Crash || Luke Hemmings

23. these days

*Luna's POV*

 Standing on the alter of a church, wearing a black dress I practiced saying my vows.  He practiced his too but seemed nonchalant about it.  I was shaking and could feel my hands getting clammy.  My mom cried as she sat in the front pew.  I smiled as much as I could and Stephen smiled back but he kept looking around like he was bored or something.  This is our wedding rehearsal, you should be ecstatic or at least nervous.

We were now back at the dinner and almost everyone has finished eating.  We're no longer worrying about what needs to be done for tomorrow but instead celebrating.  So many of my friends and family are here tonight and normally rehearsal dinners are small but I invited all the people I could.  I watch in the front of the room as Calum and Michael try to set up the speakers.  They look like they're arguing and I chuckle to myself knowing that Calum will always win.  Luke and Ashton suddenly walk through the side door with their instruments and I shiver, probably from the wind.

Luke's eyes catch mine for a few seconds but he immediately moves his gaze someone else.  Ashton notices the encounter and 'accidently' hits Luke in the head with his drum sticks.  He gives me a small smile and waves.  I wave back and give him a big smile, with teeth and all.

"Tomorrow is going to be such a great day!"  Someone said behind me, hugging me quickly and then continuing on.  I smiled and said to myself, 'yes it's going to be a great day'.  Stephen smiled at me and squeezed my hand before standing up from his place and walking away.  Suddenly I was left at the table alone with nothing but my empty plate and my thoughts.  I looked around to see everyone socializing, smiling, and laughing.  A pain rushed throughout my body and I tried to smile but nothing came.

How come everyone is smiling, laughing, and having a good time while I can't even get grin out of myself.  I'm trying to be happy, I really am.  I don't know why I'm not.  Tomorrow I'm getting married.  I should be the happiest person ever but I can't be.

Maybe I'm sick.  I should see a doctor.  I've been weird like this for a while and I don't know why.  Maybe it's something a couple days in bed and an antibiotic could fix.  That better work.

Nothing else seems to be working these days.

*Luke's POV*

"Shit man, that hurt."  I tell Ashton as I rub the back of my head.  He shrugged as he finished putting his drum set together.

"I told you it was an accident, sorry."  He said but didn't seem sorry if you ask me.  Calum and Michael stood by the speakers and continued to argue.  I rolled my eyes and began to set up the microphones on the stage.

I see Luna out of the corner of my eye again but blink her image out of my sight.  A few minutes later, we're all set up (Calum was right) and ready to perform some songs.  We started off playing some popular songs that everyone could dance to.  Then Ashton told us we should play a slow song, so we all nodded our heads and he started the beat to 'All of Me'.  I watched as the floor cleared and Stephen grabbed Luna's hand and pulled her to the center.  They began to dance together; her arms around his neck and his hands on her waist.  I cringed but began to sing.  My voice felt shaky as if I might stop singing at any moment.  I couldn't watch them anyone but as I began to watch other people I saw them all smiling at Luna and Stephen.

Couldn't they all see how unhappy she was?  Sure, she was smiling but anyone could see it wasn't a real smile.  She wasn't happy; she never would be with him.  Maybe she's telling herself she is, but she knows deep down she's not happy either.

I wish I could talk to her.

I wish she wasn't getting married.

Nothing seems to be going right these days.

*authors note*

im sorry, it's been forever since i updated and this is super short

but ive been so busy lately and ive had writers block and i need motivation

but here the chapter issss

just so you know this is the same night just from both of their povs

ily thank you guys for reading even though im awful at updating