No Face ~ Uta (Tokyo Ghoul) x Reader

Part 15

You could see how his kakugan increased as he stared at your pale shoulder

"Please, let me help you" you kneeled in front of the bathtub but he back off from you, he covered his mouth with his hand to hold himself back from hurting you

"S-Stay back!" he warned you while his breathing became heavier, you knew he was scared to hurt you but right now this was the only way to save him

"I'm begging you! Please let me help you!" Uta fought with himself hard to control his hunger, the smell from your fresh skin made his mouth water and he wanted to dig his teeth into you

"I can't let you do that! If I do this now I won't be able to stop! You smell so damn delicious that I want all of you! I will rip you apart if you let me touch you!" you smiled at him softly

"I know that you won't, I trust you that you won't kill me" you stood up and set one foot in the tub and then the other one, you bend down to Uta and placed your hands on his shoulder

"You are not a monster! That's why I trust you with this... I know you can stop" Uta stared in your eyes for a moment seeing how desperately you wanted him to do this, his hand moved up and removed your hair from your shoulder to look at the spot where he was supposed to eat from, he could see your veins running underneath your skin and his self control was fading because his hunger took over

"I promise... that I will never force you into such a decision ever again..." you smiled weakly until his hands hold on to your arms and pulled you down to him, your body rested on his.

"Forgive me..." he mumbled as his teeth dig into your shoulder, pain rushed through your body and you desperately hold back your scream, you whimpered as silently as possible to not give him the impression that he was hurting you so badly, Uta ate a small piece off your flesh that was enough for him to heal himself, the smell of your blood let his ghoul senses take over and he grabbed your arms so tightly that he bruised you in the process, you could not hold back anymore and let out a small scream, you could feel his rush and that he was not himself anymore, he started to push your body down and climbed on top of you securing you with his grip, his eyes scared you since they were not his usual eyes, his ghoul form was something you never saw before and he never wanted you to see him this way, that was probably why... his teeth bit on that spot again and you tried to endure it, millions of thoughts run through your head and you imagined how ghouls normally kill they prey... was it like this? Did he kill someone like this? You shook your head to put those thoughts aside, you did not give up on him you knew he was still himself somewhere deep inside, you managed to lift your right hand and cupped his face

"D-Don't lose, I know you can do it, I believe in you Uta! I trust you with my life!" Uta's eyes suddenly widened and he slowly realized what he was doing, his teeth let go off your shoulder and his eyes searched yours, he could see how much you pulled yourself together to stay strong in this situation

"I knew you could do it" you smiled while you closed your eyes, Uta knew how much pain he caused you and his hands let go off your arms in shock once he noticed how much he bruised you, he climbed off you and sit back holding his head in shock

"I'm so sorry..." he apologized but you shook your head not letting him continue to talk

"Don't be! You healed that's all I care about, the rest is not important right now!" while you talked you could feel your head swimming and you felt a little dizzy, you placed your hand on your head for a sec to get over this feeling

"What's the matter?" Uta asked worried as he saw you expression that looked pained

"It's nothing, I just feel a little dizzy" Uta looked worried and he touched your forehead feeling your temperature

"Of course you do, the wound has to be aided quickly" he stood up and washed his hands on the sink before he picked up the first aid kid, he helped you out from the tub and seated you on the toilet, he bend down to your level and took care of your wound, he cleaned it carefully but you noticed how hard it was for him to stay so close to you while you were bleeding

"You don't have to do this... I can clean it up myself" you offered him but he shook his head

"No! that's the least I can do after leaving another scar on you!" he was so focused to control himself that he did not pay attention what he just said, your eyes widened a little but you calmed your heart down and let him continue, after he finished your wound he stood up and cleaned his hands again, you sit on the toilet and looked to the ground thinking about what he said

"(first name)..." you looked up to him curious

"I... would you stay with me tonight? I would feel safer to know you are close" your heart was speeding up again and you nodded shyly

"S-Sure, if that is ok with you" he nodded

"Thank you... I clean up here, you take a shower in my bathroom" you followed him to his room and he lead you in his bathroom that was attached to his room.

You took a shower and after that you walked in his room where he placed a shirt of his on the bed which you could wear for sleeping, you slipped inside of it and smelled the fabric that had his scent on it, it smelled so nice you could sniff it all day... Uta walked in with a extra blanket and pillow

"I'll be right there...make yourself comfortable" you nodded and gave him a small smile before he walked out.

He walked back in the bathroom and removed his clothes to take a shower, his wound had healed thanks to you but at what cost, the taste of your blood was still in his mouth and he hated it, his senses were going crazy for it and desired for me, he slammed his arms against the wall and fought this feeling, there was no way he would ever touch you again this way, his bite mark on your shoulder would stay forever just like the one on your face, he damaged you already so much and the worst part was that he knew you would anything for him.

He finished up and walked into the bedroom lying next to you in the bed, he observed your sleeping face for a long time until he fell asleep himself.

The next morning you woke up in a different bed and rolled to the side slowly, your eyes widened in shock as you saw Uta lying next to you, your heartbeat increased and a dark blush appeared on your cheeks, you slowly recalled what happened yesterday and why you were lying in his bed, you sit up quickly but then the pain in your left shoulder kicked in and you had to support it, you noticed that his shirt was still smelling of him and you had to smile softly, this was your favorite smell...your eyes slowly looked at him, he was so beautiful when he was asleep, you lied back down on the pillow and observed him with a smile on your face, his breathing was so even and calm, you bit your lips softly and reached your hand out for him, you touched his face and stroke his cheek down, his skin was so soft and warm, you could feel how warm your fingertips got while you touched him, your heart was speeding again but then you removed your hand knowing that he was not aware of your feelings and if he woke up this might irritate him, you lied your hand next to your face and closed your eyes thinking about how much you liked him and how desperately you wanted to let him know about your feelings but you were scared to mess everything up if you told him, he was caring for you all this time and you wanted to stay with him longer, not just because you could call this place your home but because you treasured the time you spend with him so far and wanted to continue spending time with him and well there was still your birthday wish that you haven't decided on yet...

End of Part 15