Before we go

chapter nine

"why did you leave?" was the last question my mom asked. I looked over at lexy as she shifts around in her seat.

"yeah why did you leave? and why wouldn't you tell us where you were going?" fizzy asked. lexy looks over at me for assurance and I nod. to reassure her more I take her hand and smile. she gives me a weak smile back and takes a deep breathe.

"okay I was on the X-Factor right?" she starts and they nod. "simon cowell a judge of the show is my uncle, he was my dads older brother. he looked just like him. but anyways one day the boys and I were singing around and the judges came in and heard me singing. simon made it look like he wanted to hear me singing but instead he wanted to yell at me for being there. he told me that if it was up to him that I wouldn't be on the show in the first place. but because they needed one more person from London to go through they chose me and said yes. they were giving me until the end of boot camp then I would have to leave and never try to sing again." she took a longer breath almost starting to cry. "when the time came the boys were put into a boy-band and simon wanted me away from any connection with them. he didn't even want me to tell them that he was my uncle, he was ashamed of me. of our family. so he kept me hidden. after I left here he sent me to his house in London and wouldn't let me out of the house but i broke that as soon as the X-Factor ended. i went to every single thing that the boys were, and thanks to Danielle i was able to get into a few things for free. they never saw me though. and soon simon gave me a body guard to stop me from going anywhere but a certain place, like the grocery shop, a clothing shop and he had to walk around with me. even though we became close, like a father and daughter, i wanted out because i couldn't see Louis. he was all i had and simon took that away from me. so i tried to get out, but james stopped me, he has been the only one that i could go to for a very long time and he really has been like a father. i would of kept in touch i really would have but james really needed the job and i was tired of getting all the, excuse my French, shit simon was throwing at me. literally." she said the last part to herself.

"wait what was that?" i ask and she looks at me with fearful eyes. "he used to hit you didn't he?" i ask and she stayed quiet. "DIDNT HE?!" i scream getting really mad.

"im sorry." she says letting go of my hand and running out of the house. i know exactly where shes going but i don't do anything. i just stare at my hand where hers once was.

"DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH OF AN IDIOT YOU ARE LOU?! SHE DIDNT TELL YOU FOR A REASON OBVIOUSLY!" my mum screamed. "we don't even know where shes going its pouring rain out there. god Louis why aren't you doing anything?" my mum continued.

"i know where she going. and i need to go by myself. there are things that we need to talk about that need be talked about with just the two of us." i say and they all stop putting their coats on.

"how do you know where she is?" liam asks and i look at him.

"she only goes to the cliff if shes crying and upset. i know where it is. i always did, her dad took me to it before he left. he said to make sure that shes okay and that she doesn't hurt herself. ive failed for this long and im not going to fail any longer." i say and get up. i get a backpack and put a blanket and a towel in it. i then walk over and put my shoes on, i also put my jacket on and turn back to them. "i love her too much to fail at this again" and with that i walk out of the house after her.

it takes me about 20 minutes to walk to the cliff that i haven't been to since my last visit. and as i suspect i see her sitting on edge looking down shaking. i take the backpack off and take the towel and blanket out. i walk up to her and put them both around her. she just sits there and i sit down next to her. i put my arm around her and she leans into me. she starts sobbing into me and i just hold her. i put her on my lap and wrap my arms around her completely to warm her. she looks absolutely freezing.

after what seemed like a half an hour it stopped raining and lexys sobs slowed. after she stopped crying and resorted to hiccups is when i decided to start talking. "why didn't you tell me that he hit you?"

"i didn't want you to know. i know you lou, you would more tha ive him a piece of your mind and i didn't want you to risk your career for me."

"i would do anything for you lexy. you are my best friend, my life, why wouldn't i?" i ask and she just shrugs.

"how did you find me? i thought no one knew. wait did you put a chip in me or something?" she asked seriously but i chuckled.

"no i didn't put a chip in you but i always followed you when you came here. because your dad told me to. before he left he told me to watch over you. to make sure that your okay, and that you don't hurt yourself and i failed because i gave up. because i let his brother tell me to stop looking for you, to let him set me up, to let him hurt you. i should of tried harder, i should of put a chip in you. to find you when i needed to." i say about to cry myself. she takes her head off my shoulder and looks at me. we stare into each others eyes and start to lean in. after a while our lips meet and all i see are fireworks behind my closed eyes. i feel a spark and i feel butterflies in my stomach.

lexys POV

it was a slow yet passionate kiss that made my mind spin. we pull apart gasping for air. i smile and so does he. as we stare into each others eyes i remember why i loved him so much. he has always felt like home. no matter where we were or what we were doing as long as we were together i always felt like home. hes the love of my life and i have never felt more at home than i do now.

"I love you Louis William Tomlinson." i say and he smiles bigger.

"i love you more Alexandra Marie Patterson." he says and my grin widens as well. he leans in for another kiss when his phone goes off. i giggle as he looks very annoyed. he pulls out his phone and answers it.

"hello? yeah im with her. okay were on our way. okay, don't worry we will be there soon. i don't know zayn ask niall he should know." he says hanging up and i give him a questioning look. "the boys want to go to the hotel now." he says and i nod. i start to get up but he holds me down. i give him another look and he laughs again. "we're not going anywhere until i do this." he says and kisses me again. i kiss back and he stops it short.

"i have a question. will you Alexandra Marie Patterson do me the incredible honor in becoming my wonderfully beautiful girlfriend?" he asks and i laugh at his stupidity.

"i would be honored to be your girlfriend Lou." i say leaning in, then i kiss his cheek, and get up running away. he sees what i did and after a while gets up and chases after me. i giggle and scream all the way back to the house and get there but hes hot on my heels. as soon as i step into the house he wraps his arms around my waist.

"you think that you can get away with just that?" he asks an i giggle again. i get out of his grasps and for the first time i feel cold. i walk into the lounge and everyone is there. jay runs up to me and gives me a huge embrace.

"are you okay love?" lottie asks and i nod my head.

"are you boys ready to go?" i ask my teeth chattering and they nod. i give the girls shaky hugs and say good-bye my teeth still chattering. we hop into the van and head towards the hotel. we get there and checked in, in under 20 minutes. they put me and lou in a room, niall and liam in one then harry and zayn in another. as soon as i get out of the shower instead of going for my suitcase first i go to Louis. i take out a pair of his sweat pants and then i go to my cases. i take out Louis' hoddie and then bra and underwear. i change in the bathroom and take a brush through my hair. i walk out of the bathroom and out to the lounge where the boys are. its one big pent house with 3 individual rooms, 2 with 2 twin beds and one with 1 huge bed. guess which one Louis and i have.

"hey aren't those ,my sweat pants? and isn't that my favorite jack willis jumper?" Louis asks taking me out of my thoughts. i nod with a grin noticing there were no seats left. i shrug to myself and sit on Louis lap. he instantly wraps his arms around my waist and i snuggle deeper. i smile up at him and he smiles back.

"what are you guys watching?" i ask and liam answers

"toy story now shush." i giggle snapping my fingers in a 'Z' formation. i start to pay attention to the movie but then my eyes start to get heavy and i close them after a while i let the darkness of sleep consume me, with a smile on my face because i am where im meant to be.