Love is Pain

9

We all get scared. But we all know the truth. And the truth is scary. But I'm not scared of the truth. I'm not scared of the reality of me. I'm scared of the demons in head. The ones that aren't real. The ones that I have created.

It was a dream. The words kept on repeating in my mind. I got through the first day. But I already knew I was in trouble. I told AJ to meet me at school early. I went through my daily routine again.
This time, it was a maroon muscle tee, bleached mom jeans, my Adidas Superstar's, a kimono, and some bangles. I put my hair in a bun, and wore the same makeup. So far, no cutting since two days ago. Good. I put concealer and foundation on the scars again...just to be safe. I packed my stuff, grabbed a bagel and cream cheese, and drove to school, since my mom had to go straight to work.

7:25 A.M., 35 minutes till first period starts.

I say AJ waiting for me on the bench. He saw me in my car, and waved at me. I finished my bagel, and told him to come into the car. We went in the back seats, cause the windows were tinted and we didn't want people to think we were dating.
"You needed to talk to me?" AJ questioned.
"Do you love me?" I ask.
"Jay told me."
"About what happened in the locker room...?"
"Yup."
"She made the first move..."
"I know."
"But..."
"But what?"
"But do you love me?"
"Do you love me?"
I hesitate to answer, "Yes. But we just met."
"Well maybe we just need to get to know each other better."
He grabs my hips and pulls me closer. He leans in, and our lips interlock. I feel him pulling up my shirt. I take it off myself. I unclip my bra, and take off his shirt for him. He goes to unbutton my pants.
Here we go again.

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A/N:

YOU THOUGHT I WAS GONNA WRITE SMUT THIS CHAPTER.

YOU THOUGHT WRONG. You'll find out what happens next chapter ;)