Too Fast (A Connor Franta Fanfiction)

Chapter 12

^Lilly's P.O.V.^

I hate myself right now. I shouldn't have just left like that but I couldn't take it. He was staring into my soul.

I knew if I stayed longer I would've ended up confessing what I'm trying to forget. I wouldn't have had any control. His green eyes were like a spell. I had to leave.

I feel horrible for leaving him hanging but I couldn't stay.

It was silent the whole way back to the hotel, but the second we got to our room, Jen started talking.

"It's okay..you don't have to tell me now. We can talk tomorrow. Let's just get some sleep."

I nodded, relieved and headed to bed.

*

The next morning, I woke up with a start. I stretched and looked over to see Jen sitting, criss cross, neatly on her fully made bed. She was waiting patiently for me to wake up so she could interrogate me.

I nodded giving her permission to start her question train.

"What happened, Lilly? What did he do to you? Did he hurt you? He did, didn't he? I already warned him!! When I see him again, I swear I'm gonna-"

"-Jen," I cut her off, sitting up. "..Connor didn't do anything wrong!! We were just upstairs playing 21 questions and snacking on candy and tea and then we started a duel." I said, getting up, and walking over to the small fridge. "Whoever pinned the other down got the last bit of candy. He pinned me on the bed, nicely, and I kissed him. The kiss was everything I wanted it to be!! But Josh kept popping into my head and I started comparing Connor and Josh. And I just couldn't take it. I mean what if he takes advantage of me? Or if he hurts me? How do I know I can trust him? I don't even trust myself! I only met him yesterday and I already like him...a lot! I just...I don't know, okay?" I finished, crying now.

Jen walked over and pulled me into a long, comforting hug. "It's okay, Lil. It's okay." She whispered, rubbing my back. "I understand. But Josh isn't Connor. I can already tell, Connor won't hurt you like Josh did. I promise."

"Thank you, Jen. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have left like that. He was soo worried and confused."

"I forgive you, Lilly. But it's not me you should be apologizing to. I think you should tell him.."

I nodded and pulled out my phone. Quickly dialing his number, I waited and on the fourth ring he answered. I put the phone on speaker.

"Oh look who it is everyone..it's Lilly Sparks. I bet she hates Mondays too, don't you Lilly?!?" Connor spit, venomously.

'Someone didn't sleep well. What's his problem?', my brain asked.

"Umm..Connor? Are you okay?" I asked, worriedly.

"Ohh, me?! Yeah, I'm just peachy!!"

Jen gave me a 'talk fast' look.

"Erm..can we come over? I need to explain some things to you.."

"Sure..why don't you come over down to Monday Hating Island where we are all trying to figure out why I'm not good enough for you!?!"

"Who is we- What?! Connor, that's not it at all. I'm just- I'm sorry. I'll be over in a sec."

"We better hurry! He didn't seem too cheery!", Jen said handing me the keys. And for the second day in a row we rushed out of the hotel to our rental car.