Crash || Luke Hemmings

8. doubting love

*Luna's POV*

Meet me at the same cafe @ 7 pm

I read the message for about the hundrenth time and looked around the cafe as I sat at the same table I had the night before.  I checked the clock on my phone again and saw that it was 7:15.  Why would Luke want to meet with me?  He wouldn't even talk to me around all of the guys so why would it be any different in a one-on-one situation?  I was scared and I rubbed my hands over the jeans covering my thighs again.  Finally I heard the bell above the doorway ring and I looked up to find the one and only, Luke Hemmings.

As he glanced around the room to find me, I took the oppurtunity to look at him.  He was wearing a plain white t-shirt and a plaid button up shirt over it, unbuttoned.  He wore another pair of ripped jeans; he probably had twenty pairs of those.  He wore his black on black vans and smiled when I saw the 'You Me at Six' bracelet, that we had gotten at the concert when we were fifteen, still on his wrist.  His blond hair was spiked up perfectly, almost as if it had grown that way and he didn't even have to do anything to it.  He finally caught my eye as I sat in the corner and I felt my face heat up from checking him out.

He slowly walks over to my table and I can't quite read him.  Normally, I'm pretty good at reading what mood he's in; whether he's sad, happy, angry.  I always knew, sometimes even when he didn't.  But that was two years ago so I guess things change because I couldn't read a thing.  He pulled a chair out from underneath the table and sat down across from me.  He looked up and into my eyes.

"Hi."  He said quietly and I thought I could hear his voice shaking.  His blue eyes made me want to forgot everything.  To forget everything that went wrong and just be best friends again.  They looked blue but not the happy and cheerful blue they had always been.  They reminded me of a sad blue, they kind of blue you think of when you're sad or depressed or hurt.

"I'm sorry."  We both said at the same time and we locked eyes, giving each other small smiles.

"Let me go first."  I said and he nodded for me to continue.  "I'm sorry for what happened, it's just I didn't know what to do.  I shouldn't have left LA in the first place, but I did and I wish I would have gave you more of a warning.  I just really miss you, Luke.  It's been two years without my best friend, and I just want everything to go back to the way they were before that night.  I hope you can forgive me; I was a shit best friend but I'll be better this time.  I promise."

"Pinky promise?"  He asked and held his pinky finger out towards me.  A giant smile erupted onto my face because I knew that meant he had forgiven me.  We had always done this when we were best friends.  One of us would say 'promise' and the other would respond with 'pinky promise?'.  It was kind of our thing and I'm glad nothing was changing.  I latched my pinky finger onto his and we both kissed the ends of our hands. "I wanted to say sorry to.  I shouldn't have acted like such a dick to you these past couple of days.  I understand that we were both at fault but this was the first time I've seen you since then and I guess I just didn't know how to act.  So instead of acting like the mature adult I'm supposed to be, I decided I wanted to be a five year old brat and I'm really sorry."

"It's okay, Lucas.  I understand."  My eyes got wide as I realized that I had called him his old nickname and my face began turning red.  Were we at the friend stage yet?

"What are we ordering?  We're going to be here for a while.  We have two years worth of catching up to do, Moona."  I chuckled way too loudly but I didn't care, I had my best friend back.  We each ordered some food, but Luke ended up eating most of mine.

"Lucas, I swear if you eat any more of my fries, I'll cut your fingers off."  He laughed loudly as he reached across the table to get more of my fries.  I sighed loudly and rolled my eyes.

"Are you this rude to Stephen?"  He mumbled as he shoved the fries into his mouth.  Two years and he was still eating like a monster.

"No, because he doesn't steal my fries!"  I protested and crossed my arms and leaned back in my chair.

"Are you excited for the married life?"  Luke asked as he put his left hand up and moved it back and forth like he was in the Single Ladies music video.  My stomach began to turn and all the blood rushed from my face.

"Do you want the honest truth or what I've been telling everyone?"  Luke's eyes squinted up in confusion and he sat up from his slouched position like I had caught his attention.  He wiped his hand on his napkin and then placed it on the table.

"The truth, Lune."  He leaned against the table as he placed his arms on each side of his plate.

"I haven't told anyone before but to be honest, I'm scared to death.  I'm twenty years old for crying out loud.  How am I supposed to know if I love him enough to be with him for the rest of my life?  Heck, how do I even know if I love him at all?  I feel rushed and pressured; I hate making decisions, you know that."  I finally looked up at him after I finished rambling on about the truth and it felt like a weight had been lifted.  It felt good to tell someone how I actually felt.

"Lune, when you love someone you know.  You would rather see them happy then be happy yourself.  You would give up everything in the world just to see them smile.  You would feel empty without them.  You'd feel pain when they did something to dissapoint you, but you love them anyways.  If you love someone they mess with every emotion possible.  You feel alive when you're with them.  You feel love, overwhelming and indescribable love."

After Luke's description on what he thought love was, I began to doubt if I had ever loved Stephen at all.

*Author's Note*

Helllllllllllo friends! No one has any idea how happy I am that Luna and Luke are friends again because I like writing their interactions together without it being a flash back.  Okay, so now we know that Luna left two years ago and that's part of the reason why they were in a 'fight'.  We don't know why and stuff but you'll find out later :)  Hope you guys liked it, if you do comment and vote and stuff! Thanks! Also, I need to write more so I have no idea when the next update will be so just stay in tune! Hopefully it won't be too long, I just have't had time to write! :) xoxo

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