Old friend,
I didn't think it would still sting. Seeing you on my news feed still makes my stomach flip. I thought that this was the best way, but it's not. I can feel the unbearable pain strike through my heart every time your name pops up. Everytime I see your profile I want to go back to how life used to be. I know that's impossible because we can't change the past. I'll never get those years back, and it haunts me everyday. Those years were wasted with horrendous friendships, trying my hardest to fill the gap you left. Tears fill inside me. I want to scream, but I know there's no use. You'll never hear me, or realize how much pain you caused. Eight years, gone. You are merely a stranger. I don't know you anymore, and I'm glad I don't. You were the fakest person in my life, and everyone knew it except for me. I tried to pretend that you were what I envisioned, but I was wrong. You weren't a true friend though. You would have never approved of the real me. Every time I was around you, I put on a fake mask just to please you. I'm so proud that I'm the realest me I can be now, and I don't have to worry about you. It still stings, I just hope the pain goes away. Its only been five months, and I would just prefer to not cry at night over you. I don't need that in my life because I know I have friends, no matter how many, who treat me better than you ever have.
Sincerely,
An old friend who wants nothing to do with you anymore.
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To Feel
PoetryJust a girl putting her feelings into words. From poems to unsent letters, I pour my soul into each piece. Many of the pieces are about the dark parts of my mind, and wanting types of love that I'll never be able to have.
