Too Fast (A Connor Franta Fanfiction)

Chapter 10

^Lilly's P.O.V.^

So I walk into Connor's room and I freeze.

'Did I just walk into Ikea?!'

His room is so neat and clean! I am kind of a neat freak but I thought it would have at least a pillow out of place or something.

'Maybe he cleaned up for me...'

'God, Lilly shut up!'

Aww more cat pictures!...hes soo cute...-they I mean, they're soo cute!!

His bed is soo clean!!

'NOO!! Lilly step away from the bed! You don't want to give Connor the wrong idea.'

I don't know what to do...okay quick pep talk:

1. Don't talk about Josh ever!!

2. Don't let Connor know you think you feel something for him just yet...he could take advantage of that.

3. We barely know each other so try to get to know him and don't be so quick to judge!

4. Don't rush into anything! We don't want to move Too Fa-IS THAT A SPINNY CHAIR?!?!!

I literally flew across the room and landed into the chair. It spins soo fast!

I know I get excited over the littlest things but I've always been obsessed with spinny chairs!

"WHAT WOULD YOU DO? WHAT WOULD YOU SAY? HOW DOES IT FEEL? PRETEND ITS OKAY!!"

I don't even know why but "Pretend It's Okay" by Little Mix popped into my head and I just couldn't not sing it!

And just in case you were wondering I can't sing to save my life!

I made a video of me singing but I sound horrible. My parents still have the video tape somewhere in their attic and Jen wouldn't let me throw it out cause she thinks I can sing. I still sing when I feel like...just because I can..I guess.

I'm spinning faster and getting light-headed and Connor still hasn't come back yet.

"Why is he taking soo long?? It doesn't take long to get a blanket and I'm not even cold!"

'Maybe he just doesn't want to be around you! Josh didn't want to be around you either', my brain yelled.

"Shut up, Brain! That's not true!"

'You know it is! You were thinking it and now you're a crazy person talking to your brain!'

"Ughh...just ignore and keep spinning...and spinning..and singing" I mumbled to myself continuing the song.

I get the urge to look up and there Connor is being sneaky. He waves and comes in.

'Oh he heard you sounding like a dying hyena!! And now he's trying to pretend his ears aren't bleeding'

So we talk for a while and I officially have to kill Jen later for scaring him lol his hands are shaking...

We start playing 21 questions and snacking on sour patch kids and somehow we end up sparring... he pins me on the bed and before anything else could happen, I kissed him.

After the amazing kiss, he pulled away and smiled at me. I couldn't help but smile back. That kiss was...breathtaking!

'Wow. That was unexpected.' I thought, still gazing into those beautiful green eyes.

Suddenly, those images of Josh came back into my head. Breaking my stuff and yelling at me...hurting me...

'No way. Connor could never be like that. He's too nice.'

'But, he's just my friend, right? I don't want to rush things. God, why did I kiss him!!?!'

I snapped out of my trance and got from under Connor, leaving a look of confusion on his face.

"I'm sorry, but I have to go." I stated, grabbing my towel.

"Wait. Why?" Connor questioned.

"I'm sorry, I-I have to leave. Sorry." I sped through the door, ran downstairs and walked over to Jen. I grabbed her arm and told her that we had to leave. She heard the urgency in my voice and acted quickly.

"Hey, Jc. I have to go with Lilly. I'll see you later, okay?" she told him, kissing his cheek. I quickly walked out of the front door and to our rental car.

"What's wrong , Lilly? What happened with you and Connor? Did he do anything to you?!" Jen threw questions at me.

"I'll tell you later, Jen!" I rustled through my bag to find my keys and stepped into the car.

Connor was probably trailing behind because he knocked on the window. Jc and Ricky followed him, both confused and worried, making it into a scene.

"Why are you leaving, Lilly? Did I do something wrong?" he asked, face full of concern.

"No! It's me. I'm sorry, Connor. I have to go!" I cried, backing out of the driveway.