Still Louis POV
I take her face into my hands and I burst into tears. My tears are tears of joy because shes here, but also of sadness because she tried to leave. I fall to my knees besides her bed and I lay my head beside her body. Her hand runs through my hair as I continue to cry.
30 minutes of crying later and I can stand again and look her in the eyes. I wipe my eyes and sit on the side of her bed taking her hands into mine. I look her dead in the eyes and when I do I start talking.
"All I want to know is why? Why didnt you tell me? Also why did you try to leave? I dont know what I would do without you. you're all I need to survive and without you my life is meaningless. Yes I lived without you for 3 years but I could feel that you were still here, I just didnt know where. My life would be empty without you, I would be living with half a heart without you Lexy. You're the love of my life and I can't stand to think about you leaving at any point. Without you I'm nothing." I rant to her. When I finish I see a tear fall down her cheek and I wipe it away.
"I felt like you all didnt really need me, like you could of lived without the fat, disappointment that I am. I wanted to rid you of all my bullshit. I didnt want to hurt you and the boys any longer." right at that moment James bursted through the door with tears streaming down his face. I forgot that I called him when she woke up. He ran over to the other side of her bed and he hugged her making sure not to hug her too tight because she still weak. When he pulls back he looks at me and nods. I look over at her and I say what I wanted to before he came in.
"You're not a disappointment, you're my everything. You scared me and the boys, we wouldn't know what to do without you. Please promise me that you won't do it again. I cant lose you." I say with tears in my eyes yet again. She nods mouthing I promise because she doesn't like to speak when shes crying. I kiss her forehead and I leave the room to give her and James some time. I walk down to the waiting room and I see the boys there. When did they get there? I walk over to them and they stand quickly and meet me half way.
"How is she mate?"
"Damn you look aweful."
"Have you eaten?"
"Have you showered?"
"How about-"
"Enough guys, she is okay she just woke up not to long ago. No I haven't eaten, slept, showered, shaved, or left her room since she has been admited into the hospital." I tell them and they all give me a sympathetic look. I shake my head and turn around waving for them to follow me and I take them up to her room. James was walking out of her room when we get there.
"I have to get back home, my family doesn't know that I'm gone and will flip if I'm not home when they get back. Watch her for me okay? I'm trusting you with my little girl." he says and I know he means buisness. I nod to him and he nods towards the boys behind me as he walks away. I take the door nob in my hand and I turn towards the boys.
"Don't tell her about me not eating or anything like that, she'll freak of she finds out, and dont point out anything wrong with her. She will break down if you do." I say directed towards Harry because he likes to point out peoples flaws. He nods knowing I was talking to him and I turn back around to open the door. She's sitting up in bed still and looking around the room. I smile at her when she looks at me and she smiles back. I walk over to her and I sit where I was before I left and i look her in the eyes while putting my hand on her cheek stroking it.
The boys came in soon after which I didn't know they didnt come into the room with me. She looks over at them and smiles.
"How are you doing baby girl?" Liam asked, I only let him and Zayn call her that because they are taken and dont mean it in a different way. Harry calls her babe and I know he doesnt mean it in that way either and Niall calls her princess and he is in the same boat as the other three. They know that I'm head over heals for her and that I'm the one for her. they said that when I was dating Eleanor. They really didnt like her and I knew that but I had no choice. Simon didn't want me to ruin my career by thinking of Lexy which I did anyways. I imagined that it was her and not Eleanor every time we went somewhere, kissed, stayed in, had sex, everything. I wanted it to be her, not the wicked bitch of the west.
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FanfictionLexy was just dumped by someone she thought loved her. Her mom is dead. She has no clue who her dad is. Her uncle is one of the biggest people in the music industry and has nothing to do with her. All she has is Louis and when they leave for the X-F...
