Too Fast (A Connor Franta Fanfiction)

Chapter 31

^Lilly's P.O.V.^

I'm freaking out!

I didn't mean to hurt Connor.

I know he didn't mean his words in a bad way, but that's what Josh used to say to me.

You're mine and only mine..

*Flashback*

"I'm home!!" Josh yelled. "You better be here!" I heard something get knocked over.

'Oh, no!'

"I'm here." I said, coming down the stairs.

"Good! You're never leaving me!" He slurred, stumbling over the coffee table.

He's drunk.

"Umm..J-josh, do you want some water or something." I asked, calmly.

"No! Come here!" He yelled, as I flinched back.

"Please calm down! I'll get you some water." I said.

As I turned to the kitchen, my arm was grabbed with a burning grip, and I was pulled back.

"You're not going anywhere!"

'He better calm the fudge down!' My brain yelled.

"Let me go!" I yelled, as his grip tightened, painfully. "That hurts! Josh! You're hurting me!" I yelled at him.

His grip loosened a bit.

He dropped the beer bottle to the floor, as the glass shattered.

"Now, look what you did!" He yelled. "Clean it up! Now." He said, pushing me to the floor and climbing up the stairs.

I hate it when he gets like this. I looked up at the calendar.

March 17.

The day his mother died.

He still won't tell me how, but every year since I've known him, he would get completely drunk on this day and take his anger out on me.

Every other day he'd be remotely kind, but not today; Never today.

I picked up the broken glass from the floor and mopped up the alcohol.

He came back downstairs and grabbed me by my hair.

"Tell me you love me!" He yelled at me. "Tell me, now! I need to hear it!" He screamed.

He barely hits me, only when I yell back. He just throws me around and yells, till I cry.

"I-I love y-you.." I whispered, with tears in my eyes.

"That hurts!" I yelled.

"Say it again! Louder!"

"I l-love you." I repeated, louder.

"Tell me you'll never leave me!" He yelled.

"I'll n-neve-..I'll never l-leave you. I whispered.

"Good!" He said pulling me to him. "I love you too! I love you so much, Lilly! You're never leaving me, okay? You're mine and only mine! No one is going to take you from me! Ever!" He slurred, squeezing me tight.

The neighbor banged on the door of my old house.

He gave me a look, as I opened the door.

"Is everything alright? I heard screaming and loud noises." My neighbor, Ms.Daniels, said.

"Yes, Ms.Daniels. Everything is fine." I said, putting on a smile, and refusing to meet her eyes.