Opposites

s e v e n t y - n i n e

Songs for the chapter :
•Undo - Sanna Nielsen
•Honest - Kodaline
•We Don't Talk Anymore - Charlie Puth Ft. Selena Gomez

Zayn

Is numb the right word?

No, really, is it? Because, I feel numb.

I feel nothing.

This is the worst thing that has ever happened to me. Much worse than my mother's sickness, and much, much worse than my brother's and Pearl's betrayal.

I've never imagined she would do something like that. I've always thought she's pure, and true. I've always thought that lying wasn't her thing, and look at what she got going, ; lies, lies, and more lies. She made her whole life a lie, and because of what? Because I hate dancing. Of course I'm putting all the ninety-five percent blame on her, but the other five percent is on me, because I could've showed her a little sympathy for dancing. I could've let go of my hatred of dancing just a little bit for her.

But, I didn't, because I didn't know that she actually dances. If she only told me from the start, things wouldn't be so fucked up right now. If she only told me, I would be finally living peacefully.

To be fucking honest, I have never loved someone as much as I love her. I've never been attracted to a woman like I am to her. And I don't think I'll ever will.

I thought Pearl was the only woman that'll make me feel special, that'll make me forget about the world, and feel a lot more better when I'm with her. Not until I met Melody, that completely changed.

She showed me how influenced you can be when you finally meet someone that takes your breath away, and how the ability to change for someone becomes easy. I never thought of changing for some girl—not even Pearl. Yet, Melody made me do that, and I loved who I've become. I love the new Zayn she made me turn into. Because, she turned me into a better person. A better Zayn in everything.

She cared for my art, my accomplishments, and me in general—something no one dared nor cared to do. Melody Styles had me wrapped around her finger, in a good, captivating way.

Honestly, I don't know what to feel, nor how to feel about everything. It fucking sucks ass.

Melody makes me happy, she makes me who I really am, and I love her for that. I still do, with all my heart. But, why? Why did she have to ruin us like that? I've never felt this sad, and lost before. All because of a girl. She isn't some ordinary girl, though. She has everything you could ever ask for.

Watching her dance that night, made every bit of my heart, bones and ribs to rip apart in shreds. It was like the whole world suddenly stopped moving, along with my heartbeat and the airway to my lungs. Everything suddenly unfolded, and the truth stood out.

I never saw it coming from the girl who said that she hated dancing with every ounce of her.

All that I was remembering that night was, the similar incident that hapened with my brother and Pearl. It felt the same, but this time the pain is much stronger, and the betrayal is bigger. It feels like I'm dreaming, but it's the harsh reality slapping me in the face instead.

There was one thing that I couldn't erase from my mind, though. She danced beautifully. She looked stunning while twirling, and moving around. There was something about her dancing, that made my insides to stir in a weird way. I don't want to think that her dance moves were shockingly amazing, but I can't fail to admit that they actually were.