Before we go

Chapter twenty-one

Louis POV
I wake up and Lexy is sleeping soundly on my chest. I can't help but smile, she's just so peaceful. She's never been this peaceful. I feel like after she talked to me and the lads last night, she feels so much better. I can't help but feel whole while she's next to me, I can conquer the world with her by my side supporting me. I slide out from under her, and she repositions herself on my pillow and smiles a little. Which makes me smile. I get dressed in a white t-shirt and a pair of jeans, then go out into the living room. Liam, Niall, and Harry are all already awake. The usual when I get up. I go to the kitchen and grab some orange juice and go back to the living room, sitting in the chair closer to my room, so I can check on Lexy when needed.
I stare off into space, but then feel eyes on me. All 3 lads are staring at me and look like they're waiting for a response. I give a confused look and they laugh a little. Liam states, "I said, what Lexy told us last night was really crazy, did you really not know anything about it?"
"No, I never knew anything. I looked up to her dad honestly. I never thought I would end up hating him more than anything in the world," I respond sadly.
"I mean I had a feeling something wasn't being said, but I knew that Lexy would tell us when she wanted to. I know it's hard to find help, or even talk about something that happened to you. It's still very hard for me to go to anyone about my problems. I mean my life is great now, but I have a hard time accepting myself," Niall chimes.
I kind of jolt up as he finishes, it makes me wonder if he has feelings for her. I don't say much but I feel like I should talk to him about it properly, and privately later. "I don't know how to feel about it honestly. I mean yeah like I said I hate her dad, but at the same time, I feel like I'm out of the loop with her, she hid this from me for so many years and I thought we told each other everything," I look down at my hands.
Harry's voice hits my ears, " this is one of the biggest secrets that she has, she was taken advantage of and beaten by her own father. It's not something that someone can easily talk about. I'm sure she didn't hide it from you to make you upset, she didn't want to hurt herself again by going through it." I nod while still looking down.
"It's just really hard knowing something like that. I love her so much and I wish I was there to hurt him more than he hurt her. She doesn't deserve any kind of pain. My heart hurts more than anything." I start to think as silence fills the room. I think about Lexy and what she's been through, from her dad doing what he did, to her uncle taking her away from me, to her trying to take herself away from me. My heart burns with pain and I finally realize that I've been crying for the past hour. I hear the door behind me open, knowing it's Lexy, and I cover my face. I wipe my tears, and when she goes into the kitchen, I go to our bathroom. It smells like her perfume. I breathe in her scent and more tears fall. I angrily wipe them away, because I don't want to cry anymore. I want to be strong for her.
I wash my face, clear of the salty tears that had fallen second before, and walk back towards the living room, and hear laughter. Her laugh makes me smile as I walk out the door of our room. I walk out and see Zayn on the floor, in his boxers, trying to act like he's swimming towards the couch. Niall falls to the ground laughing which sends Lexy into a laughing fit. She laughs so hard that no sound comes from her mouth. Which normally sends her into a coughing fit when she's done, so I go to the kitchen get her a glass of orange juice for her and take it out as I hear her start to cough. I hand it to her and she gladly takes it, drinking a few sips and putting it down next to mine. Her breathing is uneven as she is, what I imagine as, trying to calm her racing heart. The laughter dies down and Zayn gets up off the floor as he's made it to the couch successfully. I pull Lexy off the chair I was sitting in, I sit back down and pull her onto my lap. She tries to protest but I give her a look and she closes her mouth. She knows that if she tries to say something about her being fat or her hurting me, I would tell her other wise.
I look around and see all my lads and the love of my life on my lap. I am happy, well as happy as I can be with what's racing through my mind. I guess I spaced out because Lexy is staring at me.
Lexy's POV
Louis is staring off into space, and I try to get his attention. I know that he's been crying because I can see the swelling under his eyes and he's been sniffling. I stare at him until he looks at me. He finally blinks and looks over at me, realizing that I've been staring at him. "Yes my love?" He smiles. I give him a look.
"Have you been crying?" I whisper and he looks back down. He slowly nods, "Is it about what I think it is?" He nods again. I look down and start picking at my cuticles, and he pulls my head back up to look at him.
"It's okay, baby, I'm okay. I just wish I could have been there to help you, rather than just now hearing about it. You mean the world to me, and I just want you safe. I always have and I always will." My heart flutters with his words, and I crack a small smile. He pulls me to kiss him but the lads have a different idea.
"HEY, HEY, HEY, HEY, HEY! NONE OF THAT NOW!" Harry shouts, "HES MINE!" I giggle and kiss all over Louis' face. Harry gasps and storms into the kitchen. We all laugh and Louis gets up and goes to talk to the baby in the kitchen. Niall comes over to me, as I'm still standing from when Louis got up, and he hugs me. I wrap my arms around him as i feel his sobs. He hugs me closer and asks me to come into the other room with him. I nod and follow him into his room, cracking the door so the others don't hear in case it's not for them to hear.
"It's happened to me too," Is all he says. I gasp and he looks down. (It's only for the sake of the story.) "my uncle was visiting for a few weeks and was in the bedroom beside mine. He was one of those relatives that makes you feel creeped out, but have to love because they're family. Over the course of his stay, he came into my room every other night. He tied me up the first time and told me that if I screamed or said anything that he would deny it and make me regret it. So I never told. He's my dads only brother, so I also didn't want to take away his only brother. To this day only him, you and me know." His sobs get louder and I pull him into me. I feel arms around the 2 of us and know that the lads heard. They had to of. All 5 of them were sniffing and shaking. I was the only one that hadn't started crying yet. Or so I thought. Before I knew it I was out of the hug and on the ground sobbing so loud that I'm sure other rooms could hear.
  Louis picked me up and held me. My sobs got louder. I couldn't contain anything anymore. My world was broken and I felt for Niall. I don't know how I have been able to keep all this in for so long, but I can't anymore. I physically can't. I break free from Louis' grasp and run. Run like I've never run before. To the same spot. Where I feel safest. My cubby is my safe place, and I don't know where I would be without it. As I reach it though, I feel a pain in my chest. A pain I've never felt before. I stand in front of my old house and can't help but fall to my knees.
I hear footsteps running up behind me, but as I do, I slip into unconsciousness.

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IM SO SORRY!! It has been YEARS since I have thought of this story. I know it's not really relevant now, but I hope I can be forgiven. I am actually pretty shocked with how many people have actually read this, but I'm grateful for all of you. Thank you so much for actually wanting to read my story. I hope you continue.

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I love you all my little ninjas! Stay amazing.

~Lexy~