Before we go

chapter 12

Louis POV

I start my own rant.

"Alexandra Marie Cowell don't you ever think that. you have not held me back. you have pushed me to pursue my dreams. if it wasn't for you I wouldn't be in this band and I wouldn't be touring the world. you will never hold me back. el and I broke up because she was a bitch and I didn't love her like I thought I did. I knew I was in love with someone else. your the best thing that has ever happened to me. the kids were wrong, they were jealous yes but they shouldn't of touched you and bullied you. your amazing lex, I don't know where I would be without you. you made me who I am today, I cant live without you. im crying because I feel like I make you unhappy and you wish that you were dead and far away from me because you hate me. I feel like I failed you, and your dad. I haven't kept you safe. and I feel like shit because of it. your hurting because I didn't do one thing someone asked me to do." I ramble as tears stream down my face. "I love you lexy, I don't want to lose you."

"you will never lose me lou. I love you too." she says and I pull her in for a kiss. it was slow and sweet not hungry and full of lust. she really means the world to me and I will do anything to keep her happy.

"well its only 1 pm, we can still make it to the golf course if you want to." I say after pulling away.

she smiles and nods. when I see the smile I smile too, its contagious I swear. I help her up and we walk out into the lounge where the guys are.

"well we're going mini golfing, I don't know about you guys but later." I say knowing they would get up and follow us. as I predicted they follow and we get back into the elevator. I hold onto lexys hand tightly and when we get to the lobby I loosen my grip. we walk out of the hotel and I see that the golf course is 3 blocks away so we put our shades on and we walk.

as soon as we get into the building lexy takes off to the back of the counter. I hear screaming and I run after her. when I get there, there is Gladys and charlies' granddaughter, hope, and lexy hugging. Gladys and Charlie come out and they smile widely. I take my sunglasses off and hope lets go of lexy.

"is that the Louis Tomlinson? the one that stopped talking to me after he promised that he wouldn't after he broke up with me?" she asks and I face palm. she runs over and hugs me but I don't hug back. I did date her but I broke up with her 2 weeks before going to the X-Factor with lexy. she was really clingy and I didn't like her, she treated lexy like shit when we were dating. "why aren't you hugging back?" she asks seductively into my ear. I just push her off of me and I go over to Charlie and Gladys. I hug them for a while because I missed them, I missed home in general. "oh youll hug them but not me? seriously Louis?" she calls after me again and I turn around red with anger.

"I broke up with you for a reason hope." I say getting angrier and closer to her with every word. I all of a sudden get stopped and feeling the hand on my arm I relax, I know its lexy.

"shes not worth it baby." she says and hope glares at me and her.

"baby? so your with that now?" she asks and I get mad again.

"considering that you were pretty damn excited to see me not even 5 minutes ago show how pathetic and bitchy you really are. im sorry Gladys and Charlie but that's wrong, if you don't like me don't act like you missed me, I don't need things like that adding to the pile of reasons I already have." lexy says and hopes mouth drops open. she stomps away and then I feel the two elderly peoples presence again. I turn around and they are smiling. they come up and hug us and I get confused.

"someone had to tell her off. shes been jumping form boy to boy ever since Louis left because she thought that if she did the word would get to Louis and he would be jealous. that obviously hasn't happened." Gladys says and we laugh a little.

"okay why don't you go play a game of mini golf? on the house." Charlie says and we smile at them hugging them again. we walk out and hope is over with harry flirting and i walk over to them.

"harry, were gonna start a game you coming?" i ask and he nods. hope gives him a piece of paper gesturing to call her. when its completely in his hand i take it out of his hands and rip it up. he gives me the 'what the fuck?' look and i explain. "im not letting you get involved with a slutty mistake that i made, the boyfriend she has for the week would probably be heart broken." i say and he looks over at her in disgust. i smile as she glares at me and harry and i walk over to the others. lexy hands me my lucky ball well i think it is, and my club. i kiss her cheek and she smiles. after harry picks his ball and picks up his club we go over and start the game.

at the end of the winning order went

lexy-29

zayn-30

me-34

liam-38

niall-45

then harry-56, he kept hitting it too hard and made it go over the hole. he got rather mad but it was a great time and we all laughed a lot. when we got back to the hotel we ordered room service and decided to rent a movie on the tv. half way through the movie lexy fell asleep on me but i had no problem. i smile looking down at her, knowing that i have the love of my life in my arms is the best thing ever. i know that i will marry her, no doubt about it. i guarantee that.