I'm Not Okay (I Promise)

Say What Really Matters Pt. 2

......Continued

She got up and walked out. And I just looked shocked, looking at John. He kinda looked at the door shocked as well.

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By the time I had gotten dressed, and done up, Frank had woken up. I sat on the hospital bed, me and him being alone again for the short time we had. I looked at him, kinda teary eyed. I wasn't ready to go, and I know he didn't want me to leave either. But, I had to. I had no choice, my mom and dad were forcing me. He looked at me and but his lip, sitting up. He hunched over, resting his elbows on his legs as he wiped his face in on his hands.

"So, this is it. Huh?" I say, folding the hospital clothes. I heard a huge sigh come from him and he looked up at me.

"Yea," he said, then cleared his throat. "So you're leaving."

I sighed, and keeled down on the floor, crawling between his legs and hugging his waist. "I promise, I'll be back. I'll call every day. We can have a Skype schedule." I said, my voice starting ti crack up.

I felt his arms wrap around me, and I just held him as I felt hot tears fall on my shoulders from him. We sat there, holding each other for a few minutes, until I feel him let go. I backed away a bit and cleared my throat, wiping my eyes as he did the same.

I stood up and walked towards the door, Frank getting up and following me from Behind. As we walked down the halls, towards the elevator, I felt his fingers pull my hand into his. We made it to the elevator and got in, hitting the main floor button.

As the door closed, he looked over at me and smiled. "I love you. And I'll do whatever it takes to get to you. Even if it means selling something to make money for me to fly to go see you."

I smiled, looking down at the floor and pushing a piece of hair behind my ear. "To be honest, I don't think it will be the same."

Frank cleared his throat, and looked at the door as it opened. We walked out, him wrapping an arm around my neck as we walked out. Walking to the doors and seeing everyone out there. Waiting on me. Waiting so they can say goodbye to me.

What did I do to ever deserve this. I sighed as we walked out and towards everyone. They all crowded around me, hugging me and loving me since it's my last day here.

"I'll miss you" says Gwen, hugging me around my neck. "I'll be up to see you so much. I'll bring Gerard and Frank with me to see you."

I smiled and looked at her. "And how are you going to do that?"

"By me!" I heard an older man say. I looked back to me Mr. Riften, Gwens dad. "I'll give her some money to go see you. Because you can never keep best friends apart. Am I right?"

I smiled and nodded as a thank you. The boys all hugged me, Gerard, Mikey, and Ray.

"We'll miss you" says Gerard, looking at me.

"Especially when you get us out of trouble and going places." Says Mikey with tears fogging up his glasses."

Ray looked at me and I smiled at him a bit. "I'll probably miss you less than everyone here," he said with a bright smile and I just laughed.

After they let go, I looked at Ray, handing him the napkin and winking at him. He just blushed and turned away. After, i turned and gave Ms. Linda a hug as well. "Behave sweetheart. I'll send you postcards and holiday pictures of little frankie." She said, then let go a bit. "Oh, and speaking of pictures. I want you to have this." She handed me a small book, and got closer to my ear and whispered. "He loved you for so long." She said then kissed my cheek.

She smiled at she moved back and turned me to Frank, and I smiled. He smiled back and I hugged him tightly, him hugging back. We continued to hug for some minutes, again, not saying a word. Then, I felt a tap on my shoulder.

"Its time Nicole," I turn to see my mom. I sigh and look at Frank, and he frowns a bit. I let go and walk to the car, getting in. Everyone waved and was crying a bit, saying bye and good luck and behave to me. Frank, just standing there, watching me.

I then closed the door and sighed, putting my seatbelt on and putting the book down to the side, watching out the window to everyone as the car drove off. Watching Frank look down and Gerard looking at Frank, giving him a small friendly brother hug. I smiled, and say forward, looking at where we were going, then back to the book.

"He loved you for so long" she told me. What does that even mean? There's only one way to find out now.