn't help but wonder.. Maybe they were right. Maybe I am. Maybe I am a danger to everyone around me. I've hurt people. I hurt Jace.

"Maybe They're right, Alec" I looked at our intertwined hands, pulling mine away.
"What are you talking about? That's ridiculous"
"You saw the flames"

"No. There's no way" Alec stood up "there's no possible way that you're dangerous!"
"Look at me Alec! I can't control it! Do you know what I've done? I threw Jace into a wall because I don't know how to control myself!" I stood.

"You can learn!"
"No! No I can't! I don't want to learn! I don't want any of this! I don't want to throw people without touching them! I don't want golden fire! And I sure as hell don't want wings! I want my life back, Alec!" Both Alec and Magnus were watching me, unmoving "I want to go home! I want to go back, to before we found Clary, that's when this started! I want to go back to when it was you, me, Izzy and Jace! To when I was just Bexley Bloodborn. I want to be a ShadowHunter again! I want to go home, Alec!"

Alec wrapped me in a bone crushing hug.
"I know. But we can't. Trust me, it causes me physical pain to say this, but, Clary is part of this now. And you are still just bexley. That will never change. Wings or not. You could grow a second head, and I would- we would still love you. ShadowHunter or angel or whatever they throw at you- us- next. We're a team"

"I hate to break this up, but, the time?" Magnus pointed to the window, knowing I had told Jace I would be back before sunrise.
And The sun was starting to rise.

"I have to get back"
"I'll make a portal"

"Alec, tell Izzy I'll get the cup to her, tell her I'm sorry. For letting her get caught" I stepped closer to the portal Magnus opened, that was getting louder.

"Bexie!" Alec called right as I was about to step through, I looked back at him.
He stepped up to me, grabbing my hand, pressing something small and cold into my grip, kissing my temple quickly.
"I love you. Don't forget that"