I'm Not Okay (I Promise)

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This is all still In Frank's P.O.V. So enjoy my kitties c;;;;;;;

It's been a week, and there's one more day for school until school is done and over and I can quit and be a fucking musician. I really wanna play guitar, but my whole family thinks it's going to be a waste of time. My teachers think that it's stupid and that I won't be anything big, just a stupid ass hobo on the street playing the guitar so I can get me a burger from a dollar menu. Well, I already know that I'm good enough. And with some help from Gerard, Mikey, and Ray we will start our own band.

He's already been writing songs, well, Gerard has. I helped him with some of them. It's hard at school, but I've been getting by. The guys and I decided to eat lunch outside at the football field. Not much people eat out there. Only this girl named Ashley, and some other guys. I think it's like, Brendon and Ryan. Gay ass boys. I mean, I don't mind. It's cute just, don't make out in front of me. That's in the bedroom shit. Now, if Nicole was here. That would be a different story.

As I pulled out a huge water jug, which wasn't filled with water at all. It was a really heavy tonic mix of my favorite boys. Jack, Jim, and a bit of Pepsi so I'm not being a heavy drunk. Gerard was chuckling as he pulled out a croquet bat and a bag with more croquet supplies and threw it at our feet. "So, anyone up for a game?"

I shook my head and fixed my tie. "Nah, I'm just gonna, go to the locker room and take a piss. You guys have fun."

I walked that way and Gwen ran right into Me, making me wobble and try to catch my balance. "Shit, sorry Frank!"

I chuckled "Shshsh it's fine. Don't worry about it. What's making you so smiley and jumpy right now?"

Gwen shrugged and giggled a bit, biting her lip and hugging me, then quickly let go and ran towards the boys. She pounced on Gee, making him fall on his face and I chuckle a bit.

I opened the door to the locker room and walked in, walking towards the stall and in, doing my, uh, business. As I finished and zipped up, I heard the door open. I flushed and opened the stall, walking to the sink and washing my hands. After finishing  and drying my hands, I took a huge three swallows from the bottle and walked towards the door, until I heard a small giggle, stopping and backing up a bit, seeing Ashley smiling at me.

I shook my head and looked down, scratching my hair and leaning on the lockers. "what do you want Frangipane?"

She smiled and twirled her newly short cut blonde hair, and slowly walked towards me. Her heels clicking on the hard floor and her hand tracing on the lockers.

My eyes quickly rolled at her movements and as she got up close to me. "What are you doing?"

She shrugged and put a finger on my chest, biting her lip and looking at me. "I heard you liked blondes..." she giggled and pushed me against the lockers, biting her lip. "So, I did this for you!"

I chuckled and grabbed her hand with a smirk. "Oh, did you now?"

She let out some heavy breaths and pressed herself against me, rubbing down, her hands trailing down to my buldge. "Yes sir. Come on Frankie. Don't you want me? Nicole isn't here anymore, so all you really need is me."

I growled and breathed in heavily, grabbing her by the shoulders and swallowed hard. "A-Ashley..."

She licked her lips and pulled down my collar, exposing the tattoo on my neck and biting and kissing at it as she palmed me through my jeans. I let out a groan and shook my head. "S-stop..."

She moaned against my neck and bit my ear a bit, breathing heavily as she did so, sliding her hand up and down against me. My breaths continued to hitch until I heard a small gasp from my left side, Ashley stopped and looked over at who it was, and I just looked at Ashley with a drunk, horny expression. I could feel my jaw pop and my mouth skimming against her neck, the smell of her skin and the sound of her heart driving me insane. 

"F-Frankie?" Until I heard that. The sweet, familiar whimper of her voice. My head cocking and turning quickly to see Nicole standing there. My eyes widened as I saw her, back in her school uniform and looking at me with tear filled eyes.

"Nicole? W-what are you-" before I could say anything she ran off and I tried to jump up but Ashley grabbed me back.

"Frankie, you're just gonna leave me for her~" she said with a pouty face.

I pushed her against the lockers and growled in her face. "Stay the fuck away from me you stupid ass whore..." I then quickly ran out of the bathroom and looked around, running to the football field and saw Nicole there, Gwen and the boys trying to comfort her. I slowly tried to walk up. "N-Nicole... Listen, I uh..."

Gerard looked at me and shook his head, pushing me back a and walking me off, I just looked back at Nicole, Gwen glaring at me as she rubbed Nicole's hair.

Gerard pushed me into the bathroom and dragged me around the lockers. "Where the fuck is she, you two are breaking whatever the fuck you guys have right now..."

I quickly pulled my arm away and shook my head. "Gee, no, it's not like that... Ashley, she pushed me against the locker and felt me up..." I sighed and combed my fingers through my hair with a sigh. "She got advantage of me..."

He pushed me against the locker and shook his head. "You let a small ass chick take over you? And you didn't do shit? You could have pushed her off or something..."

I groaned as I hit the lockers, Gerard getting in my face and growled. "Gee, I swear to god I didn't mean to. I'm half drunk and I don't know what the fuck is going on..."

Gerard shook his head and pushed me harshly against the lockers, making me fall to my feet. He slowly backed up from me and looked down. "Don't ever, EVER, come near us, ever again..."

I looked up at him, feeling a heat in my chest like someone punched the last air out of me but no tears came out. He scoffed and walked out, shaking his head. Slowly, I felt tears start to roll down my cheeks as I curled up in a ball, hugging my knees to my chest and sighed. "You're a screw up Iero... Great job..."

I forgot I was still writing this. I forgot about it and kinda uninstalled this app to make a new trailer for a roleplay a group of friends and I are doing. Yay. Anyways. Here. FML.