Crash || Luke Hemmings

25. just crash

*Luna's POV*

My breathing slows, as well as my pace, as I begin my walk into the country club.  I knew they'd be here for the reception, which wasn't happening.  I needed to see him, to confirm my thoughts, hopes, dreams, and feelings.

I open the door to the front, and walk in to her music playing along with scrambling around from people.  I inform one of the workers, quickly and quietly, that no one will be here so there's no need to set up.  Once the lady knods and heads to inform everyone else, I finally get a chance to hear the music playing.

I see Luke in the distance playing his guitar and standing in front of the microphone.  I know he can't see me and I'm thankful for that.  None of the other boys are playing with him and I notice the beat is one I haven't heard before.

"I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted,"  It was one of their songs, I could tell, but it must have been new.  A puzzled look came upon my face and suddenly I felt someone's presence beside me.

"Luke wrote that song a couple weeks ago."  Ashton explained without me even having to ask.  "Listen to the words."

"I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way you tasted

And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you

When he says those words that hurt you do you read the one's I wrote you

Sometimes I wonder was it just a lie; If what we had was real how could you be fine? Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving

I remember the makeup running down your face

And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them

Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia and forget about the stupid little things

Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you and the memories I never can escape

Cause I'm not fine at all."

"Ashton, what is this?"  I asked quietly, scared to hear the answer.  I could hear, no feel, the emotion in his voice, in the music, in the way he was playing.  I felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest and was just laying there.

"That's Luke."  Ashton grabs my hand and squeezes it.  "That's Luke without you."

A shiver runs down my spine and I can't handle it anymore.  A single tear runs down my cheek at the thought of this pain and all these feelings because of me.  But then I remember how miserable I was then too.  I didn't realize why.  But it was because I was with the wrong person the entire time.  Luke knew that.  Luke had to feel that.

"If today I woke up with you right beside me like all of this was just some twisted dream

I'd hold you closer than I ever did before and you'd never slip away and you'd never hear me say

I remember the day you told me you were leaving, I remember the makeup running down your face

And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia and forget about the stupid little things

Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you and the memories I never can escape