03.07.2017
Shawn,
I don't know what to do.
Today we were together and everything felt okay.
Then it changed.
Cynthia has been telling you to leave me apparently. And today I met her outside of a class and she told me that Connor told her that you said you have no feelings for me and she talked to you and you said yourself that you have no feelings for me.
But you keep telling me that you never talked to her about that and I don't know what to believe. Then Connor texted me saying that Cynthia is telling the truth.
I don't know what to do.
You keep telling me one thing and they're telling me something else.
But even if they're right, maybe you found that you do have feelings for me..? Today we held hands and you kissed my forehead and you kissed me and we hugged and we texted and it felt real. You were distant, but it still felt real.
Though you didn't start that until after I told you what Cynthia said to me...
I don't know what's going on and I don't know what to do and you threatened to leave me if I didn't believe that you do have feelings for me. But maybe you just want to have an excuse to leave...
And you don't tell me you love me unless I say it first or ask you...
What do I do?
Obviously someone's lying so I wish everyone would just tell me the truth so I wouldn't be so confused.
I don't know who to believe. I want to believe you, but I don't know if I believe you only because it's what I want to hear or if I actually believe it's the truth.
What do I do, Shawn?
