Before we go

chapter 4

as soon as we get into the room lexy goes and does her night routine. I just strip down to my boxers and crawl into bed and stare at the ceiling. I think about if lexy let x-factor, how upset I would be and the 4 guys we met. I would miss her to death and I don't want that to have to happen. I don't even notice her get in bed but when her bed dips I look over at her. she has tear stains on her cheeks. I reach over, grab her by the waist and pull her into my chest. she cries for a good hour until her breaths turn even signaling she's fallen asleep. I fall asleep with the thought of lexy and her fragile state haunting my mind.

-----2 weeks later at the last challenge----

lexy has made it to the last challenge. I am ecstatic. its down t0 50 people and only 25 will be able to go to the live shows. god I hope I go through, same with lex. she deserves to be here. no mater what the judges think. I walk out onto the stage for the eliminating to begin.

the names keep getting called and none of them are mine. nor liams nor nialls nor harrys nor zayns.

"and the last guy place goes to Tristen Kennedy." (A/N just a random name) and my heart breaks. we walk off stage and lexy sees the tears in my eyes. then a guy comes and asks for me, niall, liam, zayn and harry back on stage. we walk out confused and they hit is with it. we got put into a group, a boy band and were going to the judges houses. we start jumping around very happy when we get off stage and lexy looks confused.

"were in a boyband now." I say very happy and she smiles widely. she jumps into my arms and I spin her around and lean down to kiss her but then the girls are called. lexy rolls her eyes and pecks my lips and runs off towards the stage. she still has that smile on her face and I intent to see it when she comes back to me. but my wishes aren't granted when she comes back out with tears down her cheeks and a frown after about half an hour. she shake her head and walks straight into my arms. she bawls and I am devastated. "I wont go without you." I say and she shoots her head out and looks at me with determination.

"Louis William Tomlinson you are going to the live shows with or without me. and when we get back to the hotel we need to talk. its important." she says and I nod sadly.

we head back to the hotel and the guys decide to come to our room for a little while. we joke off for a little while, then we all get hungry except for lexy. she stay back and we go to get food. I kiss her good bye and leave. we go down to nandos and get take out so we wont take forever. we get to hotel and the room is empty of lexy and her stuff. theres a note on my pillow and I rush over to it.

'my dearest louis

I left early, I couldn't tell you this in person knowing what your reaction would be. simon cowell is my uncle and hasn't wanted anything with me and that's why he wanted me off the X-Factor. I need to break up with the love of my life so he can get used to being without me. I don't want to do this lou but knowing that I kept this huge secret from you and knowing you, this is the right thing. your the most important thing in my life and I wish that I would of been more honest and less secretive but I was scared that you wouldn't like me for me. its how its always been. im going to live with simon in one of his many houses, he doesn't want me to have any contact with you but I cant do that, ill try to stay in touch with you, I love you to pieces boobear and even though I don't want to do this, its for your career that's gonna be taking off soon. ill watch and vote EVERY week, I promise. don't forget anything because I know that you enjoyed everything we had just like I did.

love you lou, forever yours

Lexy <3'

I read her words over and over again. I fell to the ground crying and the boys came and took the note from my hands and read it. harry was the first to take me into a hug and let me sob into his shoulder. "I lost the best thing I have ever had. she was the only one that I have ever loved." I sob and he shushes me. I cant believe this is happening.

------3 years later------

lexys POV

hes still all I think about. I still cry every night wanting him back and to be in his arms. but now he has a new relationship. Eleanor. shes everything Im not and hes happy. that's all I have ever asked for.

simon has never been home since I got here. its his mansion in London, which is stupid. hes always in London. I go to the fridge and see that I need to go shopping. so I grab my keys and purse and head to the only car that I have ever driven since I got my license. a 87 mercades convertible. I love it.

at the shops I get all the essencials and then head to the junk food isles. but to my luck I bump into someone with my body reaching for the packet of crisps on the top shelf. ugh short people problems.

"I am so sorry about t-" i cut myself off looking at the person standing in front of me. i wasn't supposed to see any of them let alone liam payne. "that." i say quietly foreget about the crisps and keep walking.

"wait." he calls out and i stop. i hear foot steps behind me and i get turned around by big hands and strong arms. he takes in my face and his eyes widen and start to sparkle with tears. "lexy?" he asks and i nod. he pulls me into him and i hug back. "god have i missed you. we thought you were dead. considering that you never kept in touch like you said you would. god do you know how ecstatic Louis is gonna be knowing your alive and here in London?" he asks and i shake my head frantically.

"no no no no Louis and the other boys cant find out. simon wants me as far away from you guys as possible, he doesn't want me near you thinking i would ruin your reputation. im sorry but they cant know."

"liam whats taking you s-" i hear 3 pairs of feet behind me and liams eyes widen. someone comes up and turns me around and looks at me.

"lexy?" they all say at once and i just bow my head and nod not wanting the tears to fall. niall pulls at my chin to make my eyes meet his.

"why are you crying?" he asks and i completely break down falling to the floor in the middle of the isle. he pulls me into him and i cry for what seems like forever. i finally stop crying and then stand up.

"meet me at 4554 cobblestone ave at 8, ill open the gates for you guys to get in, ill explain over dinner. i got to go now, by guys." not wanting to cause another scene. "and don't tell Louis, i don't want to bring drama into his perfect life right now." i say and walk away. i go back through the isles and grab enough for 4 and a niall. i pay and head home. i put everything away and look at the clock, 4 oclock. okay i have enough time to start dinner and then get ready.

after finishing and putting everything into the oven and in the fridge i go up and get ready. i change out of my skinny jeans and hoodie and into a knee length purple dress. i curl my hair and add a little more make-up. as i finish that i hear the buzzer for the front gate go off. i go down stairs and buzz them in "and guys just come on in, the doors open." i go from the stairs to the kitchen to take things out of the oven and the fridge. i start with the fridge and then the oven goes off. i take the chicken out of the oven and set it on the table. just then the boys walk through the kitchen door. i finish putting things onto the table and smile at my guests.

"take a seat gentlemen." i say in a posh accent and they chuckle. after dishing out the food and small talk a certain curly haired boy gets a little impatient.

"now why did you leave and never talk to us again?" he asked and from his hurt, betrayed, and saddened tone, i know this is gonna be a long talk