To whomever, you know who you are,
You've seriously ruined my life. I can't breathe without the thought of you in the back of my head. Your words cut me like blades do. The weeks after, I couldn't feel anything. It terrified me. I never thought being numb would feel so awful. I want to find you and punch you in the face, but I'm not going to. I decided to write this letter instead. I'll never hit send because I'll "hurt" you like you say I do. If anyone hurt anyone, you hurt me. You told me things I never thought possible. Most of the accusations aren't even true, and when I tried to defend myself you just kept throwing the knives right into my fragile heart. I did my best to put you over myself, and for nothing. You hurt me so bad that I can't even sleep at night without crying. Shit, just typing this has me in tears. You may think that verbally saying the things you did OVER text message shouldn't effect me, but you're very wrong. I think about what you said almost everyday. I try to push it past me, but I can't come to terms with that. I don't even feel comfortable in my own skin. To think, I was becoming more accepting of who I am, and then our little fight brought me back to square one. It's been four fucking months, and it still stings.
YOU ARE READING
To Feel
PuisiJust a girl putting her feelings into words. From poems to unsent letters, I pour my soul into each piece. Many of the pieces are about the dark parts of my mind, and wanting types of love that I'll never be able to have.
