Before we go

chapter thirteen

Lexys POV

I wake up in my bed with a toned bare chest in my face. I giggle and look up at the love of my life. I start to think of my future with the man that is still asleep next to me. I want to walk down the isle next to him. I want to be the one that mothers his children. i feel like one of those cliché girls that falls in love with their pop star best friend but i don't care. Louis is the one and i know that without a doubt. hes been the one that i love ever since i was little. i don't know why I let simon do this to us. but if I didn't we wouldn't be as strong as we are right now. I end up smiling like an idiot just staring up at him. I realize I have been tracing my hands over his torso that is in front of me. but I don't take my eyes off the peaceful look he has on his face.

I wonder if that peaceful look is ever taken away and he has a nightmare. I don't like that thought, he doesn't deserve to have nightmares haunt his dreams. he deserves sweet dreams with unicorns and rainbows. well maybe not unicorns and rainbows but something happy.

all of a sudden his face contorts into a look of distress and pain. he starts to shake his head and mumbling things under his breath.

"no you cant take her away from me again."

"shes who I want."

"Louis?"

"lexy tell him, please."

"babe wake up."

"no bring her back."

"im right here baby wake up.

"WHAT KIND OF UNCLE ARE YOU?"

"DONT TOUCH HER LIKE THAT! ONLY I CAN TOUCH HER IN THAT MANNER!"

"DONT HURT HER!"

"Louis babe wake up its just a dream please wake up. your scaring me please baby."

"LEXY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

all through that he starts to cry while I try to wake him. I shake him but it doesn't work because hes shaking with sobs. then he sits straight up with his eyes wide open. he continues to cry and I put my hand on his shoulder. he jumps and looks back at me. he sees its me and attacks me into a hug. I wrap my arms around him in a comforting hug. his racks of sobs keep coming and I shush him whispering sweet nothings in his ears.

"I thought it was all a dream that you were here with me. that your uncle brought you for one thing and then took you away again. leaving me with the guys wanting me to stay away from you and to marry Eleanor. I thought you were never here." he says after his sobbing converts to a few tears here and there and hiccups.

"im here lou, and im not going anywhere. im here to stay. your stuck with me whether you like it or not." I say with a small smile.

"it seemed so real. the way you were ripped from my grasp."

I lift his chin and plant my lips on his in a chaste kiss that he seems to love. I smile into it and I pull away.

"im not going anywhere without you." I say and he smiles. he kisses me again and sits back up. he wipes his cheeks and swings his legs over the side of the bed. he stands up and comes over to my side. he holds his hand out for me to take and I do getting out of bed and walking out the lounge where the guys are. they look over at us and sees Louis blood shot eyes and give him a concerned look.

"nightmare." he states simply and they all give him a empathetic look.

"you want any food?" Louis asks and I shake my head. I sit down in the free chair as he makes his way over to the kitchen to make him some food.

the boys look over at me with a look of 'why aren't you eating?' and I shake my head gesturing that im not hungry at the moment. they nod and I mlean back in the chair closing my eyes.

that was a close one. they almost found out about you starving yourself. I think to myself. I open my eyes again and they are looking at me with wide eyes and open mouths.

"I said that out loud didn't I?" I ask and they nod all at once. I feel tears springing to my eyes and Louis walks into the lounge again.

"whats wrong?" he asks us and I sprint towards the door flying out of it as soon as I do. I go to the stairs and sprint down them rather quickly. its from many years of practice when I was in the house with my mom. I run through the lobby and out to the streets. I sprint to a hiding place no one and I mean absolutely no one knows about. I didn't want the boys to know so I only told them the 2 im normally at. but I don't want to talk to anyone at the moment.

I sprint around the corner of the hotel because I know that if I don't the boys will see where im going knowing they would be after me. even though im a lot faster. I cut through the alley way and I go to the only place I know I can. my old home. no one has bought it and the government said that because that is so that I can keep it until I don't want it anymore. so I still have it. I run in and I see its the same way I left it before the X-Factor but without my mothers body on the couch. I close the door of my childhood home and I run up to my parents old room. in their closet there is a little door. it holds my scrapbooks of my childhood, my old teddy bear, a pillow, a blanket, and a small tv with home movies along the side wall. I sit down in it and wrap myself in the blanket.

turning on the tv and popping in the first home movie I start to watch the memories of my somewhat normal and happy life. I go through them one by one and when I reach my 6th birthday, the one when Louis and I became even closer as friends. the year my life turned for the worst.

FLASHBACK

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Hey guys

its shorter than normal. but I wanted to leave it at this cliffhanger. what is her flashback gonna be filled with? is it going to hurt everyone around her or is it going to affect her because she keeps quiet about it? who knew that she starved herself? what if she does eat? what happens then?

so many questions to be answered......... in the next chapter.

love you my colorful ninja unicorns.

lexyxx